pakainin ng chorva

habang ginagawa ko 'to... ako'y nakikinig sa Bad Motherfucker ng Radioactive Sago.. jazz track na bagay sa mga film noir na eksena sa 60s Times Square...

malupet na experiment 'to.. dahil tinitingnan ko kung may epekto ang mood ng isang insturmental music sa style and tone ng pag-gawa ko ng basurang ganito...

naiirita ako sa isang pimple sa muka ko.. may obstruction kasi sa line of sight ko eh.. sarap putukin.. pero wag.. masama daw yun... kaya I guess we'll just play the waiting game...

toooooorooooooorororooooooooooot

ay oo nga pala.. di ko pa pala nakwewkento ang pers impressions ko sa mga klasmeyts ko ngayong taon.. or.. nagawa ko na siguro pero di gaanong detalyado.

anyway... 4-40 St. Bede the Pre-Med class.. although Pre-Med rin ang 4-45.. pero puro patay na bata sila eh.. pero kami rin siguro.. mga patay na bata rin.. ang buhay ay nasa 4-41 at 4-44!

maswerte ako't di ako na-45.. kasi mukang di ko magugustuhan ang mga nilalang dun.. di pa naman ako mahilig sa mga cheesy na nilalang at sa mga feeling cool.. dinescribe ko ba sarili ko? oh well.. ang makakasalamuha ko lang naman ata dun ay si Elmar, Anne at Villena.. pero at least dun tatlo.. sa 4-40.. ang nakakasalamuha ko lang ay si Jethro.. at medyo na-a-awkwardan pa ko sa kanya kasi kadalasan naman eh sila Chi at mga bata nya sa 2-24 ang kasama nun.. kumabaga parang body guard lang nya ko.. or whatever.. pero ayos naman mga kaklase ko.. di masaya..  pero di puro patay.. may sarili silang buhay pero di yung tipong buhay na matatagpuan sa 1-14 o sa 3-32.. buti nga at napunta sa 40 si Jethro dahil kung hinde.. naku po! di ko na alam kung matatawa pa ko sa klase..

isa sa mga ayaw ko sa lineup ng 40 ay karamihan ng mga studyante ay galing 25.. kaya parang nanood ka ng isang teleserye sa kalagitnaan na ng season na wala pang episode recap! kaya di ako masyadong maka-relate sa humor nila eh.. puro sila "PONCEEEEEEEEEE" tas tawanan naman sila.. kaya nag-mistulang new student ako.. huhuhu

pero all hope is not lost.. ang malupet sa klase namin ay madaling ma-determine ang top ten.. at siguradong sigurado ako na this is gonna be my best year yet.. in terms of class standing.. feeling ko nga pwede pang mapasok sa top 10 si Ryan eh.. basta't gamitin lang nya ang pandudoktor nya.. wala namang gaanong kompetisyon.. kaya tiba-tiba tayo sa cash mula kay nanay at tatay ngayong taon.. shopping spree na 'to! woooohoooo!

hangga't di ko pa nakukuha ang mga materyal na bagay na dinedesire ko ay di ko gugustuhing magkaroon ng kompetisyon.. farming muna kumbaga.. tas pabayaan ko lahat ng mga hero patayin ang isa't isa.. habang tinitira ko muna ang Satyr Hellcaller at kung sinu-sino pang neutral creeps.. oops.. pangit na reference

balik training ulet.. at ngayong wala na sila Chols.. wala nang sisigaw samin pag nagkakamali kami.. pero feeling ko sisigawan kami nung Daniel na bago.. pero ewan.. masaya maglaro ng football.. lalo na pag nakaka-kill ako.. masaya mag-kill! lalo na kung sya lang yung babagsak.. pero ayos lang rin kung pareho kaming bumagsak.. basta't mauna akong makatayo eh..

anyway.. nahahalata ko lang ngayon sa mga linalagay ko eh ayaw ko ng kompetisyon.. thus mahina akong nilalang.. siguro ganun nga.. di ako pang-big wigs.. hanggang JRU lang ako.. pero ayos na yun.. mas gugustuhin ko ng madaling buhay keysa sa pahirapan.. sino ba naman kasi ang gusto na pinapahirapan ang sarili nya diba? let's keep it simple at tuhugin ang fishball gamit ang stick..

naiirita ako pag inaayos ang gamit ko.. kaya napaisip ako.. ang pagiging burara ba ay dahil sa katamaran ng tao or katulad lang ito ng pagiging masinop without keeping things in order.. kasi parang pag di inaayos mga gamit ko.. alam ko kung saan sya hahanapin eh.. pero pag inayos naman.. biglang magkakandawala-wala mga gamit ko! kaya siguro it's a choice talaga.. kung saan ka mas kumportable.. kaya dapat di iniimpose ang pagiging masinop sa mga gamit.. oo nga di maganda tingnan.. pero gugustuhin mo bang i-compensate ang comfort para lang sa kagandahan? tulad ngayon.. inayos ng katulong namin ang computer room.. at ngayon.. DI KO NA MAHANAP ANG MASTER DISC NG INDIE FILM NAMIN! PUTANG INANG YAN! ba't pa kasi pinapakielaman mga gamit eh.. may dahilan kung ba't ako burara sa computer room.. at di dahil yun sa katamaran..

masaya ang facebook.. di tulad ng MySpace at prenster.. di mo pwedeng i-customize ang look ng site mo.. which is a good thing I guess.. or maybe a refreshing thing.. kasi malamang sa malamang baka naiirita na kayo sa mga magulong layout ng profiles ng kaibigan mo.. buti pa facebook.. simple and clean.. although parang kino-contradict ko yung huling paragraph ko.. pero.. hmmmm.. teka.. ayun! dhe.. sa mga websites.. ayaw ko ng makalat! kasi mouse at keyboard lang ang ginagamit mo para makipag-interact sa mga on screen chuva.. eh sa totoong buhay.. may paa ka, ilong, tenga, mata, kamay, balat, buhok at kung anu-ano pang pwedeng maka-sense.. kaya you have flexibility in what you can do.. kaya mag-send na kayo ng friend invite sa facebook! dahil di ko yan i-aaccept...

Shaq-Fu!!!!!

akin na ang hotdog mo

balik football balik training...

training na ulet sa huwebes.. antagal ko nang di nagpapawis... at ako'y nanghihina na... pero kahit na ba.. malabo na kong lumakas kay coach.. parang tuwing nakikita nya ko.. lagi na lang mga pagkakamali ko ang natiyetiyempuhan nya.. pero ganyan talaga ang buhay.. swertehan lang...

alas siyete pa lang at inaantok na ko... di pa ko nagpapagupit... at di ko pa rin alam ang assignment... kung pwede lang magtime travel eh.. pupunta ako sa future.. sa thursday.. para wala na kaming presentation sa english at sa filipino... at may training na..

isa talaga akong irresponsableng bata.. ayaw harapin ang mga responsibilidad at walang kinabukasan..

mabuhay ang kabataang pinoy!

happy people

mahilig talaga ako kumain ng chicharong madumi...

may sinat ako ngayon... siguro sa kung anu-anong toxins na nahagilap ko sa kakatambay kila mami...

happy belated bertdey Jedrickson!

masayang unahin yung happy eh.. parang mas maganda pakinggan..

ansama ng pakiramdam ko ngayon... parang feeling ko may naiwan ako sa mga lugar na pinupuntahan ko.. tas meron pa nung feeling na... ano.. basta I feel agitated for reasons unknown.. feeling ko may kelangan akong gawin pero di ko alam kung ano yun.. siguro assignments.. siguro eto feeling ng pagiging lider ng grupo na may babae.. ewan.. ginawa akong lider nila Charm at Barbara dun sa grupo namin sa English at Math.. pero feeling ko baka di nila ako gagawing lider sa math.. di naman talaga ako magaling na lider pag may mga studyanteng middle range ang grades.. I work better pag puro bagsakan mga kasama ko.. kasi they will all listen to me.. or it challenges me to get them involved in the activity.. di naman ako yung tipong lider na di papansinin ang walang kwentang group member.. mas gusto ko pa ngang pagtrabahuhin yung member na yun eh.. atska ang isa pang maganda pag puro bagsakan ang mga grades ng mga members ko eh malaki ang takot nila.. since di naman ako babae o bading para gawin ang lahat sa isang project.. matatakot talaga sila...

love the kids...

mahirap maging di handa... andami kong di nadala ngayon sa klase.. at kelangan kong gamitin ang super duper resourcefulness skills ko.. tulad ng pag gamit ng bible na luma(courtesy of Cayetano Luis De Vera) as a dictionary.. or ang pag-gamit ng green filler at idahilan na kumupas na blue lang yun.. I soooooo love tricking people.. kaya beware.. I might be tricking you!

I feel bad about Jonas.. wala sya masyadong kasama ngayon.. parang last year lang para kaming magsyota eh.. pero tsk.. ngayon.. ni di nga nya kausap kapatid nya pag uwian eh.. boohoo.. I guess I have to make it up to him.. he's a good friend of mine.. and good friends must not be left behind... diba? diba? diba?

masaya mag lead ng morning prayer.. maaraw at magandang pampagising..

amen? amen!

gusto kong gumawa ng assignment pero di ko magawa

nasa diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa...

nakakatamad talagang gumawa ng mga assignments pag nasa bahay ka na.. or... nakakatamad lang talaga...

or... ewan.. kung magpapaassignment man sila gusto ko mag-aral lang tungkol sa isang topic o mag-dala ng isang pakete ng index card.. tulad ng ginawa nila ngayon.. tska problematic ang mga assignments na sasagutan.. kasi malay mo iba ang gumawa ng assignment na yun.. edi di rin sila natuto.. diba? buti pa si Jason Lorenzo eh.. ang assignment lang eh magaral tungkol sa topic bukas at magsosocratic method na lang sa kalahati ng duration ng klase.. it's so amazing

kulang ako sa tulog at mag aalas siyete na.. di pa ko nagpapagupit at wala akong planong magpagupit.. pero kelangan ko talagang malaman ang assignment ko...

isa akong dakilang tamad.. buti pa nga yung mga athletes eh.. kumokopya pa ng mga assignments sa iba.. dakila si Gerard Nick P. Chu

masaya ang di pagkokopya ng assignments.. dahil natre-train ako sa pageextract ng information... pero dahil wala na ko sa golden days ng YM nung online pa lahat ng mga 2-20 klasmeyts ko.. di ko na masyadong nahahasa ang mga mad skillz ko..

finally at natapos ko na rin ang Season 4 ng House.. too bad maghihintay pa ko hanggang September para mapanood ko ang Season 5.. sa lahat ng mga season finales ng House.. eto na siguro ang pinaka-gusto ko.. parang transition episode lang ang season finale ng 1st.. may kagandahan ang season finale ng 2nd na dinirect ni David Shore.. at di ganun ka-dramatic ang pag-alis ng staff ni House sa 3rd season.. nagustuhan ko talaga ang pagkakagawa ng huling dalawang episodes ng season 4.. sayang at kelangang mamatay ni Cutthroat Bitch sa huli.. dahil isa pa naman sya sa paborito kong characters.. mas gusto ko pang mawala si Kutner dahil ampangit nya.. at medyo kumorny ang role ni Thirteen.. or baka kasi kamuka nya yung Filipino titser ko dati? si Maribel Lim.. pero hanggang ngayon napapaisip ako sa relasyon ni Cutthroat Bitch at ni Wilson.. di ako naniniwala sa motives ni Cutthroat Bitch eh..pero whaddahey.. maganda yung season finale.. almost made me cry due to it's sheer beauty.. although nakakairita lang yung ibang parts na mukang siniksik lang.. tulad ng storya ni Kutner kay Thirteen tungkol sa buhay nya.. pero baka sa Season 5 magkaroon ng Indian patient si House at magkakaroon ng special scene si Kutner.. o baka magkakadebelopan na lang sila House at Cuddy sa Season 5 at yun na ang magiging katapusan ng series.. mukang nagbabadya na 'tong magpaalam eh.. kasi bumaba na yung viewership ng season 4.. pero siguro kasi konti lang yung mga naging episodes.. pero kahit na ba! kelangan magkaroon ng love life ulet si House at bumalik ang dati niyang team! or baka magkaroon na talaga ng malalang sakit si House at maging katapusan na ng mismong series.. wag naman sana.. gawin na lang nila yun sa Season 15..

when every title has to have the word "first day" in it

ayaw ko sanang gumawa ng blog entry tungkol sa pers day ko dahil it was very uneventful.. mas nagustuhan ko pa yung mga pers days ko nung pers to terd year ko sa Beda.

