the love you take...

...is equal to the love you make

and obviously I haven't been making any.. at all

but I'm working on it... don't worry

I've been living a very positive lifestyle. No hatred, all love. Maybe that's why I've been feeling better, cause I love more than I hate. Cause when you obsess about the things you hate about life, it seems like poison. Especially when you don't do anything about it, like you just sit in one corner and you wrap your mind around a certain issue which pisses you off, and in the end nothing productive ever comes out of it. Unless more hatred is your ideal product.

Really now, one could have an infinite amount of reasons to hate life. Cause everything is bound to be flawed, cause the life we live in is flawed, therefore nothing can ever be perfect. But when you look at the reasons why you hate life, and try to turn it into something else, like something to change in order to make life better or something which you can learn how to love and in doing so adds more reason why you should love life. Cause the list of things why should you love life is pretty short in comparison to the reasons why you should hate life, but if you try to turn at least one reason to hate life into something why you should love life and a million other people follow you, then who knows... the world could possibly be an even better place to live in.

no, I do not read self help books... it sounds stupid. cause how do you help yourself when clearly you're reading someone else's words

all of these musings appeared out of thin air when I was having a conversation with a good friend of mine who usually talks about negative stuff about other people... and thanks to him I wasted your time again.

but seriously, love more than you hate... I promise you the sky will be bluer, the grass will be greener, and the sun will still blind you if you stare at it directly

first of summer with the football squad

Cara was right... I should play football. *starts thinking how cara and I came to know each other... oh yeah, we met a DeviantArt.. wait.. was that her? or was it the watercoloring lady?*

so yeah... I should play football.. and that was what I've doing for the past month..

for some strange reason, I've been enjoying life a bit because of it...  maybe its because of elevated testosterone in my bloodstream after playing or just the general human contact which I don't usually get during the summer.. cause well, me and the computer and facebook is all the human contact I basically get

so yeah... football is a contact sport played with people... so yeah... I get human contact that way... it may not be the gentlest of ways.. but hey, beggars can't be choosers.. and compared to getting a girlfriend and playing football.. I get more human contact waaaaaay cheaper with football than if I had a girlfriend.. c'mon its a no brainer.. 21 guys on the field versus 1 lady.. *please do get my humor*

beda football seems to be an entirely different experience from AB football... my most major gripe really is the drama that transpires among the members.. like, they'd be saying bad things about other members and stuff.. I felt like I was in pinoy big brother or something... I wasn't expecting drama at all but if this is how the team works, then let it be.. this could've been easily fixed, I suppose, with proper communication. from my frist impression, they'd rather tell other people about their problem regarding someone than telling the person they have a problem with directly. who knows? they could probably fix the problem immediately which could develop rapport between the people involved which in turn could translate into better chemistry on the field.

although chemistry might be a huge problem for the team in this year's goodwill games... because I brought along with me my nigerian friends. lack of communication, imbalance of talent, and maybe difference in skin color... are just some of the factors which might contribute to a lack of chemistry for the team.. but if the filipinos can communicate with the nigerians in the same way I did.. the only problem will be the difference in talent, that and the difference in skin color

and this is where I drop a bunch of names.. which can be easily found by using google..

I've made a bunch of good friends from the team, lucky me, top of the list would be the guy who is always present on the pitch.. Horazio Morales, or Horace, or Hor if you're the college of science peeps type... he's on the top of my list cause for one, he sounds like one of my most favorite persons in high school, Prince Karl Cabural!! their voices sound so much identical its quite funny already.. its like seeing a guy which sounds like cabural but isn't as cute and doesn't have golden teeth...but yeah, I like Horace.. and another, cause he's always there on the pitch, except for that one time in the UP Sunken Garden.. but yeah, he's fairly consistent

next on my list is Morrys Sarmiento, I know he reads a few of my blog entries, hello to you, another guy I like.. and no, I am not saying that because he might see this.. I genuinely think the he's great.. he may have a few character flaws but he's better than a lot of the people I've met in UST.. usually he and I'd be just talking, well generally its him who does the talking cause he's more aware of the situation of the football team and I'm still on the part where I observe everything, cause jumping in immediately without prior knowledge is dangerous or maybe even social suicide... out of all the people I've met, it is him who has a lot of gripes about the team.. and from what I can see is he's the silent sufferer type, like, he doesn't confront the people he has problems with, so he waits until the other person gets a clue.. so given that I'm a self-proclaimed body language expert, it'll be easy for me to know if he has qualms against anyone

and lastly would be Borgy, or Niel, or whatever you want to call him... I call him Borgy cause its a letter more than orgy, and because he looks like Borgie Hermida, and because he's from San Beda grade school.. I think generally, I like people of benedictine upbringing.. so you might call me biased, but he seems to be a lot of fun, so far my conversations with him were very insightful.. something I always love... although the trouble with him is he gets a lot of flak from Ben Abdalla, one of the nigerians of AB, and that is just one of the reasons why chemistry will be a problem for the AB team...

