you grow old and learn to adopt a degree of cynicism to survive
it's not that i've given up on what is good in the world, it's just that you get to know the people around you and understand their motivations. it may also be just me projecting my thought process to my world in an attempt to not feel alone because "at least, everyone else is doing it"
to most people, my views on what are usually good things like love, charity, and passion projects, can be sickening. but really my opinion is shaped by humans themselves. there will always be a façade of politeness because that how society works, but at our core we are way worse than we're willing to admit. we can convince ourselves otherwise, which works when you have a persona to maintain because, indeed, "perception is reality"
my bleak perspective doesn't necessarily mean an unwillingness to live happily. in fact, it's the opposite, it even helps me live happier. you learn to identify the things you have to let go and not get too invested in, you learn to not waste your efforts in trying to get a hold things that are beyond your control, you learn to be practical about how you will go about with daily decisions.
yes it's tough, it takes discipline, and most importantly, it's something you will have to keep on doing until you die.
but when you keep at it - life will be worth living.
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