First Day...

iba ang pers day ko ng klase ngayon dahil alam ko na ang section na mapagbibilangan ko ngayong taon.. kaya di na ko masyadong umsitambay pa sa listahan ng mga klase. Unang kaklaseng nakita ko pagkababa ko ng kotse: si Nadia... dumami na pimples nya.. nakakagulat nga eh.. parang Rull na.. pero ganun talaga pag in lab.. or pag graduating na..

naiirita ako ngayon dahil namamaga ang dulong parte ng gums ko... anyway.. back to the story

siguro medyo na-preempt ko na yung section na mapaglalagyan ko...medyo nagbigay na ng mga omens si Ma'am Yabut eh.. sabi nya exposure na lang daw at kung anu-ano pang chechebureche.. at may mga nagulat rin sa naging section ko.. marami talaga ang umaasang magiging pre-law ako dahil "bagay" daw ako dun.. pero di naman talaga ako magaling sa ingles at sa pakikipag-argumento.. gago lang talaga ako.. pero masaya naman ako at di ako pre-law.. kasi ayaw ko ng Journalism.. pero sayang rin dahil di ko magiging kaklase ng apat na taon si Jersualem King Rull.. sa katunayan nga eh ako ang dahilan kung baket sya napunta sa pre-law eh.. at masaklap rin dahil never kong magiging kaklase si Bea, Cabs, Daniel, at Gesmund...

anyway.. 4-40 St. Bede Pre-Med.. adviser: Arlene Noble.. isang science titser pero di namin science titser.. napakagandang irony talaga.. pero scientific research teacher namin sya.. kaya makakapiling pa rin namin sya.. whooopeee... mukang magiging masaya itech..

karamihan ng mga kaklase ko ay dating 2-25.. kayo na bahala if it's a good thing or not.. pero I dunno.. naawa ako kay Mark Caronongan at kay Cesar Anthony Sollano.. di na lumipat ng room since sican yir..

ngayon pa lang eh nakakaramdam nako ng mga bad vibes sa populasyon ng kababaihan ng klasrum namin.. pero maybe it's just me..

ngayon eh putol putol ang mga paragraphs ko... masaya kasi pag ganun eh...

anyway.. si Jethro lang ata ang nakakatawa sa klasrum namin.. ako'y magpapakamatay kung tatanggalin sya sa klase! di maari!

ngayon pa lang eh.. gumagawa na ko ng prospective top 5 students ng klasrum.. at sila ay:
Top 1: Kenneth Francis Fernandez
Top 2: -wala-
Top 3: -wala-
Top 4: -wala-
Top 5: -wala-

nagulat ako nung nakita ko si Hendrixon Del Rosario sa Beda.. isang Atenista sa bundok ng San Beda.. my ged! pero nakakatuwa dahil pers year sya at puro totoy ang mga kasama nya.. at ang malupet.. aalis daw sya next year! eh maiintegrate pa naman din sya.. tsk tsk.. sana magagaling ang integrators nya.. it'd be alotta fun!

kung ikaw si Hennessy Del Rosario at nabasa mo ito.. :D hello.. your little brother is in good hands.. trust moi ;)

anywaaaay.. basura ang Beda.. sa tingin ko eh binago ang curriculum para tumaas ang revenues nila.. naniniwala ako na sa kahit anong bago nila sa curriculum nila eh di pa rin matututo ang mga studyante kung di ma-eexecute ng mabuti ang pagtuturo sa kanila.. anlakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ng kikitain ng Beda sa ganitong Modus Operandi.. pero kaya natanggal ang Philosophy Department ng Beda Mendiola.. dahil sa ginagawa ko ngayon.. kaya para di ako ang sunod na matanggal ng mga dakilang pari ng San Beda.. ay tatahimik na lang po ako...

buksan ang mata at isara ang wallet!

biodegradable art

I've always been a fan of graphing paper and math notebooks..

I magically drew this thing during a physics class in one of those review centers.. yeahp..

although it would be very misleading if I call them art.. but let's just leave it that way and everybody will be happy

I don't have the luxury of using a scanner to upload these things.. so I had to take a picture of them using an aging digital camera.. poor me

yeah yeah yeahs

yeah.. I get attracted as well.. it's pretty much normal for kids with raging hormones like me.. but yeah... sometimes I wear black things too much... the only white thing that I seem to religiously wear are my briefs and that.... in a way.. sucks.. but whaddahey..

yeah.. she reminds me of The Yeah Yeah Yeahs' Karen O.. well.. she kinda look like her.. although she's not as artistically inclined as her.. but ergh.. who cares anyway... Karen O is pretty I guess..

and I hate it when I start to think about her.. it's cheesy and all.. y'know.. it disgusts me..

and right now.. I pretty much wanna puke on this entry...

screw you

Tayo'y Magsuka at Tumili sa Star City

Re: DUGONG PINOY

tama...

tska parang may konting mimicry ng kulturang pinoy yung lahi nila eh.. parang without the other lahi's blood in their veins di rin sila malalagay sa sitwasyong yan..kumbaga, ang winning ingredient nila ay ang dugong banyaga.. o baka nga burden pa yung dugong pinoy eh.. pero I dunno.. whatever

as of the moment ang mga pure pinoy na nagkaroon ng international stardom ay si Manny Pacquiao.. at least boxing mas broad yung audience nya.. at nalalagay pa sya sa mga video games! eh si Lea Salonga tska yung bata na lumabas sa show ni Ellen DeGeneres.. di naman masyadong mag-aappeal sa kabataan dahil sa genre ng music nila.. pero who cares... marami pa rin namang mga pinoy na gusto maging amerikano eh..

suko na ko sa kakasudoku

well... not really.. at parang ayaw ko mag-tagalog sa entry na 'to kasi tungkol lang naman sa aking 'tong entry na 'to kaya there isn't any need to utilize the beauty of the Philippine language...

yes.. I believe that it's a beautiful language.. well erm.. I don't find the old skool Tagalog(see Florante at Laura) appealing.. the contemporary Flipino language(see Pinoy Slang) is so beautiful that you can't translate it properly in english(see German)

whatever...

people are posers... it's a known fact that we all do certain things to get the approval of the people around us.. of course we all live on the approval of others.. because we are social beings.. social beings depend on others.. and yeah.. that's pretty much it.. something random and politically incorrect.. poser really isn't the term..

MY CURRENT ADDICTION: DRUGS

nah.. I was just kidding.. current addiction? sudoku puzzles.. yeah..I'm done with six or seven sudoku puzzels on a 15 peso cheapo magazine... but still.. I got my bang for the buck.. sudoku in any form is fun.. may it be 4x4, 6x6, 9x9, with special stipulations and stuff.. yeah.. although my brain isn't really designed for tasks that require logic.. I'm actually doing good.. you guys can prolly notice in my blog entries that I tend to be emotional with things and you can't be logical and at the same time emotional when you're making an argument.. your brain has to favor something over the other.. or maybe I'm wrong.. I'm usually wrong.. I guess I'm the only guy who thinks that I'm right with these things..

yeah sure.. because if I knew that I was wrong then why would I put it here in the first place? whatever

although it's not always the situation.. I deliberately say something wrong or outrageous(although almost everything I say is outrageous) to test the one I'm talking to.. if he would take me seriously or not.. because if he did.. then he doesn't know me that much.. although usually do this in conversations because I can't really test you here because I'm pretty sure that you won't really comment on this.. and this method requires a whatchamacallit...

did I waste your time again? maybe yes maybe no.. who knows? gotta go..

screw zealous environmentalists

Insider Chika part 2

kakagaling ko lang sa Beda para ipasa ang Form 2 ng UPCAT application chuva ko.. ansaklap nga eh.. kasi di ako nakapag-dala ng 2x2 photo.. bumalik pa tuloy ako sa bahay.. pero nakapag-pasa pa naman ako kahit papaano... magaling ako eh

too bad wala akong nakuhang impormasyon tungkol sa mga magiging sections... pero at least may nakuha pa naman akong impormasyon ukol sa mga magiging guro natin..

mawawala na sina:
Jason Lorenzo - the greatest history teacher evah
Virginia Elemento - the greatest english teacher evah
Januel Magtibay
at yun lang ang naalala ko...

pero do not fret my pet! dahil may sampung bagong titsers.. puro nag-MA daw ang mga bagong titsers.. andami daw nawala sa english department at halos wala daw nawala sa math department...

at sa mga katulad kong portyer students.. sineswerte tayo dahil lahat ng magiging adviser ng portyer sections ay mga beterano.. dun sa mga gusto maging adviser ulit si Benjamin Sonajo.. nandyan sya! rejoice! pero personally ayaw ko siguro maging adviser yun.. mahirap takasan sa mga bayarin yun eh... ako pa naman yung tipong tao na mahilig maglaro ng waiting game sa mga bayarin sa iskwela...

sa mga dating naging estudyante ni Yollanda Hernandez.. rejoice! dahil nag-improve na ang english nya!

at sa mga naawa kay Benjamin Ines.. ito na ang pinakahuling taon nyo para mag-sorry! wahaha.. or kung wala kayong paki.. edi.. wala..

and ang mga stuff na di naman importante:
- english coordinator na si Arlene Coronado
- umitim na si Cecille Dominguez
- bago na ang hairstyle ni Joan Margaret Manda
- mababawasan ng yosi pal si Rogelio Baguinoon..

crooked teeth

yeah... pretty much one of the saddest realities that I have to live with.. or not.. cause y'got the magic of braces already.. and it seems like a bloody fad.. but nah... I'd rather have my complete set of ugly teeth than nicely aligned bad boys.. I'm really not a big fan of smiling.. soooo what's the point of having a nice set of teeth if you won't really show it off? but yeah.. it's the 'in' thing.. I should jump in..

well.. I'm back.. after two days of entry-less days.. I wasn't able to bombard you with senseless ramblings for a few days because I got sad... cause only one guy read my last blog entry.. and it's kinda discouraging.. c'mon guys.. just let it pass the two viewership mark! please? although I shouldn't really be doing this because page views lose value when they are imposed upon unwilling subjects.. but you still have a little thing called free will.. that's a bitch... for me I guess

I've switched World of Warcraft servers.. I switched to Burning WoW.. because Toxic WoW has this uber major bug on the revive lady and the profession trainers.. it's pretty much fucked up there.. I can't continue with other quests and stuff.. well generally private servers tend to be buggy.. but at least it's free.. you can't really complain about that because you're not doing them a favor...

I guess I'm not really doing a seamless transition from paragraph to paragraph ain't I?
but who cares... this isn't really a significant piece of... webspace? yeah.. webspace..

well.. ummm.. I wish I knew how to edit photos.. well.. not that I couldn't.. but I'm actually able to edit some photos but only up to a certain extent that wouldn't really achieve any artistic merit... you can see from my photos that my shots don't really look professional.. but yeah.. as much as possible I want them to look newspaper worthy.. unfortunately, I end up with forgetable cheap looking photos... but yeah.. who cares anyway? we have the rich kids who can afford high end cameras to do all the artsy fartsy stuff.. although photography isn't really considered an artform here in the Philippines... Willie Revillame's Sayaw Darling! now that is art...

