I'm pretty sure I can't cope with this...

I do not think I am designed to be able to handle interpersonal relationships and when shit happens with those things...

you never told me your beef with Gesmund...

[this is where you might stop reading.. but please I implore you... read on]

and I never learned how to even talk to you in person... I'm quite pathetic.. and you're a person who knows that truth hurts.. that's why you protected my by not telling me what's really happening.. and I understand...

it already happened and I am not in the position to get angry or something... I had suspicions... I believe that my distrust were backed up by things observable by the naked eye..

its quite sad that it had to turn out this way.. of all the people in the world... I, who is clearly not prepared to handle these situations, would be the victim.. both of you would be collateral damage.. or I am the collateral damage.. whichever way you want to view it...

I do realize that I might be the most pathetic guy in the planet right now.. the moment I am writing this.. I don't think there is a need for me to even write this.. I sleep well at night already.. I can smile... but I lost my love for siomai...

half of me doesn't want you to read this.. and the other half is the one responsible why I am still typing...

you're quite the charming person to make me fall for you magic for a very long time...

and others as well..

but you rarely talked much.. was always the one blabbing.. that's why I think you have the upper hand... you always had.. I think.. I know what you don't like but I kept on.. doing it..

or I kept on not doing it...

I don't think I remember you having an opinion on me... I never knew what I should've worked on..

sisikat ka

...burn after reading