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I am not a firm believer of multiple personalities...

yeah sure.. we handle ourselves differently in different situations.. but that doesn't mean you have different egos functioning at different periods in time..

I came to that conclusion unscientifically when I compare my behavior in the International Students Association org room from how I act when I am with people I know well..

its like.. when I am with some of my friends.. I am this loud kid who blurts out randomness and mostly inappropriate commentaries on everyday events.. but when I sit there.. in the corner of the extremely cold org room.. full of black people and chinese people.. and me being the only pure blooded filipino... I turn into this silent, shy little boy who does nothing but listen to the conversations between people of different races but with an accent far more superior than mine...

or maybe when I am with a friend.. who is with someone or a bunch of people I do not know... I remain totally quiet... you'd never hear a single word from me... hell.. I can't even force out a single word from myself.. aside from short answers such as "yes" "no" and "I dunno"

but when I am in that state... become more... pensive or something.. like a zen thing or something... that is why I come up with blog entries..

I become quiet... cause I have no one to talk to.. and when I do not utter a single word.. my brain becomes full of thoughts and whatnot.. and it forms an incomprehensible cesspool of ideas.. I concretize it by writing blog entries..

so I have two extremely opposing behavior.. one is the obnoxiously loud prick who is highly sociable.. and the other is an eerily silent boy who could probably do well as a buddhist monk...

that doesn't mean I have multiple personalities.. because I think the word personality is an umbrella term of some sort which encompasses the different facets of one's totality as a being...

whatever..

as much as possible I try to make sense.. hopefully this time.. I do..