teen age riot

saturday sunday...

at di ako nagaral...

I wouldn't dare ask what the fuck is wrong with me... cause I practically know..

but what I would really want to know is why can't I keep myself motivated... seriously...

instead of studying for my exams which I have a high probability of failing... I chose to sleep the whole afternoon off.. yes, I feel relatively better but my leg still hurts like hell...

I need... I have.. I will... will I? study

... I suddenly felt the need to extend this blog entry...

eating tons of polysaccharide and listening to iron maiden makes me feel better.. think better..

anyway...

yeah..

I feel directionless this semester.. totally directionless..

maybe because I don't have a professor who scares me.. or a subject difficult enough to keep me scared...

yeah.. maybe that's it... I am not scared enough... I've earned too much confidence.. its almost self destructive... I NEED TO BE AFRAID... hell.. even the idea of me failing doesn't scare me enough to study!

maybe because I have delusions of transferring to UP.. or to UT, Austin...

and instead of studying.. I am watching free form jazz drumming...