I totally want a Playstation 3.. it's pretty much the losing system on the current console wars..but yeah.. I'd rather have a console that won't die on me in the long run... cause the Xbox 360 has this red ring of death.. but the 360 is a great machine but we're in the Philippines.. Microsoft doesn't support the 360 here.. therefore, you won't get the 3 year replacement warranty for the red ring.. but I'm not really a fan of first person shooters as well.. aaaaaaand the Wii should be removed out of the list because it isn't really a gaming device that would blow me away with stellar graphics... and I've never had a 6th generation(PS2, Xbox, Gamecube) console.. poor me.. yeah.. and the Wii has a nice user friendly controls.. but c'mon I want to play the game all by myself.. or with a player or two.. and the Wii is too much of a non-gamer magnet.. I guess all I'm left with a system that doesn't have great games as of the moment.. the Wii has Mario.. the 360 has Halo, Mass Effect, Gears of War.. and the PS3 has Metal Gear(which I haven't played), Tekken, Gran Turismo, Final Fantasy(which I kinda hated for deviating from it's classic battle system), and God of War(also I haven't played yet)... I'm a kid from the PSone era.. I enjoyed games such as Crash Bandicoot, Spyro, Tekken 3.. I wish developers could make more platform games such as Rachet and Clank.. they're all hooked up on making FPS and overly sophisticated RPGs.. c'mon! let the 360 do the FPS and let the Wii do the simple "even-grandma-can-play" games.. and let the PS3 do what it's supposed to do.. which is vast environments and extremely advanced calculations and stuff..

oh would you look at the time.. I've wasted your time long enough...

dirty reflection

tulang pang almusal

nakakainspire talaga ang mga bagay na di mo madalas gawin... tulad ng almusal, ang pag gising ng maaga at ang pagbabasa ng lumang dyaryo.. kaya nakapagisip ako ng tula.. tungkol sa nararamdaman ko ngayon.. pa-drama epek pa eh..

Tae
isa nanamang tula ni Kenneth Fernandez

May pulubi, sumakit ang tiyan
pumunta sa isang tabi
umupo..
nagbawas..

May magsasaka, sumakit ang sikmura
nagtago sa mga talahib
umupo..
nagbawas..

May studyante, sumakit ang tiyan
nagmadaling pumasok cubicle
umupo..
nagbawas..

May sosyalera, nanakit ang sikmura
dali-daling hinanap ang kanyang porselanang trono
umupo..
nagbawas..

May babae, sumakit ang kalamnan
pumunta sa Malacañang
umupo..
walang ginawa..

Bakit sila umupo?
dahil lahat tayo...
mahirap o mayaman
bata o matanda
ay may dalang tae sa katawan

I soooooooo love how my mind can instantly make bullshit like these..

fork spring

after playing two hours of World of Warcraft on Toxic WoW.. I just realized how shitty my last entry was.. yeah.. it's bloody long but c'mon.. even I wanted to take a piss on a printed copy of that thing.. but yeah.. I tend to hate my products..

this is actually the real blog entry for the 30th of May but I got carried away with atheistic bitchslapping.. sooo yeah..

taking french lessons on Rosetta Stone made me realize how gay the French language sounds like.. because almost every word of the language has nasal vowels or whatchamacallit.. but yeah.. I don't think French really is for me.. because when French people talk they sound classy and all.. and I hate sounding like some cultured kid or something.. I guess I'll stop with the french lessons and shift to german lessons.. and german language is pretty much the best language for my semi-bass voice.. but the problem with the german language is their sentence construction that's quite difficult to understand.. because sometimes the verb is at the end of the sentence.. and german sentences tend to be long.. like a half a page or so.. sooooo yeah.. try reading one half of a pocket book's page without any pauses.. that'd kick ass..

I'm going back to UP this tuesday or so.. I feel like going back to the forest in the middle of the city.. it's a nice place for environmentalists to stay...

watch out for the next episode of bitchslapping with kenneth! our next victims: environmentalists

never really believed in them

Disclaimer: this is a bloody long post.. do not read if your attention span is as short as a 5 year old

yeah.. true.. I've always been against everything.. before I was against religion.. and now I'm against the people who are against religion but not necessarily with it.. I find it shitty when people look for logical explanations for religion.. but yeah.. I used to look for logical explanation of god and shit.. but that was when I was still immature.. like 1st year high school.. and yeah.. let's enumerate those who at a certain point in their lifetime stopped believing in religion..

Person A: The "I don't believe in God because there is no concrete proof about his existence" Guy
yeah.. that used to be me.. but I realized that c'mon.. why do you need a proof about his existence? I mean yeah.. sure you can live your whole life looking for his existence.. but c'mon what if you wouldn't able to prove his existence? and you've spent a great amount of time on looking for him.. wouldn't that make you a more miserable chap? you're already miserable because you're looking for his existence.. that has always been the case.. like have you seen a normal jolly person looking for the existence of god? c'mon.. those who look for the existence of god are those who have tons of questions, who are smart and who have a lot of time in their hands. I've always believed in the saying that "ignorance is bliss".. the more you don't know.. the less complex life is..

Person B: The "I don't believe in God because if God existed then why would he let us suffer?" Guy
Ignorance may be bliss but sometimes when things get overboard it tends to get ugly.. like this poor little chap here.. he's blaming god for the suffering that he's experiencing.. okay.. c'mon.. kids like these don't really read the bible much.. maybe he doesn't know the story of Noah's Ark or other bad guys suffering story in the Bible.. I'm not really a Bible buff.. I haven't even read the whole book.. but yeah.. sometimes people suffer because they've been naughty(and sometimes they get rewarded oooh).. equilibrium must be maintained.. like c'mon why expect something if you haven't put enough effort to derserve it? but yeah.. how about the kids who're doing well.. goes to church on sunday but still their mom dies because of some wacko shot your mum in a bank robbery.. cute argument but not really something that would win me over in the whole 'god doesn't exist' thing.. like c'mon.. can you please raise your hand? thanks.. and if you didn't raise your hand chances are that free will does exist.. and if you have free will.. the wacko who shot your mum most probably had free will too.. we are free to do what we want! the only limitation is ourselves.. laws don't really limit what people can do.. what laws really do is to make people put limitations on themselves.. hell.. I can kill one of my teachers if murder wasn't against the law.. but yeah.. laws usually makes sense..

Person C: The "I don't give a fuck" Guy
people who don't care.. the apathists(what a fucked up term).. but yeah.. I don't have any arguments to bombard their kind with.. I think they're not as bad as the Person A and B.. because out of the three stereotypes.. Person C is the happiest.. because Person A would be too preoccupied in looking for a logical explanation on God's existence and Person B would most proably be angry as hell.. Person C would most probably be the guy sitting infront of their PC playing World of Warcraft or something.. yeah.. people like these live like theists.. but they don't spend an hour or so of their sunday in church.. and they don't have over the top extravagant weddings because they can only do a civil wedding.. but yeah.. the only problem is.. well.. they don't care.. and when people don't care it's sorta like a waste of good human resouce.. but who knows? maybe they doing their part?

I used to be Person A and C.. so don't flame me for not including Person D or something because these are all based on personal experiences and realizations and shit.. I used to look for the existence of god.. but I gave it all up after realizing that I can't really prove it.. wise men have tried for hundreds of years but still they're unable to prove his existence.. and what difference does it make? I'm pretty sure that they're waaaaaay smarter than I am.. so why prove something that even greater men weren't able to prove? but yeah.. I don't give a fuck about religion anymore.. believe what you want to believe.. I think religion and it's communities are a great bunch.. they help people, they sorta make a mini utopia.. but I don't feel like being a part of them.. and to quote Bjork "I thrive best hermit style".. but nope.. I'm not an atheist.. you can probably put me in the agnostic spectrum.. but I'm quite convinced that there might be a greater entity than us.. maybe you can call me a religious eclecticist.. because I take different beliefs from different religions and I follow them.. like I get the essence of Buddhism's Four Noble Truths and apply it to my life in a way.. or I'll get LaVeyan Satanism's Eleven Satanic Rules of the Earth.. yeah.. I believe that LaVeyan Satanism is a great bunch.. not to be confused with Theistic Satanism they[LaVeyan Satanists] do not worship Satan.. but they just use Satan as a symbol of people's inner desires..

yeah.. this is a world record breaking feat

love it long and huge

try to understand that mayonaise

most of my downloads for the past few days have been past the 1 gigabyte mark.. I've downloaded Kill Bill Vol 2, World of Warcraft, SimCity 4 deluxe edition.. and now I'm currently downloading Rosetta Stone with all of the lessons.. yeah.. I'm cool.. I study things that I won't probably use in the near future...

warcraft update.. WoW is a disappointment.. I was expecting Durotar to replicate the Durotar in Warcraft 3.. and I was also expecting that there'll be an Echo Isles.. but yeah.. there wasn't any.. nevertheless the game is still playable.. too bad that the server that I played in was quite lonely.. I like saw only 6 players at the 8 hours that I've been playing.. so that's like 3 people in every 4 hours.. although that isn't really the exact value.. but yeah.. close enough

I'm getting fat.. and bea wasn't able to give me any weight loss tips or something...

werld of warcrapt

the screen is a watchdog

I am still bloody addicted to warcraft.. yeah.. kung kelan patapos na ang bakasyon... sabi ni Dexterlicious na 500 per month ang legit WoW dito sa pinas.. ayos lang.. considering na maganda daw sya.. soooo parang mag-se-save ako ng 25 sa daily baon ko para makapag-laro sa isang buwan.. I'd say it's a good deal..

warcraft download update as of 2100 hours:
3.52GB of 4.55GB 77.4%
average download speed - 49.7kB/s
average upload speed - 8.8kB/s

wala lang.. if you love reading statistical information.. I know I do.. mahilig ako sa SimCity 4 eh..

para dun sa mga gustong malaman kung saan ako maglalaro ng World of Warcraft.. sa Toxic WoW ako or sa Burning WoW.. may account na ko sa Toxic WoW..

I have bathed for like days now.. and I don't smell

Warcraft! Word of Warcraft!

currently downloading: World of Warcraft

tama sila... nakakaadik ang warcraft.. pero di ko pa nalalaro ang World of Warcraft hanggang sa Warcraft III: Frozen Throne lang ako.. at di ako nag-do-dota ha.. yung bonus campaign ni Rexxar yung linalaro ko.. di ko kayang tagalan ang dota eh.. dalawang laro tops ang kaya ko with AI.. di ko pa nasusubukan ang online multiplayer aspect ng dota sa mga strangers at batang kanto.. noob ako sa dota eh.. ayaw ko naman sirain ang gaming experience nila.. at mas gusto ko yung larong may istoryang sinusundan.. di ganun ka-ganda ang storya ng dota eh.. atska isa ang dota sa mga sports-like games na di ko talaga kayang tagalan.. parang basketball.. di ko rin kaya tagalan ang basketball.. kaya lang naman ako nanonood ng basketball games ng beda ay dahil sa mga manonood eh.. pag nagcheecheer sila, nagaasaran sila.. basta.. tanggalin mo ang crowd sa isang basketball game.. aalis ako.. pero kahit may crowd man ang dota games.. di rin siguro ako tatagal.. kasi ang basketball madaling pumunto eh.. eh dota parang football na mas mabagal umiskor.. unless player kills ang paguusapan..

di talaga ako nilalang ng isports.. siguro kung may hilig man akong mga sports.. konti lang.. at di pa yung gusto ng marami sa pilipinas.. tulad ng football, austrailian football, at F1 Racing.. yung tatlo lang yun ang natatagalan ko pag nanonood ako sa TV.. ang ewan nga pag nanonood ako ng F1 racing eh.. parang ang-monotonous nya.. parang wala masyadong nangyayaring aksyon.. lalo na pag umuulan at may kelangang sundan na safety car.. parang nanonood ka ng isang parada ng mga hi tech na kotse na tila ba walang katapusan! pero it's friggin' entrhalling.. as in parang mapapatitig ka na lang sa screen at makakalimutan mo ang lahat.. parang droga.. haha..

di ako makapag-isip ng mabuti.. actually nag-break lang ako kasi na-awa ako sa sarili ko kasi I've been playing warcraft for like 12 hours or so... it's pretty fucked up.. pero di 12 hours straight akong naglalaro ng warcraft ha.. syempre kelangan kong jumingle, kumuha ng tsokolate at kunin ang telepono nung tumawag si daniel..

atska nanood rin ako ng pelikula nung mga ala una.. isang lumang japanese film galing 1973.. Sex & Fury.. dinownload ko lang sya out of curiosity.. kasi may references daw ang Kill Bill ni Quentin Tarantino dun.. at nakakatuwa rin kasi yung mga ganung klaseng pelikula.. pero oy! di sya porno na parang nasa celpon ng mga pubescent boys.. wala syang frontal nudity.. at comedy sya.. parang kahit anong circumstance ginagawa na lang na opportuinity na makipag-talik.. panoorin nyo! comedy sya!

go gamertag: dick gaywood!

