I could get some Ritalin or Morphine right now...
or at least some Diaphen would do.. just something to make me escape.. or at least give me the illusion that I'm escaping
chemicals normally do the trick.. when every other option is not possible
but I do not have medication and/or other mind altering things... all I have is a fast internet connection that keeps on getting disconnected and twelve pesos worth of cellphone load...
summers gonna be boring because I have nothing to look forward to everyday I wake up... unlike last year where I had to wake up early to go to my review classes.. at least I have something to do.. right now.. it seems... bland..
I still need an HDTV to play games on my playstation.. I still need rolls of films to shoot using my Diana.. I still need money to eat outside...
and I realized going outside without company totally sucks balls... although it's quite liberating... not having to worry if the guy you're with is bored.. but it's kinda... difficult to walk around Megamall without someone to talk to or argue with.. or someone to laugh with while looking at the disc covers of filipino queer movies in your local Astroplus...
I'd rather have classes... at least it gives me something to look forward to every morning... meh.. look forward to? maybe not.. but at least it gives you a reason to leave the house...
but now I wonder who I was
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