x control

oh so wrong I'm growing old under the gun gun gun...

whatever

and yeah.. I do think that I'm growing old.. well I'm growing up.. but I'm growing old at a faster rate.. well I think that there is a difference between growing up and growing old.. yeah you can grow up but you can still be as youthful as you used to be.. and right now I'm turning into an old hag.. it's butt ugly.. I can't laugh at certain things anymore.. I've lost my sense of humor.. people consider my life as boring.. I nag about a lot of things.. the people who can tolerate me gets fewer by the minute.. yeah.. it sucks..

the day the world ends

Start:

Apr 7, '08

the kingdom of ged is at hand... repent and believe in the anhedonia! prepare your sacrificial blue bills... LET'S GET PARTY!

timor letse

konnichiwa! I'm currently taking a break from answering Sudoku puzzles. I just bought a Sudoku Samurai magazine.. it's extremely addictive and logically fun! I only bought the Intermediate version.. because y'know I actually suck at the pen and paper Sudoku.. I'm a better player when I'm playing the Sudoku puzzles in my phone.. the one that informs you when you make a mistake.. and then after two or three mistakes plus one stupid move/wrong number entered.. I can finish it within 10 minutes.. stupid me.. my logical skills aren't really that good y'know.. cause.. y'know.. I base all of my decisions on hunches and stuff..

whatever

BANZAI!!

home sweet home.. aaaaaaaaand it seems like somone fixed my room.. most prolly my older sister fixed it since the computer was turned off when I got home.. or maybe it's my dad.. or maybe both? I dunno.. my room is disorganized as hell.. but I got used to it I guess.. I think being organized as hell shouldn't really be imposed on kids.. cause y'know.. some people work better when their things are in a mess.. well.. ummmmm... I think disorganization should be considered as an artform! because y'know.. beauty is subjective.. and maybe.. some people would consider something disorganized beautiful.. sounds crazy? well.. I dunno.. maybe I just don't like admitting my faults..

whatever

screw you Bea and Daniel! it says here that:"There is NO MATHEMATICAL way to solve a Sudoku puzzle. You can only solve it using logic." ergo.. it's not a mathematical thing! bang bang bang!

pifty cent

final day.. hoorah.. too bad my dad hid the modem when we were still in the province... now that I am back........ LET'S GET PARTY!!

too bad I wasn't able to do a blog entry when I was still in the province.. because give me two hours of bloody sleep then I'd be as insightful as hell..

whatever

I forgot what I was supposed to type here to end the Grandaddy's Funeral Saga... I totally hate my memory... give me 10 minutes..

after watching GTA IV's final trailer and Guitar Hero: Aerosmith's trailer et cetera.

oh yeah... I remember now..

I think there was never a funeral that I cried in when everyone else were crying.. it's like "bloody hell why can't I bloody cry over a bloody corpse".. bullcrap.. I always ask myself why can't I cry at occasions like that.. maybe I'm too emotionally detached or something.. well my interpersonal skills aren't really ummm... I dunno.. I suck at being a normal human.. but the concept of being normal is actually subjective.. soooooooooo.. ummmmm... but most people consider me queer(hahahaha.. queer).. I think Jonas is the only kid I know that told me that I'm normal.. and he thinks everyone else suck.. yeah.. totally.. and bloody hell.. he's not Filipino.. maybe it'd be better for me to migrate in a country that would consider me normal so I can live a normal life and have a normal wife and normal kids and normal neighbors and normal friends and normal enemies.. I never really liked the idea of 'pakikibagay' or something.. I'm not really good with words anyway.. but yeah.. I don't like the idea of changing what you really are to be accepted in a certain community.. I'm pro-cultural diversity.. :D.. that's why I hate it when religious sects ban homosexuality.. or white power groups(ie KKK).. yeah.. I'm a victim of racial discrimination too ;).. that's why if I were the president.. I'd allow same sex marriage! if the bishops would label my actions preposterous and use the argument "God only created man and woman.. no tweeners".. then I'd use the anti-thesis "homosexuality is a genetic disease.. anomalies happen".. I never really believed that religion should meddle with political affairs.. we have the ethics board and the opposition party to do that.. I've always wanted a gay president.. have you noticed that some of the most creative people are gay? or they're gays in denial? I dunno.. you have gay directors in the philippines.. you have gay comedians.. you have gay showbiz personalities.. and take a look at your gay classmates.. most prolly they'd be left handed.. left handedness = right brain dominant = creative..

whatever.. I've blabbed too much..

hooray for gays!! as long as they don't touch my genitals.. >:(  yes Paolo Chua.. I'm looking at you!

Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion

Rating:	★★★
Category:	Video Games
Genre:	Role-Playing
Console:	PC Games

ewan ko ba kung baket andaming nagsasabing maganda yung larong yun... pero parang naboringan ako eh.. it emulates life almost(almost ha!) perfectly... and ayun.. naboboringan ako sa buhay eh.. I don't want a game na simulation ng totoong buhay.. kung maglalaro ako.. gusto ko out of this world.. something na sa games ko lang maeexperience.. tae yung elder scrolls eh.. lakad dito.. patay sa arena.. questing.. para talagang real life.. yung graphics.. maganda.. pero di ganun ka-ganda.. yung music.. di ko trip yung score.. tas yung voice acting ayos lang.. muka nga lang silang tanga.. or baka di ko lang trip mga slow paced games? ewan... feeling ko slow paced yung Elder Scrolls eh.. nababagalan ako pag nagspri-sprint.. sprinting na yun ha.. pero ayun.. baka sabihin nyo kaya nababagalan ako kasi mabagal system ko.. dhe naman.. medyo low-mid range sya.. 2GB RAM.. Nvidia 6800 GTS.. tas P4 na 3.0GHz.. running on Windows XP.. pamatay Vista sa system.. panira yung processor eh.. haha..pero ayos lang I rarely experience any lag..

ayt?

text pistols

masaya dito sa burol.. lahat nga sila nagtatawanan at nagsusugal eh.. lupet..

maraming mah jong pieces dito.. halos pwede ka na nga gumawa ng mah jong castle eh.. san ka pa!

napaka-varied rin ang mga pagkain dito.. may pork na durog, may pork na buo, may pork na puro taba, may pork na may veggies, may pork na buto lang, may pork na red, may pork na orange, at may pork na dark brown.. kulang na lang ng fried pork pwede na pangkain sa mga ambassadors ng UN eh

napaka-youthful rin ng mga bumibisita dito.. yung iba may glaucoma na, yung iba buto't balat na lang, yung iba gumagamit na ng baston pero malakas pa rin mag yosi..

ang malupet pa dun... nagkalat ang mga butong pakwan! may butong pakwan sa styro bowls, may butong pakwan sa tables ay may butong pakwan sa sahig..

di lang yun.. sandamakmak rin ang Boy Bawang dito.. enough na yung supply ng Boy Bawang dito para sa isang pamilya for a year.. lupet 'no?

napaka-saya talaga sa mga burol sa probinsya... di katulad sa Manila na may aircon, sandmakmak na bulaklak at may preacher..

happy happy joy joy

pinkballer

day... four? or five? I dunno.. who cares anyway..

we are bloody leaving tomorrow!!! hoorah!

well.. this is a very uneventful day.. or.. ummm.. I dunno.. my verbal skills are currently non existent.. forgive the senselessness.. hello

I will shoot you!!!

whatever... my brain cells are fried and ummmmmm.. yeah.. screw me..

bang bang!

kiki mamps

do you like the new theme? it's sooooo me right? with all the flowers and stuff.. I totally love flowers.. they're like.. y'know.. the cutest thing everrrrrrr.. but too bad I never recieved any of them.. :(

you thought I was straight? no wai.. I'm gay..

I feel like working as a teacher when I graduate.. I wanna be an unconventional teacher.. like.. a teacher of the history of punk rock or the history of different subcultures.. or whatever.. if I were given the chance to act like a teacher.. I'd teach them shit.. I think the kids will love it.. cause they're sick and tired of arithmetic and the sciences and stuff.. maybe a class on Philippine Pop Culture would break from the monotony of the same ol' boring curriculum.. amazing

I actually like kids.. somtimes.. well. ummmmm.. I don't like kids who bug me.. I like observing kids.. or something like that.. I like watching people.. it's like watching a bunch of monkeys.. or primates or whatever.. I find it relaxing to watch people.. sometimes.. because there are times that they'll be bloody irritating.. and sometimes they'll be boring.. like.. y'know.. when you're in a coffee shop.. and you'll just see people passing by and stuff.. so I think it's better to watch monkeys than people.. cause they're confined in a small world.. it's like watching an alien race or something..

oh well.. I'm blabbing.. my stomach hurts.. oh well.. bloody hell..  

pump up the jam

day four... and I'm speaking english again.. whoopee

I just woke from a bloody seven hour sleep.. my head hurts right now.. yesssssss.. it's a bitch.