Biyahe tayo sa bundok ng Acoje!

halos wala akong letrato sa bundok... madali kasing maubos battery pag nasa mataas na altitude daw eh.. tsk

a day without a blog entry is a day well spent

or I dunno.. maybe it's the other way around..

I just can't let the day pass by without me doing any blog entries or so.. but yeah..

since this is pretty much a quasi-madatory-ish entry.. don't expect any worthwhile content.. or I dunno.. reading blogs, for me, isn't really a worthwhile thing to begin with.. and if karma really is true then that explains why I'm not getting any traffic in my blog..

I started eating meat today.. dinner was like all meat or something.. and I haven't eaten anything today.. I was totally left with no other choice.. but yeah.. I never really gave a damn about animals being used as food.. but insert the name of the profession that study human remains here -ists say that our jaws or teeth aren't really designed for eating meat.. they're like saying that humans are herbivorous by nature.. but yeah.. McDonald's doesn't give a fuck..

I wanna do a short film again.. my photographs aren't really appreciated that much.. I can't upload my paintings and whatnots since we don't have a scanner.. and I can't record songs since I don't have the right program to edit songs on the PC... simply put, I blame my lack of ingeniuety...

yeah.. just got hold of some NEU! songs.. and they're pretty much the Mogwai of the 70s.. and their songs make a good soundtrack for my short films.. hmmmmmm.. if only I had actors.. yeah.. I have a camera, I have tons of ideas.. but I don't have kids who will stand infront of the camera lens to be my slave..

I'm not really asking for some help here.. but help is extremely appreciated.. but if you're willing to help, you have to be damn sure that you won't chicken out in the middle of things.. that's pretty unethical and unprofessional.. but yeah.. I won't pay you.. you're pretty much free to do that...

heat marshmallows die

kaibigan, ako'y isang vegan part 2

day three... part two... meal number one

mas nagmumukang abstinence 'tong ginagawa ko keysa pagiging vegan talaga... halos dalawang beses na lang ako kumakain sa isang araw.. kahapon dinner lang kinain ko.. spaghetti at tomato sauce.. walang ground beef o cheese.. pero ayos lang.. nagdadagdag naman ng flavor ang tomato..

tas ngayon kakakain ko lang ng first meal of the day ko.. sabaw ng chicken na may pineapple at yung pineapples.. may linabag ba kong batas? kasi alam ko may chicken cubes yun eh.. pero ayun..

masaya ako ngayon.. nakapanood ako ng dalawang magagandang pelikula.. ang Mind Game ni Masaaki Yuasa at ang Requiem For A Dream ni Darren Aronofsky.. well.. di naman talaga ako masaya.. pero kahit papaano eh it made my day.. at maganda talaga yung dalawang films.. pero iba yung appeal ng isa sa isa.. yung Mind Game kasi parang self help book.. tas yung Requiem For A Dream parang biography ng mga adik.. hanep naman yung dalawa.. Mind Game reminded me that should seize the day.. and Requiem For A Dream taught me that I should stay away from the happy pills.. I guess it sorta changed me....... a bit....... temporarily........ yeah..

parehong magandang films for those who appreciate non-mainstream films.. if you want a happy and uplifting film.. watch Mind Game.. pero if you feed on the depression of others.. watch Requiem For A Dream..

pano nyo mapapanood? kung DSL connection kayo at may BitTorrent kayo.. punta lang kayo sa www.piratebay.org

mag-download na kayo ng lahat wag lang produktong pinoy.. ie pinoy films, pinoy songs... pano tayo aasenso nyan kung pati kapwa natin ninanakawan?

hindi masakit ulo mo... daliri mo lang yan

Mind Game

Rating:	★★★★★
Category:	Movies
Genre:	Animation

para saken.. mahirap gumawa ng review ng isang film na maganda..

bakit?

well... usually kasi good films leave me speechless.. good films leave me in awe.. good films tend to put my life in a meaningless state..

after watching a good film like Cidade De Deus... I start to wonder.. now that I have seen one of the greatest films ever made, is there anything I should look forward to? it's like the feeling after reaching the top.. after doing it all.. you'll be left with nothing better to do.. that's what I hate about good films..

pero iba ang Mind Game.. it manages to leave me in awe but it wasn't able to get rid of meaning in my life.. it actually gave meaning to an otherwise meaningless existence..

the film itself isn't really for those who cannot appreciate surreal and absurd art.. the film is full of absurdity and surreality from start to finish.. but the director manages to create a strangely beautiful work of art..

it doesn't really have a serious tone.. it's actually funny but it has this punk tone that men would most probably enjoy.. and it also contained some humorous references to football.. a plus for footie fans everywhere..

but the film really is for the sensitive and weak kid who can't approach the man or lady she/he fancies.. or for just the sensitive or weak kid who seemed to have lost all hope...

it's a very inspiring story for everyone.. it's a carpe deim story pulled off in a geeky punk fashion..

I advise you to download this film if you have a hi-speed internet connection, a bit torrent client, and a great deal of patience: http://thepiratebay.org/tor/3323052/Mind_Game_%5BJapan_2004%5D

there is nothing better than being appreciated for an artist...

Re: Syota.. (Oh so Lucky)

message lang nga...

pero daig pa rin kita kasi mas marami akong contacts tas di lumalampas ng lima ang nag-vie-view ng mga ginagawa ko...

ikaw may charley ka at di mo na kelangan ng blag.. ako wala talaga..

pero andyan pa naman ang prenster... kahit papaano eh buhay pa yan..

yehey

that's my purpose matt.. I make fantasies come true.. haha.. wag ka na maingay.. baka mahuli ako ni kapatid.. ;)

indiefilmmaking

nakakamiss talaga ang mga gabi ng pagpupuyat dahil sa walang kwentang PC na crash ng crash sa kakaedit... kung meron lang akong pwedeng gawing artista eh.. handa ang camera ko, bibig ko at ang utak ko... sayang di ako makapag-upload ng indie film ko dito sa Multiply.. kasi 10 minutes lang ang limit.. eh mga 11 ata o 12 yung sa amin.. at ang masaklap pa dun, nawala yung master copy! binigay ata ni ma'am dominguez kay ramon batista yung master copy..

langya..

pero walang kwenta rin naman mga digital films ko eh.. or.. baka ako lang yun.. pero kahit na.. kahit ako nandidiri sa mga ginagawa ko sa mga videos ko.. pero kelangan nyo talaga mapanood yung mga videos ko! they're the most culturally significant videos evaaaaaaaaaaah!

linalamok ako sa kwarto ko ngayon kaya iinterbyuhin ko sarili ko tungkol sa pag gawa ko ng mga basurang pelikula..

Q: Mr. Fernandez, sino po ba ang naging dahilan kung bakit ka nahilig sa pag-gawa ng pelikula?
A: well.. simple lang yan.. ang talagang nag-udyok saken na gumawa ng mga pelikula ay si Ma'am Joan Margaret Manda.. ma'am! alam kong galit pa kayo saken pero pag tatanggap ako ng award pangalan mo ang isisigaw ko!

Q: at bakit naman po Mr Fernandez?
A: well.. kasi.. simple lang yan.. nung sican yir kasi ako.. may proyekto kami na cooking video.. digital camera pa gamit ko nun.. yung canon ixus 55.. tapos nung nag-simula na kong mag-edit sa Movie Maker.. I suddenly fell in love with the art...

Q: galing ha..
A: oo nga eh..

Q: ah eh.. how about your influences?
A: well.. my influences? well.. ummm.. I'm influenced by.. ummm.. photography! yeah yeah.. kasi nauna akong nahilig sa potograpiya.. kaya kadalasan mga shots ko puro mga still shots very evident naman yun sa cinematography ng mga pelikula ko.. kung napanood mo na.. pero kung mga direktor ang pag-uusapan.. influences ko would include: Michel Gondry and Quentin Tarantino..

Q: ano paborito mong kainin sa proeso ng pag-gawa ng pelikula?
A: well.. simple lang yan.. pag shooshoot.. paborito ko yung voice combo sandwich.. tas pagkatapos mag-shoot.. yung chicken o pork chop na maraming mang tomas.. tapos pag post-production.. mahilig ako kumain ng lucky me instant pancit canton..

Q: mukang pang-elite yung hilig nyong pagkain ha..
A: kaya nga eh..

Q: kung bibigyan kayo ng isang pagkakataong gumawa ng music video, kanino kayo makikipag-collaborate?
A: well.. simple lang yan.. gusto ko gawan ng video si Tropical Hut.. gagawa ako ng music video commercial!

Q: balita ko masarap spaghetti dun eh
A: kaya nga eh..

Q: kung magpapaturo ka sa isang tao sa film industry.. kanino ka magpapaturo at bakit?
A: well.. simple lang yan.. gusto ko magpaturo kay.. shet mahirap pala.. either si Quentin Tarantino at sa non-linear storylines nya o si Takeshi Kitano at sa mga fast paced action sequences nya

Q: bakit Purpleink Films ang pinangalan mo sa production line mo ng mga pelikula?
A: kasi yung bolpen ko purple..

Q: salamat sa pagsagot ng mga katanungan ko..
A: di yan tanong.. pero nasa 'Q'.. kanina ka pa ganyan eh..

hunger strike tayo mayang hapon

kaibigan ako'y isang vegan! part 1

day one... yesssssssssss.. it's pretty much torturous.. pero abrupt naman kasi yung transition ko from a non-vegan diet to a vegan diet..

breakfast...
I promised myself that I'd be eating some oat bran without any dairy milk.. and it's hell people.. hell.. buti't may pineapple juice pa kami sa fridge.. and buti't baliw ako at hinalo ko ang oat bran at pineapple juice.. at least nagkaroon ng flavor.. gawd...

lunch..
hotdog ang hinanda.. at bacon.. bloody hell! ba't ngayon lang kami nagkaroon ng bacon kung kelan ako nagpaka-vegan?! pero baka it's just a test.. pero I shall prevail! kaya rice at ketchup lang yung kinain ko nung lunch.. poor me...

miryenda..
buti't walang animal products sa Presto Creams.. yun lang kinain ko ngayon eh.. I feel like taking a dump

dinner..
hindi ko alam kung may makakain pa ko.. ay! oo.. pwede pa pala ako gumawa ng salad.. pero gawd.. bawal ako sa meat.. can you imagine a cesar salad na walang bacon bits?!?! T_T

ayos lang... anything for health naman diba?

it's starting to feel like sunday again

it pretty much sucks... I'm assuming na alam nyo na yung 'sunday feeling'.. yung feeling of apprehension pag sunday and alam mong may pasok nanaman bukas.. or maybe it's just me..

whatever

life gets boring when your days get monotonous.. at para di ako ma-bore sa remaining weeks ng summer ko.. napagisipan ko na maging vegan for a week!

it occurred to me habang nag-gro-grocery kami at nasa produce section kami.. kaya kumuha ako ng mga ready made salad ng Dizon Farms, oatmeal, whole wheat bread, and leafy green vegetables enough hanggang wednesday.. dahil madaling masira ang mga ganung klaseng pagkain...pero ayun.. tingnan natin kung kakayanin ko ang pagiging vegan.

kaya mamaya maglalast supper ako na puro karne kakainin ko!

sino kaya asawa ni mother nature?

love kills

I'm feeling enlightened tonight.. kahit wala namang nangyari saken... natulog lang ako..

kulang talaga ako sa tulog ngayong linggo eh.. tulog ako ng alas dos o ala una tas magigising ako ng alas nuebe o alas otso.. ay.. 8 hours nga pala yun 'no.. pero kahit na! kelangan ko ng sampung oras na tulog para mag-function properly.. kasi nga.. ang mga malalaking sasakyan ay nangangailangan ng maraming gasolina..

