vida la viva

ito na ba yung tamang pagkakataon para mag-give up?

we had all the time we needed...

we.. or I never took the chance..

to smile.. to chuckle.. to be happy and free..

its all my fault.. I was always away.. aloof.. up in the skies with the 747s..

its everybody's fault.. if they hadn't influenced me in doing so then I never hesitated.. to walk.. to approach the pen and paper... to sacrifice time for something that I would like...

but yeah.. is it time to pull the plug and give up? is it time to turn your back from the crowd to return to the dressing room? is it time to remove all costumes and prosthetics? is it time to forget the lines I've memorized for so long? is it time to give up the pound of gold that I've been saving for that cloudy day?

but for the past few days.. I've done so much.. too much for me to just let go just like that...

should I just learn from this experience? or should I put all of my hope in the on the cigarette pack I picked up from the alley?

4 years typing and I still do not make any sense...

but isn't that what I am supposed to be?