y'know, truth is...

...it ain't absolute.

no matter how real something feels like. for all we know everything is an illusion. when we dream, we rarely are aware that we are dreaming until we wake up. we are aware that a dream is just a dream because it never has any form of continuity, whereas in the waking world, most often than not, we lie on the same bed we fell asleep in. until we fall asleep again and probably dream, a dream is but an episode of unknown origin, and purpose.

*this is where science ends and fictional literature begin*

a year ago today, I kept having frequent dreams of a girl I like so much. never had I experienced dreaming of the same person again and again and again. I then dismissed it as my subconscious satisfying my need to be with the girl. but a semester after, I was heavily engrossed with Hindu philosophy... every thought and action was influenced by Hindu beliefs. so then I developed this idea, given the assertion that the universe (Brahman) and our soul (Atman) flows as one, that dreams are messages of the universe to us.

thinking that the universe foreshadows what will happen, I started to develop an Islamic notion of surrendering to the will of Allah.

woah... wait, Allah? I thought we were talking about Brahman and Atman?

I believe in a pluralistic god. same god, different names from different cultures. I think its the god which remains the same, but its the culture in which the religion grew in which molds the dogma associated to the religion.

so I believe that all religions each have truth in them, some may contradict each other, but there will always be one unifying notion of something to hold on to because there really are things which we can't explain. science and empiricism gets the job done to a certain extent, but things deemed foolish by intellectuals such as faith and freak occurrences called miracles are what religion is there for.

I used to be some pseudo-intellectual who believed that god didn't exist and eventually doubted the non-existence of a god. now look at me, a kid who does not only believe in a god, but a few other more. it sounds absurd, but really, life can take a convoluted turn and change you into someone you didn't knew could possibly exist.

who knows? we probably are wrong after all.