anyway.. isang malaking cliché ang idea that love kills.. andami nang na-brokenhearted at nagpakamatay dahil sa boypren at gelpren nila.. kanina lang sinabihan ako ng mami ko na nagpakamatay yung isang empleyado ng JRU kasi nakipag-break sa kanya gelpren nya.. tas banat naman ni Matt D/kuya Chebong "buti pa si Kenneth.. walang gelpren".. tawa naman sila.. kaya naalala ko yung isang study tungkol sa effects ng sex hormones ng opposite sex sa mga receptos ng lab rats.. feeling ko nalabuan kayo dun.. pero whaddahey!

sabi nga dun sa study na nung linagyan ng estrogen ang isang male lab rat.. it experienced clinical depression.. tapos nung linagyan ng testosterone yung female lab rat.. na-depress rin ata.. ewan.. basta depression yung epekto! ganun talaga siguro epekto ng intimate attraction towards the opposite sex.. madedepress ka.. kasi sabi nga nila bumababa ang serotonin ng taong in love pag di nila nakakasama ang iniirog nila.. at pag in love ang tao.. nagkaka-estrogen ang mga lalaki.. kaya they spend time with the opposite sex more.. and ang nagkakatestosterone ang mga babae.. kaya they wanna do the jiggy more! haha.. lesson learned: pag horny ang babae... at hinde sya balbon.. in lab yun! wahaha.. ewan.. isang gagong theory lang yun.. kung gusto nyo.. subukan nyo yung experiment na yun.. pero di ko lang alam kung may standardized test that measures one's sexual desire.. isa sa mga sagabal yun..

san na nga ba ako? ay.. ayun.. sa tingin ko kaya na-depress yung mga lab rats kasi they were forced to love pero wala silang mamahalin! diba? or maybe it's just me imagining things again.. pero di nga.. think about it.. pag hinde nakakasama ng taong in love ang one and only nila.. nalulungkot sila! ewan... kaya siguro baka mag-neuropsychology ako pag magdodoktor ako.. I wanna study the scientific basis of love.. wahaha.. ayos lang kahit manatiling single ako sa pagaaral.. at least makakatulong ako sa nakararaming teenagers ng buong mundo!

haha.. di niyo ko kilala! gustong gusto kong tumulong sa mga tao 'no.. kala nyo gago lang ako na walang magawa sa buhay kundi mang-kritiko ng mga patalastas sa TV.. pero sino bang nagsabi na you can't be both?

whatever...

ang bibig ay pinangsasalita! hindi pinangsusubo!

bata bata pano ka ginawa

kelangan nanamang mag-travel ngayon... babalik sa probinsya para pumunta sa kasal.. langyang mga tao kasi yan eh.. ako pa piniling groom's man.. eh di ko naman kilala yung groom.. at di hamak na mas matangkad ako dun sa groom.. mas magiging prominenteng figure ako dun! bwahaha.. pero wala pa kong proper marriage regalia.. meron lang ako leather shoes ko last year.. di pa ko nakakabili ng sapatos ko.. pasukan na pala..

gusto ko na nang mag-pasukan agad eh.. as in sa lunes! gusto ko papasok na ko sa beda.. para matapos na yung lahat.. pahihirapan lang nanaman kami eh.. tapos may thesis na.. langyang yan.. pero ayos lang.. I like making arguments.. pero putcha.. ba't kelangan pa lagyan ng abstract achuchchu at kung anu-ano pang nagpapakomplikado ng isang simpleng argument.. pero siguro it's a scholastic way of presenting arguments.. or baka mahilig lang talaga ako mag-oppose sa mga kinauukulan?

well.. naging habit ko na siguro ang pag-contradict sa lahat ng bagay.. although minsan nagiging tolerable naman ako o hinde ko pinapakita na gusto kong i-contradict ang isang bagay.. minsan mabait ako.. pero pag kagaguhan na yung mga arguments ng iba.. dun na ko nagsisimulang gumawa ng antithesis.. tulad ng pag-babawal ng Rubik's Cube sa iskwelahan.. isang malaking kagaguhan ito! hindi siguro alam ng nagsabi na bawal ang Rubik's Cube na matututo sa mga logarithm(na hindi tinuturo ng iskwelahan) at algebraic achuchuchu ang mga studyante dahil dito... natretrain ang visualization and memory skills nila kung minememorize lang nila yung mga steps.. pero c'mon! porque nahuhuli sa mga klasrum ang rubik's cube ipagbabawal na nila sa buong iskwelahan?! dapat yung guro sa klasrum ang bahala sa mga sitwasyong ganun.. o baka... ayaw lang ng mga kinauukulan na gumaling ang mga studyante nila sa rubik's cube! baka ayaw nilang mahigitan ng mga studyante ang rubik's cube-ing skillz nila!

pero ayun.. naalala ko lang.. lumang tugtugin na 'to eh.. kahit ang retro bumabalik pa rin sa uso 'no!

ang adik ay hindi natutulog...

woaaaaaoooooooaaaaaaooooooah sweet child o' miiiiiiiiiiine..

ilang beses ko nang rinu-rub ang aking mga mata... ewan ko ba.. buti sana kung makakatulong ito sa aking kasalukuyang estado.. gumawa ako ng tula.. out of boredom.. lupet nga eh.. feeling ko mas creative ako pag inaantok na ko.. pero wala yun.. placebo effect lang yun.. di ako yung katulad ng iba na talagang gising pa rin hanggang alas tres ng madaling araw.. ang malaking sasakyan ay nangangailangan ng maraming gasolina.. kaya hanggang alas dos lang ako magpupuyat.. o baka hanggang alas dos lang ako magkokompyuter.. kasi pagkahiga ko magbabasa pa ko ng pugad baboy.. masyang pampatulog.. lalo na yung mga bagong kopya.. tulad ng 13.. pakorny ng pakorny mga jokes ni Pol Medina eh.. pero ayos lang.. I adore corny jokes...

ay nakalimutan ko pala may tula dapat akong ipapakita sa inyo.. isa kasi akong nilalang na di marunong gumawa ng tula.. walang rhythm o rhyme yung mga tula ko.. sa tingin ko nga eh di ko sinusunod ang poetry writing dogma.. or kung sinusunod ko man.. marami akong linalabag na faux pas.. pero I adamantly believe that art has no limits! kaya gawa lang ako ng gawa.. pag tinawag kong.. art.. art na yun! although di naman talaga sya mag-aappeal sa marmi.. pero ganyan talaga.. tingnan mo Cueshe' sabi nila they're a band.. eh sa tingin mo ba music ang ginagawa nila?

Ang Adik ay Hindi Natutulog
isang tula ni Kenneth Fernandez

ang bulag ay hindi nakakakita
ang bingi ay hindi nakakarinig
ang pipe ay hindi makapagsalita
ang manhid ay hindi nakakaramdam

ang suplado ay hindi namamansin
ang sugapa ay hindi namimigay
ang bobo ay hindi nagiisip
ang malibog ay hindi rumirespeto

ang tatay ay hindi umiiyak
ang nanay ay hindi lumalaban
ang anak ay hindi sumasagot
ang sanggol ay hindi malaya

ang kapitan ay hindi nakikinig
ang mayor ay hindi gumagalaw
ang governor ay hindi tumutlong
ang congressman ay hindi nagpapakita

ang mata ay di dapat nabubulag
ang tenga ay di dapat nabibingi
ang bibig ay di dapat napapatahimik
ang kamay ay di dapat nakakadena

ang matatanda ay di dapat pinagpapahinga
ang magulang ay di dapat pumoprotekta
ang kabataan ay di dapat matulog
ang magiging anak mo ay di dapat maging katulad mo

ang puta ay hindi madumi
ang kriminal ay hindi masama
ang durugista ay hindi tarantado
ang adik ay hindi natutulog

yun ang tula na ginawa ko ng ilang minuto lang dahil inaantok ako.. maganda? pangit? wala akong masyadong pakialam.. pero matatamaan pa rin naman ako kahit papaano..

mabuhay ang mga may kaliwang kamay!

recognizable pitfalls

I'm pretty much confused right now... maybe those who don't think at all tend to be happier in the long run.. those who perceive a tree as a plant made of wood and leaves are quite fortunate.. and those try get into the bottom of things would eventually bring all of their unanswered queries with them to their rotting state... why can't we destroy everything to create a new beginning? I'm not really expecting an answer that would satisfy me.. I don't argue about those things anymore because it's pretty much impossible to win.. you can't emerge as the victor without arming yourself to the teeth and of course blowing the motherfucker's head and crushing it into pieces..but I guess it all depends on the situation.. who gets shot first, who runs out of bullets first, and who stops using their weapons first... maybe that's the beautiful thing about having a bullet in the head.. the caliber of the gun you're holding wouldn't matter.. it would all rely on taking advantage of every situation...

a pretty far out entry I guess.. bang!

gamigo

well.. I've been playing games on my PC for the past few days.. games like Neverwinter Nights 2, dota, and Unreal Tournament 3... I'd say it's a very balanced gaming diet.. we have the slow paced game.. the medium paced game.. and the uber fast paced game..

neverwinter nights was fun.. especially the depth of the character customization.. it was fun.. although I haven't finished the main game yet cause I stopped playing for a few days or so.. but yeah.. love the voice acting.. like the graphics a bit.. sorta like the turn based fighting of Dungeons & Dragons.. and yeah.. I'm not really used to the slow paced-ness of the D&D games.. but yeah.. something to do for the long rainy summer..

dota was kinda fun too.. although I didn't like the dying part.. or I dunno.. I didn't like the monotony of the game itself.. I can't believe how thousands of people can adore the game.. or maybe it's just me? the only hero I've been using is Rhasta.. the Shadow Shaman guy.. and I'm always against AI kids.. I don't feel like going online.. I'm not really that good.. I always get pawned by easy AI kids.. but yeah.. hate the dying...

but they're worthless compared to Unreal Tournament.. the FPS I've grown to lov-- oh wait.. it was Quake.. not Unreal.. but yeah.. loved both games.. killing people is very fun.. especially when you do it online.. wanna kill and kill and kill and kill THE FUCKING SONS OF BITCHES UNTIL THEY'RE UNABLE TO RESPAWN ANYMORE!! uhhhhhhh.. yeah.. right.. whatever

Sana Everyday Mother's Day

I'm back again.. with photos not in any way related to the day itself.. which is mother's day.. but yeah.. you don't have to see me celebrating with my mum anyway.. you're just there to see how I view the world.. clean and crispy...

insider chika

nag-enroll na ko kanina... at nakita ko ang tentative list ng pre-engineering class... pero baliktad kong nabasa eh.. kasi nasa table ni ma'am Yabut.. mga naalala kong surnames ay: Envoltorio, Dionisio, Garcia, Carlos, Capistrano, Castillo, Lucina, Hernandez, Cuaycong, Dequilla, Estacio... tas posibleng malipat si Carreon at Valderrama sa ibang section dahil puno na yung pre-engineering.. tska baka dalawa yung pre-med sections.. 50 students daw kasi yung mga pwedeng ilagay sa pre-med.. tas pinakakonti sa pre-law.. 39 students.. yun lang...

pero ang pinakamasaklap talaga ay hihiramin na lang daw ang mga libro! pero.. it has it's own pros and cons.. at least pag ganun.. di mo na kelangan magnakaw.. pero.. pag nawala mo naman.. malas mo.. ilang beses na rin kasi ako nabiktima ng pagnanakaw ng libro.. langya eh.. nung sican yir naman ako di naman ako nanakawan.. siguro depende lang yun sa section.. marami kasi akong gagong kaklase ngayon.. di katulad nung sican yir ako.. amababait nila.. puro pagsyosyota ang pinaguusapan nila.. pero nung third year rin naman puro pagsyosyota pinaguusapan nila.. pero athlete sila eh.. there's a big difference y'know..

pero ayun.. pedophile mga athlete samin eh.. di katulad nung sican yir ako.. mga kasing tanda nila nagiging syota nila..

anyway... wala pa rin akong napapala sa mga ginagawa ko... kumain ka na lang ng spaghetti ng Tropical.. tipid

nailcutterpillow

If I stop blogging then that means I'm happy...

