pers time in o nine

I need a change of scenery...

I need to migrate...

I need to be with new people...

new friends, new enemies, new strangers...

I dunno.. I have this habit of always starting anew.. once a word document starts looking ugly.. I press ctrl+n.. when I can't follow the story of the book I'm reading.. I go back to page one.. when I start dying in the game.. I press the reset button..

if the concept of a new beginning were true.. I'd probably smile more.. I'd probably be a happier little boy full of hope..

but no.. a new beginning is a myth.. it's an idea that people made up when they were in a mess.. cause it's easier to press ctrl+n than pressing ctrl+z a lot of times... and we all know that ctrl+z has it's limits..

Niko Bellic was right.. you can't just drop your luggage and say you're a new man..

whatever screw ups you had will always follow you everywhere..

even in the deepest darkest corner of a round house..

... and that is why I eat chocolate..