christmas gift

I just bought Singstar.. with the 2 microphones...

now I can do a three-piece band in Rock Band 2... so yeah.. I've been wanting to have a Rock Band set for 2 years now..

and my dream finally came into fruition... just in time for christmas.. a nice christmas present for myself.. because the christmas present for myself last year was a game console...

but yeah... I hate my sister

anyway... but I should have this rewarding feeling and stuff...

unforutnately.. as with ever achievement I unlock I seem to get this empty feeling... it like.. I should be ecstatic because I got a rock band set by working hard.. and yet.. the hunt for the set felt better than getting it...

because when I was still yearning for the set... I felt like I had a reason to live... but now that I got it... it feels like.. life isn't worth living anymore because I got what I wanted...

life feels empty now...

I've felt this way before actually.. like when I saw one of the best films.. Cidade De Deus... watching it made me feel like I've watched the best, ergo there is no point in watching other films... and after the last day of examinations during senior year...

but I was able to get back.. by having another goal..

and now... now that I have finished my goal... I am in search for another...

and no.. graduating from UST in one piece isn't.. because it's already a given.. I'm not that dumb...

and no.. graduating with honors isn't on my list.. because a goal has to be realistic.. yeah sure.. it's something nice to aim at.. but I know I can't be the best... and I believe if you can't be the best.. be the innovator.. be the revolutionary.. change the world... because to be the best means you go through a predetermined path.. and to be the innovator means to create another path... which I believe is the better choice..

and no... being the innovator/revolutionary/the man who will change the world isn't on my list.. because a goal has to be specific... those things could mean a lot of things... although Ponce and I are planning to become revolutionaries of the Philippine music industry with our music... and Seng Kaew and I are planning to uplift the impoverished with our 100 Peso Bill Program(I'll discuss it on another blog entry)... and Richmond and I.. well.. I'm just trying to learn from a person wiser than me...

soooooooo I guess.. yeah.. that settles it.. my next goal is to be financially independent I guess... or become a House DJ.. or to own a skateboard..

or to make people happy... oh wait.. it has to be specific.. yeah..