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I need serious help... seriously...

on my own I can't seem to function properly.. especially when I have to deal with math subjects and the threat of doing summer classes..

math seems easy.. y'know.. there's just a huge gap in my brain which hinders me from solving equations...

or I dunno... I did well in my Physics during my senior year...

I dunno what the fuck is my problem.. really... like... I find it easy to solve mathematical problems which I can relate to in real life.. but put a set of fucking symbols in front of me and tell me to simplify that motherfucker... then I'd be fucking clueless...

the math I have trouble with is the math which doesn't seem to have any relevance in my life... like algebra and whatever fuck there is in my math book...

I wish I can go back to senior year and do more Physics.. at least that is something which makes sense.. something practical... but I'm doomed to do math until god knows when since I am an economics major... next year it will be calculus and some investment math or statistics or whatever... but at least investment math makes sense... statistics is better than algebra.. and calculus? err.. it has something to do with algebra.. but how bad could it possibly be? it has graphs and all..

although it also occurred to me that students study algebra not because of the (lack of) practicality...  but because it develops our ability to comply to rules.. which is in a structured environment (ie workplace) is ideal... because free spirited individuals are better off being entrepreneurs than rank and file...

although I think some, if not most, of my classmates are passing math because they help each other by sharing answers to quizzes and homeworks and exams... that's commendable.. seriously... its true that it develops teamwork.. an important skill in the workplace... but it also fosters an unethical work ethic...

that's why I was too lazy to copy assignments from others during the prelims... cause I had this notion that I must keep my integrity... but I got fucked and now I am forced to go against my belief... but oh well.. life is screwed up anyway... there is no point in living anymore