number nine.number nine.number nine.

The Beatles' Revolution 9 on repeat while doing a blog entry on 09.09.09... is the most absurd thing I've done so far.. on multiply

listening to the song isn't the most fabulous thing ever...

and trying to think of... something to write... while... dadaist music is playing loud... is...

I'm finding it difficult to even focus on typing sentences that make sense... well my blog entries rarely make sense... and I guess... listening to a seemingly senseless song... might hopefully... do a negative*negative=positive effect on me... me?

well no... I seriously can't think clearly...

it feels like some bad acid trip or something...

now I changed the song to While My Guitar Gently Weeps... just to get rid of the bitter taste off my tongue..

*after the song*

okay.. back to Revolution 9

okay...

college won't be the most fabulous of experiences if I'll be with my classmates for four years... they're not my crowd... of course I can endure four years with them.. its college.. college is more about studying hard and less about the people you are with... lalo na pag the people you are with would most likely end up in office spaces...

I'd study in La Salle if we had the money.. or I dunno.. andun ba talaga crowd ko? baka mag-inglesan lang kami at magsuot ako ng mga conyo wear from Topman or whatever...

my wallet stays in uste

dahil sa halagang 35 pesos.. may tapsilog ka na... na kasing dami ng isang shot glass.. at itlog na kasing laki ng isang chips ahoy cookie... at libreng tubig sa stainless steel na cup!

hay buhay.. napaka-ginhawa talaga..

lalo na pag binabaha sa may uste...

di ko siguro ipagpapalit ang mga araw na masa-stranded ako sa uste sa kahit anong maginhawang karanasan sa ibang unibersidad... kung pinoy ka nga talaga.. kelangan mong pagdaanan ang hirap na dinaranas ng ating mga kababayan... and its not just for the sake of experiencing it... yun eh para maintindihan mo ang sitwasyon ng mga taong mas pinili di magsikap kahit papaano...

magandang argument rin kasi yung "they chose to be that way and I choose to live comfortable"

pero ganun na ba tayo ngayon? ang mga nagsasarili na lang? at pinapabayaan ang kapakanan ng mga kasapi natin?

yun sa tingin ko ang problema ng... buhay... na ang mga nasa taas tumataas at ang mga nasa baba ay namamarginalize...

pero pwede rin natin 'to tingnan not as a problem.. but as something that naturally occurs in societies.... nakasaad sa On the Origin of Species ni Charles Darwin ang natural selection.. nakasaad sa Principles of Biology in Herbert Spencer ang survival of the fittest.. ang mga nasa baba ay tuluyan dapat mawala dahil sila ang humihila ng standard of living pababa...

... at pag nawala ang mga nasa baba?

papalitan ba ng pinaka-mababa sa highest strata of society ang mga dating linalait-lait lang nila? o magkakaroon rin tayo ng isang utopia kung saan lahat ay nagsisikap at nakukuha ang gusto nila at di umaasa sa iba para mabuhay?

kung ako tatanongin... mas gugustuhin kong tuluyang maglaho ang mga mahihina.. dahil in one way or the other... kagagawan rin nila ang kanilang demise... di mo naman pwedeng asahang darating na lang sa'yo ng kusa ang fruits of labor kung wala nga naman talagang labor... diba?

ang buhay ng taong nangongopya lang ay heavily dependent on social relations... take society away from them.. and they might perish... but I do not believe that they should be frowned upon.. its the process that works for them... it may not be the right thing to do... pero pwede rin i-contest ang moral standards ng society dahil... ano nga ba talaga ang tama? just because everyone's doing it doesn't mean its right... following that argument... just because everyone things that killing is bad and stealing is bad.. doesn't mean that it is right...

are you gonna counter that with there are exceptions to the rule? but wait... just because you want something or everyone wants something to be exempted from that rule.. doesn't mean that it should be... that is... if we are practicing freedom... and not freedom dictated by yet to be proven entities...

because sometimes it feels right to shoot someone who had done you wrong... sometimes it feels right to steal something that was stolen from you...

cause it seems like... a lot of us are irrationally protecting ourselves from laws that can be easily taken advantage of... or at least those who can afford legal services...

again.. we go back to the survival of the fittest argument... and yeah.. it is a benefit or luxury of some sort to be able to take advantage of others who are of lesser status than you are...

or am I connecting wrong ideas to form one huge absurdity?