wow.. this seems to be long.. I wanted to put in more but no one read this much unless you are involved with the sport and the team

malabo ang mata ko

...and its dangerous when I type

pero keri lang, di ko naman pinoo-proofread mga blag entry ko eh... pero eto talaga di ko i-re-read, dahil malabo nga mata ko

lately, I've been much more driven to live life. cause for most of my existence I've been anhedonic, thus the blog name. I dunno, the sun is sunnier than before, the sky is bluer than blue, and I hear birds chirping in my head even though there are none... yes, you figured it out, I am perpetually high.

No, I am not. I just feel better lately, its like I have a reason to wake up in the morning and feel the warmth of the sun on my sunburned skin and breathe in the freshest air the outskirts of Manila can offer. Everything is just so damn beautiful y'know, like, I am comfortable with the climate even though most of the people think otherwise. Actually, I love the heat. I wish it'd be summer forever, global warming is so lovely! oh sorry, climate change. but whatever the scientists or al gore call its just lovely.

Again, no, I am not high. Neither have I turned back to God. Life is just giving me the best sensory experience I've had since... ever. My body may be in so much pain with all the physical activities I've been doing, but the world feels like a better place to live in. I know a friend of mine thinks otherwise, so I assert that beauty is subjective, and right now, life to me is just beautiful.

so damn beautiful

cause life shouldn't be taken too seriously... nobody gets out alive anyway

what now?

ngayong nagwagi na si Noynoy?

its kinda funny that I was an Erap guy back then just because I thought he had no chance of even getting 3rd spot. but apparently, its the man whom I thought would claim first place...

...napaisip ako, ano kaya ang ibig sabihin ng resulta ng halalan? oo, panalo si Noynoy.. yun naman ang obvious. pero baket di nanalo si Gibo? ang pambato ng intellectual community. baket natalo si Villar? kahit sobrang dami na niyang ginastos sa pangangampanya at ginamit na sila Willie, Manny at Dolphy. at baket umabot pa ng panglawang pwesto si Erap? matapos nang siya'y paalisin ng edsa dos. at baket nanguna si Bong Revilla? na... tangina.. may nagawa ba siya sa senado? pano kaya kung taga-ABS ang nagkaroon ng sex video na kumalat.. bibigyan pa ba ng pansin ni Bong Revilla yun?

sa tingin ko naman hindi kwestyunable ang pagkapanalo si Noynoy, ngunit ang pagkatalo ni Villar kay Erap ay isang malaking... kalokohan.

ibig sabihin nun, ang mga taong nagpaalis kay Erap nung edsa dos ay mas konti keysa sa mga gustong ibalik siya sa pagka-pangulo.so parang ang ipinagmamalaki nating People Power Revolution ay isang kalokohan lang kasi Erap was on the cusp of getting back the presidency. tutal, ang mga nakilahok lang naman sa mga People Power Revolutions ay ang mga nasa Metro Manila at sa mga karatig na lugar. ang lugar na yun ay maliit kumpara sa mga malalayong probinsya na di nakilahok at baka may ibang opinyon.

napanood ko si Noynoy sa CNN kagabi, at di siya mukang presidente. yung tipong wala siyang dating at parang ako lang mag-ingles na nag-su-stutter. pero ayos na ko na siya ang maging presidente, lalo na't di nanalo si Roxas... sobrang magiging puppet si Noynoy ni Mar eh. pero ayaw ko lang ang political dynasty ni Binay sa Makati. kasi gusto ko si Bayani manalo... dahil ang presidente ko may B... for balls! lalakeng kausap! titino ang gobyerno!

whatever, di ko na mabasa tinatype ko dahil malabo na mata ko

I love balls

...dahil mas madalas ako makapanood ng football games dun. kaso nga lang ang English Premiership nasa Star Sports, pero ano naman say nun sa UAAP Football!

