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walang gas... di tuloy ako makapag-luto ng sarili kong Bacon Mushrrom Melt.. huhuhu.. kaya I did the next best thing! which is gumawa ng wala!!

kaya eto results ng pag-gagawa ko ng wala:

HANDWRITING ANALYSIS:

 Kenneth uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Kenneth does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.

Kenneth will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.

Kenneth is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

 People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Kenneth doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

 Kenneth is sensitive to criticism about his ideas and philosophies. He will sometimes worry what people will think if he tells them what he believes in. This doesn't mean he won't talk, or that he feels ashamed. It merely means he is sensitive to what others think, regarding his beliefs.

 Kenneth will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

 Diplomacy is one of Kenneth's best attributes. He has the ability to say what others want to hear. He can have tact with others. He has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Kenneth can disagree without being disagreeable.

 In reference to Kenneth's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Kenneth slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Kenneth can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

 Kenneth is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Kenneth basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

 Kenneth is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

 Kenneth will take action on his thoughts. He is positive that his views are correct for him. He has the ability to seem as if he is positively correct when answering a question, even if he does not have the slightest idea of the answer. Kenneth displays a self-confidence that makes everyone else sure he is correct. He is positive of his own views, but not necessarily stubborn.

 Kenneth is very self-sufficient. He is trying not to need anyone. He is capable of making it on his own. He probably wants and enjoys people, but he doesn't "need" them. He can be a loner.

 Kenneth exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although he may not intend to deceive or mislead, he blows things way out of proportion because that is the way he views them. He will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of his material world. Kenneth allows many people into his life because he is accepting and trusting. He is sometimes called gullible by his friends. That only really means that he trusts too many people. Kenneth has a vivid imagination.

QUIZ FARM!!!

What character from House MD are you?

You scored as a Dr. Gregory House

You are Doctor Gregory House. You are a sarcastic misanthropic doctor with a leg injury.

Dr. Gregory House 75% Doctor Allison Cameron 67% Doctor James Wilson 58% Doctor Robert Chase 42% Doctor Eric Foreman 42% Doctor Lisa Cuddy 33% Patient of the Week 0%

screw this...

What kind of Sith are you?

You scored as a Sith master

You are a Sith master, you have succeeded your master, and you plot to use an empire-type system of government to keep the people at your feet. You are very wise, and you do not much care for power physically but rather power politically. You are well rounded in all darkside traits. To hide your darkside pressence you use deception, you fear nobody but you know it is wise to keep your inner-truth a mystery.You are very strong with the force and you will teach others to spread your legacy and the legacy of the Sith.

Sith master 60% Dark Jedi 40% Sith ninja 38% Sith marauder 38% Sith pirate 38% Sith aprentice 29%

The Philosophy Quiz

You scored as a Pragmatist

You are a pragmatist. You believe that "ultimate truth" is less relevant than practicality in achieving your goals. You are willing to tolerate just about any belief, so long as those who hold it do not bother you. [Pictured: Richard Rorty.]

Pragmatist 67% Thomist 64% Taoist 63% Hegelian 63% Kantian 63% Buddhist 60% Kierkegaardian Existentialist 60% Sartrean Existentialist 57% Postmodernist 53% Logical Positivist 53% Platonist 50% Epicurean 47% Objectivist 40% Calvinist 30%

Wendy's

gutom ako... kaya gugutumin ko rin kayo!!

pero baka di niyo trip ang Wendy's kaya patatakamin ko kayo sa isa pa!!
mmmmmm.. sarap

grabe... gusto ko talagang kumain sa Wendy's ngayon. Pero ayaw kong gastusin pera ko...cheap ako eh.

kaya I'll do the next best thing... homemade na bacon mushroom melt!! woohoo!

tamang tama... may bacon at cheese sa ref, may 'shrooms at tinapay in can sa cabinet. kulang na lang yung burger patty. naku po! pero iba rin kasi yun buns ng Wendy's eh. may sesame seeds na parang keso yun eh. At di hamak na mas marunong mag-luto ng bacon ang mga minimum wage chefs ng Wendy's keysa saken. kaya baka magihihintay na lang ulet ako sa susunod na pagkakataon para makapunta sa Sta Lu o sa Araneta. Pero overpriced sa Araneta eh... pero madumi naman yung Wendy's sa Sta Lu.. pero lahat naman tayo may dalang dumi kaya sa Sta Lu na lang ako.

