the univershell

the thing with superheroes is that you'd think given their gift, their life will go swimmingly.

but it's never the case, they always have the struggle. and there's no bigger struggle than man against self. especially when the struggle is self-inflicted, because really we can't be good at everything and what you can do is to substitute your talent in other facets of life to something else seemingly related - such as work skills to social skills. kids, they never work. we can only be good in so much, and we have to acknowledge that we will always have limitations.

but we also have to recognize that some facets of life shouldn't mix. you can't treat people in your social circle as clients to negotiate or spin words around with. it gets pretty annoying to be the one who talks weird by being meticulous with the words you choose. how did i get here.

camonball run

it's quite liberating to not have to consider everything all at once. I feel like this is how my twenties should be: meeting new people, making new friends, rekindling old connections. there is a case to be made for considering the importance of human relationships - they are what makes us special. it's important to feel special, it helps us ward of loneliness.

ever since, i never felt lonely, i get bored, yes, but I never felt like I was on my own. not anymore, since growing up and growing out. but we never change, we're still running on the same processes and biases to make life and decision-making easier. we eventually learn how to express ourselves better, hopefully enough to not making re-reading our thoughts cringe-worthy. we eventually learn how to notice patterns to predict the future, hopefully with enough accuracy to not make the same mistake in the same damn scenario.

we become better.

and we have to thank the people we meet along the way, the highs and lows we go through, and the lull in between major events that make up the most of our journey.

we don't realize sometimes how free we are.