I noticed that my pictures aren't what I want them to be.. the colors are all pale and stuff.. I feel like increasing their contrast or something.. that's something I'm tired of doing actually.. editing the photos.. why can't we go back into the days where-- wait.. it was a lot more complicated and tedious back in the days.. you still have to go to the dark rooms and have films and stuff.. but yeah.. now that that the digital age has brought us the digital camera.. we don't have to worry about the price of the film or developing it.. maybe there'll be a time were guns are also digital? y'know.. like.. the film is to camera and bullet is to a gun.. get it? like.. maybe.. bullets will be.. digital.. all you have to worry is.. I guess.. the limit? of how much shots can you make-- wait.. it's starting to sound like a digital camera.. but you get the point right? c'mon...

but yeah.. with every advancement comes another burden.. like before.. people are very cautious when taking shots.. because the film is limited to how many shots or so.. and in a way.. it limits the amout of bad shots.. sooooo I guess you can say that photography back then had quality even for non-professionals.. but now.. you can store thousands of photos with a thing that's thinner than a guy's dong suffering from hypogonadism... but yeah.. enter the mediocrity of common photos.. but I don't feel like ranting about it.. I guess it's pretty much the norm these days.. now that cellphones are armed with camera lenses.. but yeah.. I guess it has it's own artistic merit.. and even if it doesn't.. maybe.. it wasn't really meant for any artistic purposes.. maybe they like keeping memories of the time they met this certain celebrity or something...

but yeah.. I love saying 'but yeah'... forgive me.. I'm a guy.. men aren't the chatty type.. except when they're drunk or when there's a gun pointed at his head.. and our vocabulary isn't as broad as women's..

I tried reading my blog entries.. and I'm quite surprised at the things that I said.. although it kinda gets irritating at times.. now I know why some people get irritated with me.. cause I suck like a bloody wanker on liquor street.. but yeah.. I'm guessing that I might not change in the coming years.. or I dunno.. maybe some life changing event transpires within this year and.. uhmmmm.. yeah..

for those who stood like the berlin wall... I'm pretty fine with what happened

Kaibigan, galing akong Vigan!

a bunch of photos from our vigan trip.. nothing much.. wala naman masyadong magandang photos dun eh..

Ramoun Batista Interview

interview ni Ramon Bautista kay Jonas Meza.. priceless

Gorgonites unite!!

well.. I'm back.. and nakakatamad gumawa ng blog entry tungkol sa trip.. basta ang kelangan nyo lang malaman eh mas matagal yung trip papunta't pauwi keysa sa stay namin sa Vigan.. amazing 'no?

masaya sa Vigan eh.. maganda tulog ko.. kahit 6 hours lang.. di sumasakit ulo ko.. ewan ko nga kung baket eh.. siguro yung unan yun o yung kama o yung mga multo ng hotel na tinirahan namin..pero sana dun na lang ako nakatira.. masaya eh.. masaya ang umaga, hapon at gabi... lalo na ang mga gabi.. pero ayun.. di ko na masyadong idedescribe ang trip..

tama nga mami ko.. dapat malibot ko muna ang buong pilipinas bago lumipad sa ibang bansa... kasi sa akin lang ha.. mas nappreciate ko ang pilipinas.. cheesy.. pero oo nga pramis.. kasi parang yung mga ibang palaging naga-out of the country trips.. tas sinasabi nila walang kwenta ang pilipinas.. di pa siguro nila nalilibot ang pilipinas.. siguro sa Puerto Galera at Boracay at Baguio lang ang pinupuntahan nila.. pero ewan.. baka masyado lang silang superficial at di sila marunong mag appreciate ng history ng isang bagay o lugar.. mabuhay ang pilipinas! di magpapalupig!!

currently listening to: Try, Try, Try Version 1 ng Smashing Pumpkins... beautiful song.. love the band.. love the cryptic lyrics... parang Eraserheads.. nagtataka nga ako eh.. andaming may gusto sa Eheads.. eh napaka-cryptic ng ibang songs nila.. soooooo it's either matatalino ang mga pinoy o magaling talaga ang Eheads.. personally.. di ko masyadong gusto ang Eheads.. parang oo nga maganda music nila.. pero parang di ko ganun katrip.. ewan.. baka di ko pa napapakinggan lahat ng good songs nila.. pero uy ha.. maganda yung songs ni Ely sa Mongol days nya.. tska dun sa 1st album ng Pupil.. the 2nd album sucks.. parang Five On The Floor ng Sandwich.. mabibilang sa isang kamay yung magagandang songs..

a public service reminder from BF and Friends

Nakakairita na talaga yung commercialization ng environmentalism at ang help stop global warming shit... don't get me wrong guys.. I'm not against it.. I'm actually with it I'm doing my bloody part.. pero c'mon.. stop with all the viral crap and stuff..

Di naman talaga ako naiirita sa mga TV stations na may mga environmentalism awareness shows(parang Nat Geo at Discovery Channel).. naiinis lang ako sa mga tao who goes to the extremes or semi-extremes para maging advocate ng environmentalism.. please be subtle in doing it guys.. alam ko ang threat ng global warming.. don't treat everyone like they're bloody ignorants.. and guys.. walang mararating ang pananakot ng mga tao.. oo, alam ko fear is a good motivator.. pero it defeats the purpose of helping eh.. parang "okay magtitipid na ako ng kuryente dahil ayaw kong mag-melt ang ice caps at malunod ako".. pansariling kapakanan lang habol.. ang talagang tinutulungan natin sa pag decrease ng carbon emissions ay ang future generations.. I believe that the death of the world is pretty much imminent.. all what we really are doing is buying time for our future generations to make spaceships and go to another habitable planet.. guys.. may stages ang life ng isang star lalaki yan, liliit yan at magiging neutron star or worse maging black hole..

Kaya guys.. please.. stop with the whole Stop Global Warming shit.. you can't stop global warming.. what you can do is HELP STOP Global Warming.. making people aware won't help.. hate to break it to you guys.. kasi.. eto yun.. oo nga aware na sila.. pero may alam ba silang gawin? willing ba sila na gawin yun?

Sa tingin ko kahit na ba sinasabi nila na they're doing their part to stop global warming nakabukas pa rin aircon nila buong araw eh.. at least ako.. sira aircon sa room ko.. tska di naman ako maarte sa init.. actually nagtataka pa nga ako kung baket antibay ng balat ko eh.. parang.. lahat na ng mga kasama ko nagrereklamo sa sobrang init tas ako parang wala lang eh.. manhid sa init.. pero di ko sinasabing okay lang saken uminit ang mundo.. magmemelt rin ang ice caps 'no! malulunod tayo..

Tska feeling ko dapat ang mga kids talaga ang tinatakot sa global warming eh.. sila ang future natin.. tayo.. sigurado ako na di natin aabutan yung time na tuluyan nang mawawala ang Antarctica o Greenland(hinde yung subdivision ha).. siguro mga.. 1/25th of it's original mass na lang siguro :D... KUNG di natin gagawin ang ating part..

Kaya mga kids, laging alalahanin... kung sa tingin nyo eh wala kayong magagawa para makatulong sa sitwasyon ng mundo ngayon.. pwede kayo gawing fertilizers para sa mga puno.. have a nice day :)

read good... read hard

dorogesta ka daw dong

I love my brain... madali akong makalimot...

nakita ko na rin sa wakas ang pugad baboy collection ko.. at nung binasa ko ulet.. parang bago! dalawang taon ko nang di nabasa yun eh.. pero ayun.. masaya rin pala pag madali kang makalimot.. parang lahat bago pagkatapos ng dalawa o isang taon.. kaya di ko na kealngan ng kung anu-ano electrecution para lang makalimot ng masaklap na pangyayari...... hmmmmm.. putcha! oo nga 'no! gandang ideya yun para sa isang storya.. isang bata na madaling makalimot pero wala namang short term memory loss or something.. tas mala-Napoleon Dynamite.. pero di ganun ka-geeky..

ayun.. kakanood ko lang ng Napoleon Dynamite.. I love slow paced films.. or ewan kung slow paced yun.. pero nakakatuwa talaga yung steady shots at static scenes parang films ni Takeshi Kitano.. tapos wide open spaces mala-Music Sounds Better With You ng Stardust na dinerect ni Michel Gondry.. pero ayun.. it's a nice mix of humor and steady shots.. bagay na bagay nga eh.. kasi mukang mainit sa mga lugar na pinagshootan.. tas mainit dito.. feel na feel mo yung lugar kumbaga.. pero ayun..

napaka-unorganized talaga ng utak ko.. parang wires ng CPU.. mukang pansit..

hanep..

againts daw.. againts.. haha.. RAGE AGAINTS THE MACHINE! RISE AGAINTS! AGAINTS ALL ODDS!

surviving on mugs of bottomless iced tea and countless order follow ups - ang pagtatapos

yes... people.. tapos na ang di nyo pinansing "The Kenneth and The Review Center Saga"..

gumulong na kayo sa tuwa! magiging monotonous nanaman ang mga araw ko!

naiinis ako ngayon kaya nagtatagalog ako people.. pagbigyan nyo na.. gusto ko sana gumawa ng blog entry tungkol sa nangyari sa big brother eh.. yung sinigawan nung spanish guy yung taga la salle.. pero I have work to do... and yes.. I sometimes watch big brother.. lalo na yung big brother ngayon.. may espanyol at german eh.. I've always had this certain affinity towards europeans.. mas maayos ako makisalamuha sa mga european friends ko.. okay.. enough about that...

ansaklap.. tapos na ang review classes namin.. andami kong mamimiss.. as in.. nag-enjoy talaga ako.. not so much sa mga classes.. pero ayun.. masaya pag may kaibigan.. kaya siguro pag college ako gusto ko may mga kaibigan agad ako... kasi parang nahalata ko.. pag soloista ako sa isang school year.. parang mabilis yung taon.. kasi.. nung pers yer.. mga gago talaga kami eh.. ginawang bola ng soccer yung bote ng C2.. tas ginagawang drums yung armchair.. makulay talaga.. pero nung 2nd year.. medyo kumorny kasi yung iba na-in love na.. nahahaluan na ng estrogen yung utak ng mga lalaki.. lalo na nung 3rd year.. parang halos lahat na lang ata may syota.. mga syota na lang kasama nila pag lunch.. mga ganun ganun.. unti unting nawawala ang mga gago sa lalaki.. although gago pa rin sila pagdating sa klasrum.. pero di na kasing gago nung immaturity days namin nung pers year.. paano pa kaya pag portyer na kami.. sigurado tataas nanaman populasyon ng may syota.. tataas ang may estrogen sa system nila.. putcha.. dapat hinahaluan ng testosterone inducing substances yung pagkain sa iskwelahan para mas maging lalaki ang mga lalaki sa skwelahan! tas yung mga babae.. dapat.. ano.. damihan ng estrogen para gumanda ang cruves nila.. hahaha.. pero ayun... napa-off topic tuloy ako...

okay.. san na ba ko.. ayun.. di ko na alam..

anyway.. after isang araw na walang review kahit alam kong weekday.. na-realize ko na.. I really need people.. bawal talaga ako magpaka-soloista.. although kaya ko naman.. pero it will seriously damage my well being.. nung nagrereview ako.. I'm well nourished by Sausage McMuffin w/ eggs and bunch of lunch ng shakey's.. tas occasionally pag hapon.. japanese corn along katipunan(WARNING: wag kainin kung ayaw magkatinga).. diba? o.. may go,grow, and glow foods na sa diet ko! pero ngayon.. wala akong almusal dahil alas diyes na ulet ako gumigising.. lunch ko giniling na ginawang burger.. tas miryenda ko Pringles.. tas alaws akong dinner! kaya dapat may giangawa ako pag summer.. parang last year.. nagtre-training ako sa Beda Mendiola.. at least yun buong summer talaga... eh ito.. I'd be as idle as hell! I'd be pretty much vacant the whole may.. but yeah.. napapaingles ako..