kelangan ko talaga ng Wendy's... di ako tatagal ngayong linggo ng walang Wendy's.

sinisisi ko ang CAGcast(na isang podcast)... kinasuhan daw sila ng Wendy's dahil namimigay sila ng fake coupons ng cheese burger nila or something.. ah basta! Wendyyyyyyyyyyy's

no match ang burger ng McDo o ng Jollibee sa burger ng Wendyyyyyyyyyy's... kahit sabihin mo pang 1/3 of a pound yung Champ ng Jollibee or sikat yung patalastas ng Cheesburger ng McDo... no match pa rin sila sa cholesterol ng Bacon Mushroom Melt!!!

huminga ng malalim

ang maniwala tanga

I'm on a roll daw sabi ni Chua.. ilang beses akong nag-gm ngayong gabi

hanep eh.. sa inaakala kong joke joke lang eh magiging seryoso pala! nag-g-gm ako na walang pasok bukas.. sa inaakala kong meron.. pero ayun.. eto mga gm ko:

wala daw pasok bukas. source: kapitbahay

kenneth: madam president diba walang pasok bukas?
GMA: oo.. walang pasok bukas.. may sona
kenneth: mabuhay ang presidente!!!

kenneth: diba walang pasok bukas?
Typhoon Igme: oo, gago may pasok bukas.. di ako daan sa Rizal area
kenneth: ah okay.. mabuhay si Typhoon Igme!!

I asked Ms. Adriano if there would be classes tomorrow. Eto reply niya: brad na wrong send ka ata. pero sa akin lang mas maganda kung iskwelahan talaga tatawagan natin diba?

pero nung naconfirm ko na wala talaga....

wag kayong maniwala sa GMA.. may pasok bukas. source: Kenneth CERTIFIED KAPAMILYA

wag kayo maniwala kay Yadj... talo naman yan sa eleksyon eh

grabe.. miracles do come true.. lalo na kung pinipilit mo!

what I am very thankful for..

nagpapasalamat ako sa mga magulang ko at ginawa ako bago mag 1997..

ayaw ko sana lumaki sa 2000s.. anjojologs ng mga taong lumalaki sa taong ito eh.. buti't lumampas na ko sa poser phase ko nung nauso yung emo.. my god ilang laslas na siguro nagawa ko kung 11 years old pa lang ako ngayon..

nababaduyan rin ako sa mga taong kala nila alam na nila ang emo.. lalo na yung mga posero.. sinasabi nila Punks Not Dead tas emo sila.. tae.. magkaiba ang subculture na punk at emo! mga mahilig maglaslas ang mga emo kids eh.. at ang mga punks ay.. well.. rebelde.. pero pwede nating sabihin na mga nagrerebelde ang mga emo kids sa paglalaslas nila.. whatever..

tska sa tingin ko talaga ay punks truly are dead.. parang lahat na lang ata sa mundo eh kino-commercialize na.. siguro may onting punks pa dyan.. pero malabong magkaroon pa ng punk sa pilipinas.. kasi nugn time na nauso ang punk sa Great Britian eh si Marcos pa presidente.. kaya siguro pwede natin masabing may punks ang pinoy.. pero they don't make punk music.. mas malaki ang ginagawa ng mga "punks" ng pinoy keysa mga punks ng Great Britain.. kasi napatumba ng mga "punks" na pinoy ang diktador eh.. pero yung mga punks sa Great Britain di natanggal ang kanilang reyna.. pero lubhang mas extreme naman ang sitwasyon sa pilipinas keysa london nung 70s at 80s.. buti pa mga amerikano.. naluluong sa acid at kung anu-ano pang hallucinogens..

masaya siguro lumaki sa 60s o 70s.. pero mukang di naman nauso ang hallucinogens sa pilipinas kaya lalaki siguro ako sa bansang hawak ng isang striktong diktador.. pero kahit ngayon uso pa naman ang paggamit ng cannabis.. pero may batas na nagbabawal sa paggamit nito.. di kasi marunong gumamit ang mga adik eh.. tuloy pati yung mga mas marunong i-handle ang kanilang sarili naapektuhan..

