all of which makes me anxious... at times unbearable so

at dawn when electric currents run through you while taking a shower... you start to see things

you see now

you see the world...

you see tomorrow

you see the universe...

you see yesterday

and most importantly

you see the person you want to be...

in the cold winter morning you wake up.. its 4:30.. it feels like 10 in the evening... but you have obligations...

you get up... and take a bath..

you get suited up.. and take your breakfast..

then you brush your teeth.

on the best dream you are in a void... nothing to see.. nothing to hear.. nothing to feel

you wander.. to see why is it your best dream...

now you're with the one you love the most..

you wonder.. why is it your best dream?

and then you see one who loves you the most...

you wake up...

at night when the lights are on and the wind pulls you into bed.. you skip dinner because the family isn't complete yet

you lay motionless.. staring at the ceiling

you can't sleep... thinking about tomorrow.. again

you cry yourself to sleep... cause its the most effective way to be happy..

...but religion tells you to pray at night.. you don't.. you sleep.. and you don't wake up...