grabe... mamimiss ko talaga sila Oscar.. di ko talaga sila naging kaibigan nung school year.. pero ayun.. kahit alam kong may galit sya saken.. hanep sya kasama.. hanep sumabay sa Adventure nila na amoy computer shop.. hanep rin kasama si Ton.. although one time.. nung di pumasok si Oscar.. sumabay ako sa kanya.. naging tahimik kami.. tahimik talaga akong kasama.. or baka sa mga pinoy lang yun? kasi nahalata ko pag kasama ko yung mga european friends ko.. talagang daldalan kami unless nasa kotse tas di umiimik si Jonas tungkol sa love problems nya.. gago yun eh.. ako ginawang love doctor.. niwala naman saken.. haha... pero yeah.. depende lang talaga sa mga tao at kultura yan.. dapat siguro mag immigrate na lang ako sa Spain.. baka at least dun at home ako.. whatever..

mamimiss ko rin yung math 1 at physics instructos namin.. si Ouch at si Stresstabs.. grabe.. kahit di ako natuto sa sobrang bilis ni Ouch.. ayos lang.. nag-enjoy naman ako sa panonood ko sa kanya eh.. parang nanonood ka lang ng one man sitcom ng conyo.. tas si Stresstabs.. enjoy naman sya magturo.. natututo ako.. tas trip na trip ko itsura nya.. di mo aakalaing teacher.. parang si Ramon Bautista.. pero maayos pa naman itsura ni Ramon.. yun talaga.. parang Empoy eh.. pero hanep sya.. gusto ko sya na lang physics teacher namin.. gusto ko ganun talaga lahat ng mga titsers ko.. mga "looks can be decieving" type.. ganda nun eh.. pag let's say may mga sundalong gusto pumatay ng teachers.. hahawak na lang sila ng mop o ng walis.. tas pag linapitan sila ng mga sundalo sasabihin na lang nila "nagtago sa bundok yung mga guro ng iskwelahan na ito!".. ay! oo nga 'no.. angandang ideya yun ng film! isang grupo ng mga studyanteng may malaking galit sa mga titsers.. biglang nag-rebelde.. pinatay lahat ng titsers.. kasi gusto nila ng anarchistic na school environment.. tas ayun..

anghaba na ng nobela ko 'no? madaldal lang talaga ako pag nagtatagalog.. kaya nga ako nag-iingles sa mga blog entries ko eh.. para di masyadong marami sinasabi ko..

breaking pencils

why do people consider me emo? answer the bloody question and win a bloody prize...

yeah... right now I'm extremely bloody angry... but yeah.. thanks to angst-y songs and a killer sub woofer.. my anger was appeased.. hurrah.. but still.. it bloody sucks when I get angry.. I can't seem to.. uhmmmmmm.. vent my frustration.. no one would listen to an angry kid ranting.. even if there was one.. their advices wouldn't really work at all.. I'd rather have someone who can.. uhmmmm... make me feel.. I dunno.. I can't really describe the thing but it cures me of my anger or depression or whatever.. it's very magical.. and only one person was magical enough to do that.. a lady, a friend of mine, and she's almost tall as I am.. yeah.. amazing.. I've provided you with a shitty blind item.. now go fetch..

all of which are american dreams

I currently have nothing interesting to say... thus, I am again wasting your time.. well it has always been like that.. and I'm lovin' it

yeah.. sure...

I never seem to learn from my mistakes... I always turn into this bloody ass that everyone seem to hate.. or something.. but yeah.. I guess I got used it... maybe that's why I don't care anymore.. or maybe I still do but who knows..

yessssssssssss... death in inevitable

learibaya

yesssss... another person gets recognition for constantly wasting time... but yeah.. I do appreciate it when people have time to waste..

I am currently hooked with Rage Against The Machine.. although I'm not really a true blue activist.. I still have a little activism going through my veins.. that's why I do appreciate bands like Radioactive Sago, System of A Down and the Sex Pistols.. and it's quite ironic because I'm planning to be a lawyer.. and quite frankly, I dislike laws.. I believe that a society governed by ones principles would suffice.. because one would never hindered limitations.. but that would be the most impossible thing to achieve.. people are stupid.. people don't know.. simply put, people are people..

*rolls eyes*

What the bloody fuck was I talking about...

but yeah.. sometimes I don't understand what I say.. it's like.. an entity in my subconscious mind is providing me with the words.. and it's starting to sound cliché.. yeah.. bullcrap..

surviving on mugs of bottomless iced tea and countless order follow ups part 3

the review made me realize two things.......... one, I've wasted 180 thousand pesos on my education for three years.. and two, I'm stupid as hell..

or I dunno.. I'm not really taking the review seriously.. my score ranges around 40-60%.. it's kinda shitty when you think about it.. I guess I'm one of the most stupid kids in class.. but maybe it's just me not really taking the thing seriously..

the review made me hate my school.. because c'mon.. we're paying 60 a year and they're just giving me shitty education.. but I liked my sophomore year in San Beda.. my teachers were great... they totally made me learn.. unlike my 3rd year teachers.. I never really learned anything from them... or maybe it's just the school cancelling days too much.. I wanted to learn the two world wars, history of the roman empire, the scientific revolution and stuff.. but yeah.. oh fucking bloody hell.. my brain isn't working.. I can't.. type in the words that I want to.. I can't bloody convey my bloody message because of my bloody worthless brain.. SCREW SAN BEDA! yeah.. my frontal lobes are too damaged I guess.. but yeah.. sorry for a worthless blog entry... screw my school.. they removed the Philosophy department in the Mendiola Campus because they professors are teaching the students how to rebel against the abbot.. they benedictine monks are a very whiny bunch since the new abbot came.. bloooooooody hell

Mabuhay ang USA! Mabuhay ang Subic!

wala lang.. a bunch of photos nung nasa Subic ako.. some shots are mine.. some aren't.. soooo.. yeah..

surviving on mugs of bottomless iced tea and countless order follow ups part 2

oh yessss.. this will be another epic saga between kenneth and insert possible foe here

since I'm done with my classmates.. let's go to the teacherssssssss!

yes... we've only encountered half of the instructors that would drill lessons into our head.. and I'm guessing it's too early to write something about them... but I forget things easily folks.. forgive the defective neurons.. but I learn better in expert guides than in school.. at least they don't have requirements in expert guides.. and the best thing is you don't have to worry if you have failing grades! it's so amazing!

whatever

Jett Pangan - yessss.. he's our geometry instructor.. funny guy.. encourages the kids(especially the Happy Bunch) a lot.. he also told us that Film Student will pass the UPCAT.. maybe he's psychic! amaaaaazing... but yeah.. he was the first instructor to that we've encountered.. and he never entered our class ever since.. and FYI.. he isn't Jett Pangan actually.. he just looks like Jett Pangan.. and sounds like Jett Pangan.. but yeah.. his real name is Ryan Patrick.. uhmmm.. Star? hahaha.. joke.. my good sense of humor strikes again.. -_-"

The White Instructor #1 - forgive the sucky names.. there seems to be a scarcity of creative juices in my system.. but yeah.. she's our Bio teacher.. she's amazes me actually.. she can write and teach and write without reading anything.. she'll just stand there and talk.. enumerating every kingdom and phylum and stuff.. but sometimes she would stop and space out then continue.. and she has a resemblance with:

The White Instructor #2 - a product of expert guides.. and a Summa Cum Laude grad of AB Psych I think.. I dunno.. whatever.. she was the facilitator of our English classes.. and she bombarded us with Filipino, English, Logical Reasoning, General Information, Current Events tests all in the span of four hours.. and yeah.. I love taking those kinds of test.. you don't really have to study for those kinds of test.. and that's what I'm good at! not studying.. haha.. but yeah.. she's as white as our bio teacher.. if they were robots.. they would probably have the same manufacturer but different model numbers.. like next-gen Asimo(2004) and new Asimo(2005)...

Ouch! - our extremely bubbly 1st year math teacher.. of all the instructors we've had.. she is by far my favorite.. although I wasn't able to absorb what she taught(due to her rapid firing mouth.. bloody hell.. she talks faster than anyone I've seen).. and I actually like her(not the "let's kiss under the stars" like.. but more of "when I am king of the world.. you will be the head of the Preppy Education Department" like).. but yeah.. I scored an amazing 27 out of 65 in the mock exam.. maybe math isn't just my thing I guess...

yeah.. there are other instructors there.. but my brain cannot process things anymore.. or it will explode.. soooo yeah.. forgive the extremely worthless blog entry

patayin sa gutom ang mga mahihirap!

dahil tungkol sa sitwasyon ng bansa ang paguusapan natin ngayon mga kaibigan.. ako'y magtatagalog para asteeg tayo!

gusto ko magfeeling na may paki ako sa society natin.. kaya gagawa ako ng blog entry tungkol sa krisis na hinaharap ng mga mahihirap.. at yun ay ang kakulangan ng kanin.. or something like that

sa tingin ko eh.. di dapat tingnan as krisis yang kakulangan sa kanin eh.. baket? well.. nagaral kami ng Bio sa expert guides nung isang araw.. at pinagaralan namin ang theories of evolution.. naalala ko tuloy yung natural selection ni Charles Darwin(kaya dapat habang binabasa mo 'to eh may idea ka kung ano yun.. or pwede ka rin pumunta sa google at hanapin mo meaning nun).. pero ayun nga.. dapat.. di na talaga tinutulungan yang mga mahihirap na yan eh.. dapat tulungan nila sarili nila! ba't pa kasi sila lumipat sa manila.. eh may magandang buhay naman sa probinsya.. parang isang mahirap na studyante na mas pipiliing mag aral sa Ateneo kasi maraming maharlika dun keysa mag aral sa UP.. laking salot ang kahirapan sa pilipinas.. kaya dapat.. di na tinutulungan mga yan! dapat sinasabi ng government "gusto nyo ng kanin? punta ka kayong probinsya at matuto kayong magsaka!"
 kaya sa tingin ko.. dapat maging presidente si Ping Lacson o si Trillanes.. wag na si Bayani Fernando.. ang aga mangampanya eh.. tas ginawang mala-1984(George Orwell) yung manila.. lul sya.. tas pink pa background.. pero ayos lang.. may konting femininity yung generealy masculine demeanor nya sa tarpaulins.. kaya ayun.. dapat ang government natin ngayon maging super strikto eh.. wala na kong paki kung ano mang anomalyang nangayayari sa loob ng Malacañang.. basta't mawala ang mga di kayang mabuhay ng maayos sa maynila.. walang tao tao.. kung di nila kaya.. pwes! mamatay sila sa gutom! gawan nila ng paraan ang kahirapan nila at wag umasa sa government.. tska yung crusade ni Lozada.. langya.. kelan ba sya titigil? di naman sa di ako naniniwala.. oo.. naniniwala ako na may mga anomalya sa ZTE-NBN deal.. given na yan eh.. parang 'x' sa isang algebraic expression.. where x is the amount of corruption.. korupsyon yan people.. di yan mawawala.. kahit maprove nyo man na may anomalya sa ZTE-NBN deal.. so what? mawawala na ba korupsyon sa pilipinas? tao naman kasi tayo diba?

oo, nakakainis pag nalalaman mong napupunta lang sa luho ang mga taxes na binabayaran mo.. pero.. ang mas mainam na lang gawin eh tanggapin natin yun.. Pilipinas 'to eh.. 3rd world country.. pero kung ayaw mo yun tanggapin at gagawa ka ng eksena sa mga rally.. it's your bloody choice.. pero di naman sa pinipigilan ko ang mga tao na mag rally.. dalawang presidente na ang na-overthrow ng mga rallies dito sa pilipinas.. pero yung mga ganun.. yun yung tipong lahat talaga nag-aagree on one premise.. tska may Cardinal Sin sila.. ngayon wala.. si Jun Lozada? wala.. di bilib mga ibang tao dun.. di rin naman sya religious figure.. pero that doesn't mean na it's a prerequisite na maging religious figure ka para maging instrument of change.. if we can all act as one.. then there wouldn't be a need for a leader.. at ang maganda dun.. di lang isang tao ang magte-take ng glory.. di nya masasabing "oo, ako ang dahilan kung ba't natanggal ang presidente".. lahat lahat ay makakapagsabing "kami ang dahilan kung ba't natanggal ang presidente".. pero kelangan talaga ng leader sa society natin ngayon.. ang isang utopia ay isang suntok sa alpha centuari..

ang haba pala ng blog entry na 'to 'no? gulat ako eh.. mas marami pala akong nasasabi sa tagalog keysa pag nagingles ako.. tipid salita ko pag ingles eh.. pero mas maraming nakakaintindi ng ingles.. right mga coño?

kidding aside.. siguro dapat.. ilagay 'to sa isang publication.. hahaha.. libre mangarap uy!


kaya ayun mga kaibigan.. nagulat ako sa mga pinagtatype ko.. sana wag ako patayin ng mga loyalista ni Lozada.. peace tayo mga la salle kids ha! mahal natin ang isa't isa!

surviving on mugs of bottomless iced tea and countless order follow ups part 1

yes... surviving a week isn't that hard.. it's just........ yeah..

it was a normal urban classroom... a room full of wooden arm chairs with varying designs, two air-conditioning units of different models, cabinets inhabited by cockroaches, a blackboard, a bunch of broken chalk sticks and students from the different parts of the metropolitan area..

my classmates were kinda okay.. and I kinda recognize their faces now.. but I have no idea what their bloody names are.. soooooo I decided to call them as:

The Happy Bunch - a group of 7(or so) extremely youthful looking kids.. they totally look like kids from grade school and they almost act like kids from grade school.. I can't believe that they're graduating students already.. and I totally don't like their humor.. or maybe it's just me growing old...

