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I should start shooting myself...

if only I had the things I need..

I'm in lots of pain.. and the meds will pretty much fix it...

I'm very stupid.. shooting would fix it.. at least for a while.. I wouldn't feel so bad..

but I'd still have to go through a pinch to put it in my veins..

maybe I should sign myself up in one of those mental facilities.. I should stay there until I am old enough to not be remembered by anyone.. at least I don't have to be subjected to too much pain...

only lots and lots of waiting.. and watching... mentally ill people...

it's fairly simple.. I would say that I am Schizotypal (different from Schizophrenic and Schizoid)
or I have some mental disorder not listed in th DSM-IV or in the edited version of DSM

I guess the only way we can avoid pain is.. to avoid pleasure.. to avoid feeling good.. because how can one say that something is bad if they do not have a benchmark of goodness or something...

yeah.. maybe that's what I am gonna do.. I'll avoid the good things in life.. maybe execpt South Park.. its the only thing I look forward to when I wake up..

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