later than never

I might as well sleep dahil may klase pa ko bukas at kukulangin ako sa tulog ng bonggang bongga...

but blogging helps me sleep.. well... after a cabernet it does...

studying economics... lost its charm when I got out of ser Sigua's class... its like.. he's one of those teachers who seem to make certain things interesting... and now... economics is just.. graphs.. and math... and shit...

I might change majors to Philosophy.. philosophical shit has always been my passion... in case you haven't noticed yet... yeah...

or I dunno... maybe I'm just bored with life and I don't feel like doing what everyone else does and suck it up and stick with my decision...

but seriously... I don't wanna be like the many people I've known who really really really wanted to take up philosophy but they were unable to due to... whatever circumstance...

err.. okay.. I just know of two people... but thats a big number! its not like you meet people who want to take up philosophy everyday... or I dunno.. most people would want to earn money... and they do that by getting a degree and presenting yourself to the employers or something...

but me? I'm fine with minimum wage... as long as I can sustain my needs and my parents will still pay for the electricity, water, and internet bills... I can pretty much survive...of course I can work as a freelance writer and do articles for small time tabloids... and yeah... I don't know where I was going with that thought... scratch that...

or I can work as a call center agent or something... that's where most people end up in right? at least I earn big.. while endangering my life with a broken circadian rhythm.. but the thing is... who'd want to live that long? I'm not an alcoholic, I don't smoke, and I haven't done drugs yet... sooooo.. working in a call center wouldn't be that bad I guess...

whatever...

I really wanna be a buddhist monk... seriously.. I wanna be the new buddha... and I won't be that fat guy with long arms and an unsheathed penis... but yeah... I think my worldly desires are just a diversion for whatever calling I seem believe in... you give me a chance to become enlightened or at least a path to enlightenment... I'd be willing to live a monk's life... but please let me bring my music with me... I don't listen to music because it makes me look cool that I listen to bands that nobody else listens to... I do it because it keeps me from jumping on the train tracks...

my desire to be a buddhist monk is like a jedi thing... just without the lightsabers and the force and sith and bad remakes of the trilogy... and of course without the Yoda telling me to "unlearn" whatever I know of... because... y'know.. we got monks here.. but they ain't no dudes wanting to be enlightened... and again... I really don't know where I'm going to with this...

I'm sleeping... peace out niggers