I wouldn't believe you...

if you told past me, the things I've been through for the past year, past me would never believe you.

I've been around some crazy things in the past year that I never thought would ever happen to a schmuck like me. who am I really? what am I? I like a very sedentary lifestyle, boring kid, life revolves around the computer and games. one of your generic lame kids.

I am in no ways generic, I guess, I fit well into the spectrum of creepy/weird people. I've managed to work on charisma a bit. I try to project a more likeable aura than being antisocial and stuff, that probably helped me into becoming the person I am right now. apparently, the person I am right now got me the opportunities and instances where I never thought possible for me.

though I never looked into the future and possibilities that much, it's probably more of like "my past self would never believe you" kind of disbelief. cause really, the things I've gone through, the people I've met, the opportunities I've had... it seemed to me that I was the right guy at the right time in the wrong moment that probably made it into the beautiful accident that the past year turned out to be.

I do live for the unexpected. I like how my life is full of surprises. maybe if I went outside the house, things would turn out better, but I dunno. I don't want to force it, I want life to play out on its own and see where it takes me. sit back, relax, and if that internship does not work out, I always have plan B.

always.