not is... is is

I don't understand it... really...

y'know..

like...

how life is limited to the opportunities that are available to you..

or maybe I do understand the complexity of equality... and how it truly isn't possible... its just that... I don't want to accept it...

its dumb... really...

y'know..

like...

how the concept of beauty is presented to you... and you get sucked into it... believing that it is possible and that our efforts will eventually be rewarded

we are all victims I guess... of the same routine and of the same lies...

and to think otherwise seems so... unnecessary..

I mean... we are already by default docile and dumb... and to hurt ourselves with all the thinking seems... stupid... when we are already under the control of our desires..

we are already happy... don't you agree?

yeah sure.. your life may suck now... or it may not.. who knows... nobody ever reads this anyway... but my point is that generally we are okay with our lives.. we may have certain unfulfilled wants here or there but when you look at the grand scheme of things you are doing okay.. otherwise you'd be dead or not reading this because you're recording a suicide video or something...

I guess... maybe.. when life starts to lose its meaning at an early time of one's life... the time it takes to wither gets longer... and I guess it doesn't feel as painful if you look at it in perspective...

yeah.. sure... my eccentricity never appeals to anyone... even to myself I guess...

would it even be appropriate to define myself as an obscure philosopher? but wouldn't defining myself be tantamount to limiting my being? and thus I turn into this formulaic being following clockwork routine which basically wears me until I die...

but isn't limitation the essence of life? everything is bound by something... possibilities may be deemed as limitless... but I guess it all comes down to those who come up with the possibilities... if virtually everyone in the world would think of all the possibilities... wouldn't it make possibilities limited? because the ones who create possibilities are limited.. I'm pretty sure it will be infinite... but wouldn't infinity be limited to the set it defines? and thus the value may have no bounds but being in a set means it is bound by definition...

sorry... I am trying make sense... by arguing with myself... which doesn't make sense... especially if you do it in public... which doesn't seem to be public due to the lack of people reading this.. maybe I need to talk about those ladies more.. maybe I'd get more page views... everyone likes feeling that they are important...

cause it breaks us to be ignored