Nakakatuwa eh, pinapalabas pala sa Balls ang football games ng UAAP. Finals between FEU and UST, at talo ang sintang paaralan. Sana meron rin ang NCAA, para mapanood ko rin ang beloved alma mater.

Pansin ko lang pag nanonood ako ng sporting event, mas nag-eenjoy ako pag may connection talaga ako sa team. Yung tipong kumakabog ang dibdib ko pag crucial stages na ng game, or napapasigaw ako ng sobrang lakas pag may error or pag naka-iskor.

Ang maganda pa sa Balls, eh ipapalabas nila ang World Cup! 30 days na lang at FIFA World Cup na wooooho! HUP HOLLAND HUP! alas siyete ng gabi ng June 14 ang first game ng Netherlands! HUP HOLLAND HUP!

paki nga ba nila sa opinyon ko...

for one, my arguments seem offbeat or downright ridiculous...

...but apparently I keep on spewing them like a trained dragon

so yeah...

eleksyon na talaga at habang ginagagawa ko 'to, I am half listening to Diyes sa Mayo 10 thing of ABS-CBN. Karamihan ng angkan ko ay maka-Gibo, karamihan ng mga kaibigan ko ay maka-Gibo, at ako... in all honesty, walang paki kung sino manalo.

but clearly, si Villar ang lagi kong bina-bash... pero ayos naman ako kahit manalo siya eh. gawin niyang isang malaking real estate shit ang bansa, keber lang, dagdag GNP na yun, pag-asenso pa rin naman yun.

sa mga past blog entries ko, sinabi ko iboboto ko si Noynoy. pero really, di ako bilib sa pangako niyang pagiging di corrupt. Di ko namang sinasabing magiging corrupt siya tulad ng 99% ng mga pulitiko, pero kahit maging malinis siya does it follow na magiging malinis rin ang local government unit?

karamihan ng mga intelektwal ay boboto kay Gibo. Magaling siya magsalita sa mga napapanood ko sa telebisyon, kaya iniimagine ko kung ano itsura niya nung nanliligaw pa siya. Ang ganda ng asawa nun, and I can see na epektibo nga ang speaking skills niya, swabe. Kidding aside, naniniwala akong maganda ang magagawa ni Gibo sa bayan. Think GMA again, with less probability of scandals. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing... seriously

Speaking of scandals, lately ko lang naisip... diba si Joey De Venecia ang nagbuwag ng ZTE-NBN shit? wow, that's good right? pero diba parang ang scenario is initially makikinabang dapat siya dun pero nung nag-iba ng ihip ng hangin... ayun! pinigilan niya ang shit na yun. haha... paki sabi na lang kung mali ang facts ko.. para may facepalm moments naman tayo.

okay.. naputol ang train of thought ko dahil inexplain sa TV ang posibleng pag-balik ni GMA dahil baka maging prime minister siya or something...

tska pinakita rin pala na importante kay Loren Legarda ang environment... it shows na naninindigan siya dun.. biodegradable ang tarpaulins at stickers na campagin materials niya diba?

anyway...

wala naman akong problema kung sino man ang maluklok basta't gawin ko lang namang maginhawa ang buhay ko. tingnan niyo yung mga affluent individuals, wala gaanong qualms sa gobyerno. gusto ko maging ganun... isang indibidwal na immune sa kalokohahn ng gobyerno! kasi ang mga nagbebenefit naman sa proyekto ng gobyerno ay yung mga middle class peeps eh.. tingnan mo yung SCTEX! dumaan lang ako dun kanina, at proyekto siya ni Pang gulong Gloria Arroyo!

inaantok na ko... ayaw ko na mag-type

and always remember... to not take life seriously.. cause I don't

maybe a businessman should run the country...

...cause it seems to me that the private sector does a better job of economizing than the government

and its not like real estate would kill anyone

and I do love the color orange... my room is orange, yeah

or maybe I'm just high on nutmeg and should not be taken seriously...

but seriously, I do hope that the automated election goes haywire so the votes for Villar won't be counted. and hey, its either Gloria stays in power or Gibo does some legal magic and becomes president... both have galing at talino, right? according to their marketing division

or Noynoy starts one huge rally like his mother and a bunch of defectors from the military did...

and the JIL peeps would join them, so we'd have one huge yellow army with a dash of greenies on the side...

or maybe I am high on nutmeg and should not be taken seriously...