--naputol ang train of thought--

pabata ng pabata ang itsura ng mga nagiging freshman ngayon.. naalala ko tuloy dati nakakita ako ng mga makalumang permit ng mga mendiola bedista nung 1997.. grabe! muka nang tatay ang mga incoming freshmen! grabe! ano nangyayari sa mundo? pero kayo na bahala mag-decide kung it's a good thing or not.. kaya siguro mas youthful ang itsura ng kabataan ngayon ay dahil sa diet nila.. or baka sa mga aktibidad nila ngayon.. kung dati uso pa ang mag-laro sa lansangan.. ngayon puro dota at kung anu-anong laro sa kompyuter o PSP ang paraan ng paglilibang nila..

grabe naman.. parang ako lumaki sa panahon na sa lansangan ako naglalaro..

pero isa ako sa mga huling bata na nakaranas na maglaro ng tagutaguan o patintero.. tumatalon na nga kami sa ibang village pag nagtatago kami sa tagutaguan eh.. those were the days.. kung saan di lang utak ang pinapagana.. kundi ang paa't kamay..

ngayon kasi kamay at utak na lang eh.. tas magbabayad ka pa! buti pa nung grade school pa ko.. libre ang paglilibang.. imagination mo lang ang limit.. pero siguro kasama na rin ang katawan mo at ang courage mo kasi mahirap na kung habulin ka ng aso sa village na di mo alam..

IBALIK ANG MGA LARO NG LANSANGAN!!!

ho ho ho at buhay pa akow

Ayaw ko magpost ng dalawang beses sa blog ko sa multiply. Ankorny eh... parang atat magpost.

Kaya dito ko na lang gagawin ang mga blog entry ko pag nakapag-post na ko sa multiply! :D

natatae ako... ayun.. wala na.

kumuha ako ng application form sa 'teneo kaninang umaga. at maganda yung office of admissions nila ha... parang reception area ng mga spa. Tas may fifillupan ka pa! Parang sa spa nga talaga! Di katulad ng sa peyups na isusulat mo lang ang pangalan mo at kuha ng form. Andami pa kasing chechebureche sa pagkuha ng form sa 'teneo eh. May bayad pang 500! langya! pero in fairness, maganda naman yung application form nila. Gusto ko sanang i-laminate. pero mahal eh... sayang sa pera :D

exam ko na sa peyups sa sabado. Swerte ako at pang hapon ang iskedyul ko! tamang tama... tulog ako ng ala una ng umaga. Tapos gising ako ng alas nuebe ng umaga. Almusal, ligo, bihis, alis... tas dating sa peyups ng alas onse. Punta sa College of ******* tapos kuha ng exam. Sana di ko makalimutan ang permit ko at kung anu-ano pang churva.

grabe puro tungkol sa kolehiyo ang kwinekwento ko ha. hayskul pa lang ako... masyado akong excited.

mukang di ko magugustuhan ang huling buwan ko sa hayskul. Integration pa lang pangit na... pano pa kaya yung ibang events ng Beda? naku pow! Sana naman po mas maganda ang mga susunod na happenings at nang di masayang ang ochenta mil na matrikula namin! langya! sarap batukan eh. anlaki ng itinaas pero parang di rin naman nag-bago ang iskwelahan. ang mahal na nga ng mga libro tas mamahalan pa yung tuition! tae! tas dalawa pa libro namin sa english... isang literature book at yung hardbound na UBD book. Pero maganda naman yung mga libro eh.. di ko lang talaga nauutilize ng mabuti. :D

namiss ko kayo! oo kayo... kayong mga readers ng blog ko. kung sino man kayo... alalahanin nyo lang na minamahal ko ang bawat nilalang na binabasa ang blag ko.