The Orange Hair Guy - he's the guy from De La Salle Greenhills.. his name is Christian Perez I think.. and he looks handsome in his 1x1 picture on his index card.. I think he's the first ever person to talk to me who isn't from my school.. I like the guy (not the "I wanna squeeze your butt" like.. but more of "if I were king of the world you'll be one of my constituents" like) he's a very sociable guy.. he already has a cult following with the ladies.. with his partner in crime:

The Native Looking Emo Haired Guy - I don't know his bloody name.. but I think he knows mine.. but yeah.. I haven't talked to him that much.. and I don't like him as much as I like The Orange Hair Guy..  but yeah if I were king.. I'd give him a position in my kingdom's army.. him and The Orange Hair Guy always brings snacks and refreshments in class.. kinda cool.. but yeah.. and there's the.........

The Orange Hair Guy's Cult Following - mainly composed of:
St. Paul White Lady - she seems like a smart girl I guess.. or I dunno.. haven't seen her cards
Navy Blue and White Striped Jacket Lady - The Orange Hair Guy befriended her on the 3rd day I think? I dunno.. but yeah.. she used to sit at the leftmost front row seat.. but now she's sitting beside St. Paul White Lady
Film Student - of all the ladies in the class, she's the most intriguing.. maybe because she's taking up Film(is that the appropriate name for the course?).. and judging from her surname I think she's gonna be a GMA director.. or something.. I dunno.. it's kinda cool to personally know of a high school student planning to go to Film School.. maybe if we become friends I might get a shot in making my first mass produced indie film.. bwahaha.. and yeah.. if I were king of the world I'd make her the Chairman of Cultural Development.. although I might not like her artistic tastes
Gomez Girl - I ran out of seemingly random names.. that's why I just used the lady's surname.. and I'm calling her Gomez Girl because she looks like.. well.. a girl.. there's a difference between a lady and a girl y'know.. but yeah.. I'm wanted to call her The Lady Who Thought That Orange Hair Guy Is Emo Because of His Quasi-Emo Hairstyle Which Actually Resembles A Korean Hairstyle.. but that'd be too long and it would be too difficult to call her if I were king of the world.. and If I were king of the world.. I'd make her take a bachelor's degree on the emo subculture and make her take MA and then a PhD to make her learn her lesson.. bwahahaha
Film Student's Lady Friend - I don't know much about the lady.. but I think she's an apprentice of Film Student.. or I dunno.. they both came from Holy Spirit.. where ever that school may be..

and if ever I missed any of The Orange Hair Guy's Cult Following members.. theeeeen.. maybe their existence or presence is too trivial..

next.. we have:

Bato Bato - I like his surname.. bato bato.. it's like a prehistoric folk rock band name.. and he's also a very plump kid.. but he looks older than The Happy Bunch.. and Allen Bren Carlos said that he's the twin of Oscar Paulo Reyes.. isn't it amazing? if I were king of the world.. I'd make him the head of The Department of Precious Stones Excavation..

Buto Buto - hahaha.. Bato bato's friend.. based on his.. erm.. gender.. I'm guessing he'll kill me if he finds out that I'm calling him buto buto.. although he isn't that slim.. his muscle mass is very scarce.. and he has a resemblance with Kyle Guerrero.. but yeah.. too bad he's happy..

Scarcity of Space Guy - haha.. his name made me laugh.. why? well.. that was his answer to the question why do saprophytes exist in the food chain... he said so there will be no scarcity of space.. his answer wasn't really funny but his voice was.. :D

Early Girl - is the very thin girl at the front row who's always the first or second to come to class... very early.. like 50 to 40 minutes before classes even start..

The Fita Girl - she's this little girl that was trying very very hard to eat Fita biscuits like a ninja during chemistry class.. maybe her dad is a ninja..

Kuya - yesssss.. the big guy who joined the class on the second day.. tall, dark and mysterious.. based on the size of his body.. I'm guessing he's an athlete or something..

and yeah.. there are still other kids that I haven't mentioned.. if they're not on this list it's either their existence is trivial or I'm too lazy to give them names... well most likely it'd be the former..

shabu and cocaine makes me happy but that doesn't give me the right to use it

yesss... I survived the bloody day.. I just practically said thanks to those who greeted.. I guess it wasn't so bad.. I guess..

WHO THE FUCK AM I KIDDING?!

the bloody day was totally wasted by spending 9 hours in a classroom for a bloody review.. c'mon.. I can't even last a whole day in the school! or I dunno.. maybe it was the bad Sausage McMuffin with Egg I ate for breakfast.. but I totally felt that this quasi-special day was wasted with studying things that doesn't really interest me.. hell.. I'd rather study the history of Gibson guitars than study subjects that I've already learned.. but I dunno.. maybe that was the point of reviewing.. well.. it totally sucks.. I wanna go to the place where I registered and point a gun to their head and tell them "I want a bloody refund NOW!".. yeah the teachers were quite good.. especially the math guy who looked like Jett Pangan from the Dawn.. the Bio chick was... oooooookay.. she was a good teacher I guess.. if I wasn't so bloody sleepy.. c'mon.. it's like 2 in the afternoon.. who could possibly be in tip top shape at that time?! bloody hell! I'd rather take a half day session for a month.. bloody hell..

I'm happy that the day is over.. or should I? whatever.. I don't think I have anything to look forward to.. it's the same old dull afternoons with Kenneth.. the same old serotonin/dopamine lacking Kenneth.. the same old boring Kenneth.. the same old self-destructive Kenneth.. the seemingly worthless Kenneth.. WHAT THE FUCK AM I TALKING ABOUT?!

sometimes I just don't know what I'm talking about.. I just let the bloody words flow and flow and flow until it becomes a bunch of words that doesn't make any sense.. I myself get irritated when I read my works.. it's like a written manifestation of unexcreted urea and fecal matter.. I would never win any Palanca awards at this pace.. maybe I just need an inspiration.. a girlfriend perhaps? nah.. I'd be depressed with the inevitable breakup anyway.. drugs? nah.. I still want to have a driver's license.. a friend? nah.. the friends who could possible tolerate me will return to their beloved homeland eventually.. a cup of coffee? nah.. my palms smell like cigarettes after drinking a cup of coffee.. a good book? nah.. I'd be too inspired then I'll look like a bloody ripoff.. I wanna have my own flavor of writing(if ever such thing still exist in the 21st century) a bad book? nah.. I'd be too dumbfounded.. and also it's a waste of precious money.. a can of Pringles? nah.. I don't want to grow horizontally.. a good pirated album? nah.. could there be possibly another band that I might like? a good film? nah.. I've seen some of the best.. and I don't see any point in watching any more films.. unless it's better than the ones I've watched.. a massage session? nah.. I hate it when the masseurs touch my unprotected butt.. I'm totally out of ideas..

wow.. it seems like I've written a lot.. or maybe not.. but yeah.. I still have to greet pinkballer08.. I just don't want to greet her in the middle of the day because she might be getting tons of greetings and mine would probably get drowned.. I don't like greeting people happy birthdays in times where people usually greet someone..well.. I rarely remember birthdays.. I suck at remembering dates.. the only birthday that I remember is mine and my sister's and ummm.. bea's 23rd of Feb? kat(z) 25th of May? Hen's same day as mine.. the other bea's 31st of December? I'm not really sure with the dates.. but yeah.. I'm improving.. I guess.. if my memory wasn't so bad.. bloody hell..

maybe my wife would probably kill me for not remembering our wedding anniversary.. or I doubt I'd get married.. maybe I'd get too obsessed with earning money that I've forgot how to socialize.. HIGHLY UNLIKELY.. but the no marriage thing is probable..

oh so wrong

I blog when I'm bored... yeah... harsh reality

I'm preeeeeetty sure that I'm gonna hate what's gonna happen tomorrow... I actually don't know what I am supposed to say when people greet me... I ain't saying what's gonna happen tomorrow.. because I don't want people flooding(which is a very highly unlikely situation) my friendster profile with generic and shitty greetings(and by now.. you might already have an idea on what's gonna happen tomorrow).. c'mon people.. it's a waste of precious bandwidth! go visit some porn site or something.. at least that'd make you and me happy.. a win-win situation I guess? but anyway.. it sucks to recieve greetings on my profile.. and strangely, I kinda get irritated when people greet me(as in personal greeting like "hey boo, insert greeting here").. I'd rather have sacrificial lambs or under age girls being thrown at me than empty words that I will forget eventually.. I also hate it when a lot of people know what kind of day it is tomorrow.. it's like "c'mon you bloody twats! let's stop wasting precious time on a very trivial annual event.. please?".. well unless you have time to burn then that wouldn't be a problem I guess? whatever.. but please... just give the bloody greeting and stop acting like it's something special for you.. well.. I dunno.. I don't consider my friend's birthday special.. except for some.. maybe I'm acting too ADD or something.. yeah.. maybe that's it.. I dunno.. screw me..

I just read in a 2004 SciAm article that too much choices will make you more misreable or something.. it's like those who settle for 2nd best are generally happier than those who goes for the best or something.. maybe that's why I feel kinda clinically depressed? well.. I'm already aware of the plethora of choices that I have.. unless I can "unlearn what I have learned" then I just have to go for things that would make me happier I guess.. even if the consequences will be grave... but c'mon.. I have a brain.. I'd rather be in a good position in life even if I have to give up happiness.. even if I would feel empty as hell(which is totally ironic considering the number of souls destined to suffer there).. happiness is one pill away.. or maybe three pills daily for ten days?

yeah... maybe ignorance really is bliss I guess.. but too much ignorance.. well.. that's bullshit.. maybe a controlled level of ignorance or something?

slash

kerrang! I'm currently taking a break from playing Guitar Hero 3.. it's a fun game! considering that I'm using only my keyboard and not the plastic peripheral that Red Octane provided.. but still.. I dig rhythm games.. too bad I can't afford an xbox 360 or a playstation 3.. at least they have rock band and guitar hero with peripherals.. although I just don't like the Gibson Les Paul they bundled with guitar hero 3.. it actually looks like a toy.. unlike rock band's fender strat or guitar hero 2's gibson xplorer.. until they release a gibson flying v or a fender katana or a reverse flying v I won't buy the whole bundle.. and until they make a guitar peripheral that actually looks and feels like a real guitar.. demanding? yeah.. totally.. I'm a big guy.. and I don't quite feel like a rock star when I'm playing with a small guitar.. or maybe I just got used to a bass? whatever..

let's shred!!

my wrist still hurts from playing Welcome To The Jungle on Medium.. and that's just on a medium difficulty! I'm bloody screwed..