I still have to endure two bloody days here.. and I don't like mingling with the locals here. or maybe I just don't like the people smoking excessivley. or maybe I don't like the old women who kept on insisting that I'm bloody handsome.. but don't get me wrong.. I love compliments.. if I had a doctor he'd reccomend constant encouragement from people.. don't understant what I'm talking about? I suggest you get a team, get a whiteboard and act like House.. "what's the differential for blah blah blah blah blah"

bloody fuck.. I feel like a protagonist in a Michel Gondry film. maybe I am... raise your bloody hand if you think that I'd make a good character in one of Michel Gondry's films. you don't know Michel Gondry? too bad... well you can try renting his films.. if it's available on DVD.. or try going to the dark side and you can use the magic of torrents.. or there's IMDb and you can try reading the film synopsis.. but if you're not really interested it's fine with me.. but if you're totally bored and you don't have anything to do... then you might as well try something different this summer. but don't blame me if you felt like you wasted an hour and forty of your life.. it's your bloody call..

maybe I might be doing an entry later.. I dunno.. maybe not... maybe I'll be too lazy to type something later.. but boredom is a good motivator...

skip to my lou

ayaw ko munang mag ingles ngayon... parang natatarayan ako sa sarili ko pag binbasa ko yung ingles na blag entries ko eh... pero ayun.. di rin naman ako friendly.. pero kahit sa internet naman sana maging friendly ako.. haha.

day three sa probinsya (pero kung bibilangin mo yung days nung holy week.. ummm.. ewan.. I've lost count..)

tapos ko nang madownload ang Sims 2.. sa wakas.. University pa lang naiinstall ko.. ayos lang.. yun lang naman gusto kong expansion pack sa lahat ng mga naging expansion packs eh.. pero sayang wala yung compatibility chuchu na meron sa Nightlife. tska wala rin atang kotse.. geektalk.

anyway.. inuwi na rin ng ate ko yung speakers na sinasabi nya.. yey! minsan lang ako maka-experience ng high quality sound eh.. sa sinehan lang.. poor me.. ansaya nga eh.. abot sa chest cavity yung vibrations ng bass eh.. di katulad sa standard speakers lang na parang kiliti lang.. kulang na lang ng sound card tas pwede na ko sa 7.1 surround sound.. diba may 7.1 na? okaaaay.. geektalk nanaman

nakakatuwa yung Maps at Y Control sa speakers ko.. or baka lahat na ng Yeah Yeah Yeahs songs? ewan.. Led Zep, Daft Punk, Death Cab, at Mew pa lang napapakinggan ko sa bago kong speakers eh.. salamat ate! sana next time Xbox 360 na may Jasper chipset naman.. pero sa august pa yun eh.. antagal daw kasing gumawa ng 65nm na GPU yung mga enhinyero ng Microsoft.. tae.. geektalk ulet

parang ewan yung sopas dito sa wake.. parang mainit na macaroni salad na may karne.. super lapot..halos wala nang sabaw.. na absorb na ng macaroni yung sabaw..

I gotta date with a niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight! okay... haha.. enjoy yung Yeah Yeah Yeahs sa speakers eh.. pero parang pare pareho lang boses ni Karen O sa bawat kanta.. parang isang mahabang kanta yung album kasi parepareho lang yung tunog ng kanta.. except yung iba.. lalo na sa latter parts ng Fever To Tell..

nakakainspire tuloy gumawa ng banda.. kung si Karen O bumebenta sa ganung klase ng kanta ako pa kaya? pero syempre.. dapat tama yung audience.. dito sa pilipinas gusto nila emo eh.. walang lugar ang pop punk.. pop punk ba yung Yeah Yeah Yeahs? Parang punk-ish yung tunog eh.. tas pop beat mala Ramones.. alternetive na lang kaya? whatever.. rak yan.. rak.. magaling na performer si Karen O.. ooooooooooo

tae ka pag di mo 'to naintindihan..

sumatotal

thank you for visiting my otherwise dead blog... all of my accounts that require creative input are dead.. except Multiply though.. well.. nobody reads any of my blog entries anyway.. so why bother..

and I'd really like to thank you for letting me waste your time...

nutmeg

whoopee.. we're leaving.. again.. and I'm brining my uber cool CPU with me.. blah..

to those who aren't in the know.. most of the time.. I'm sarcastic about things.. soooooo.. the next time you see me saying 'whoopee'.. don't think I'm being ecstatic there.. I'm rarely happy... oh god.. here comes my quasi-emo-ness again.. screw me..

anyway.. I've noticed that my blog entries aren't really well aranged.. yeah.. and I'm not even using proper punctuation marks.. I'm just using elipses.. well.. I never really learned how to use punctuation marks properly anyway.. I have the intellectual aptitute of a grade schooler..

gotta leave.. thankyouverymuch for letting me waste your time!

yeah... too much work can kill you

I'd rather not share what happened... well I don't like sharing anything acutally.. I'm selfish as hell. but yeah.. someone died.. and the guy is bloody healthy I think.. he suffered a mild stroke then died because of bloody worthless health care services here in the Philippines or maybe it's because the lousy hospital staff that were slacking off there. that's the problem with us.. we're lazy.. only a fistful aren't. I myself is lazy as hell. I'm like a last-minuteman(go study your American History if you don't know what a minuteman is).. like I won't do my job until someone's already screaming at me.. and then I'd whine about it and stuff. happy people.

oh well.. it's like 1 in the morning and I shouldn't be doing this because it's summer. I have to sleep like 10 hours a day to restore the brain cells lost because of the bloody projects the school imposed.. bloody hell.

work hard kids! it'll soon kill you...................................

I really need the medication right now...

yeah.. I do believe that I have high cortisol and low serotonin levels.. I think I'm clinically depressed. or maybe I'm just in love? nah... highly unlikely. but I don't have a laboratory to even test my blood for cortisol and serotonin and crap... oh well.. I don't think I'm making any sense. well.. I always don't.

well this is gonna be one long boring summer or boring long summer? I dunno.. I'm bad at linguistics anyway. I just felt like I really need to type this down even if I have a hard time with talking.. or speaking.. or whatever.. I find it hard to express my self verbally. and to think that I'm planning to take up law.. oh well.. lucky me. maybe I'll just go to med school and get the medications there... maybe some antidepressants.. or something.. but there are easier ways to be happy.. but c'mon.. I still wanna get my driver's license.

I'm really bad at doing blogs, my last blog was like.. crap.. go check it out on the links section.. but I suggest you'd rather not. because there are other sites that you can waste your time on.. a site more substantial than a person's.. ummmm.. thoughts.. I never understood the point of having a blog anyway. I don't read other people's blogs myself.. I'm not just interested with what's going on with other.. ummmm.. people.. especially my friends.. well not that I have any friends that use blogs.. but yeah.. I'd rather hear my friends telling their thoughts or whatnot to me than reading it from a blog. I might not have a friend like that cause I'm not really the warm and accomodating type of friend. I can never help you with anything related to the human psyche. maybe with technical stuff.. like troubleshooting or something. but I myself think that I suck in that department. bullcrap..

anyway... I feel kinda uplifted right now.. I think it's because of this blog entry.. maybe that's the reason why people do blogs. it's something therapeutic... it's like talking to someone.. or something.. well I don't have anyone to talk to anyway. nobody would understand what the fuck cortisol, dopamine, serotonin, diuretic, homeostasis, tetrahydrocannabinol are. well I hope I meet a neurologist or psychologist or a neuropsychologist.. that'd make a good friend. hmmmmmm.. expect to see more entries this summer. well.. maybe because I feel bloody depressed and I don't have anyone to talk to... screw me.. I'm sounding like a bloody emo kid.

NCAA Football Finals San Beda against La Salle

pagkatapos ng ilang buwang paghihintay.. eto na po mga kaibigan ang shots nung finals.. at oo.. tinatamad na kong i-tilt yung mga pa-portrait dapat na shots.. at tinamad na rin akong tanggalin yung mga pangit na shots.. at wala ata akong picture dyan... :D