candyface

artistahin... yan si Gesmund.. mas gwapo pag b&w(although di naman talaga black & white yan.. siguro white with a hint of red?)

kung may pagkakataon lang na makagawa ako ng pelikula eh sya kukunin kong main character.. ang problema lang eh di ko alam ang gagawin nya... kasi maganda na yang photo na yan eh.. whateber

I don't feel inspired.. or baka binabagabag lang talaga ako ng mga projects at ng nalalapit na admission test sa peyups.. pero ayos lang yan.. come what may.. ayaw naman ng magulang ko maging NPA ako eh.. siguro susuungin ko na nga lang talaga ang streets of Manila sa kolehiyo.. pero ayos rin 'teneo ha.. mahal nga lang.. at allergic ako sa mga nilalang sa kahabaan ng Katipunan.. except yung mga sekyu ng bangko.. at least sila pag kinakausap ako di inggles.. naiirita talaga ko sa mga taong iniinggles ako pag di ko kelangan.. tatanongin mo ng tagalog tas sasagutin ka ng inggles! pakshet.. batukan ko sila eh.. pero oy.. marunong naman ako mag-inggles ha.. at proud ako sa mastery ng karamihan ng pinoy sa inggles.. salamat sa mga nagsulputang call centers.. siguro dun na lang ako magtratrabaho kung Philo man ang maging kurso ko sa kolehiyo.. mukang mas mataas naman ang sweldo ng mga nilalang dun keysa mag-titser.. pero umiiksi mga life spans ng mga nagcacall center eh.. ayaw ko pa naman sa mga bagay na nagpapaikli ng life span ko.. uy! lupet na idea yun para sa isang statistical study ha! tingnan kung may relasyon ang pagtratrabaho sa call center sa pag-baba ng life expectancy ng isang tao.. pero matagal pa resluts nun.. pero it would be very benificial to the public.. lalo na sa mga taong magaling mag inggles at ayaw ipamahagi ang kanilang talento sa mga public school students.. ay tama na nga

nahalata nyo ba na papunta kung saan saan yung huling paragraph ko.. anlupet ng segue sa bawat topic eh.. kung di ko pinigilan sarili ko baka halos lahat na ng mga topic na pwede kong mapagusapan ay mapagusapan ko eh.. pero we need to practice moderation.. nakakamatay ang sobra.. ay ayan nanaman po tayo!

naiirita talaga ako sa mga taong nag-iiscarf.. lalo na yung Muslim-esque na scarf na sinusuot ng ibang taga-beda kanina nung integration.. parang.. hello? nasa pilipinas tayo.. ulan at araw lang ang nararanasan natin.. di natin kelangan ng ganyang churva.. at ayun ay kung sa practical standpoint natin titingnan.. pero in a fashion churva standpoint.. I think it looks hideous.. pero I think it makes ones shoulders look bigger.. sooooo muka namang maganda.. siguro.. pero baka sabihin nyo naman eh nagiging hypocrite ako kasi kahit ako nagsusuot ng scarf.. pero iba naman ang scarf na sinusuot ko.. yung scarf naman ng Beda yun.. yung pang football.. at minsan ko lang yun suotin.. pero I tend to contradict myself.. kaya di na maiiwasan yun..

I miss my Hengeropolis/eatmehenger/summer na tuli ka na ba? blog.. parang mas maganda ang blogging dun.. pero ang maganda dito ay wider ang fan base ko.. dati isa o dalawa lang ang bumibisita sa blag ko.. pero dito.. tatlo na!!! isang himala!!! at take note ha.. sa network ko lang 'to pinapublish.. kung dati eh isa o dalawa lang nagbabasa..

pag may bago akong paragraph.. ibig sabihin ay naputol or pinutol ko ang train of though ko.. yehey

the more I read my blog.. the more I miss it.. parang pati ako natutuwa ako sa mga pinagsusulat ko eh.. ngayon I'm just a whiny adolescent who doesn't know how to use punctuation marks.. andami ko talagang storya na nasisimulaan at di natatapos.. kamiss talaga blag ko.. eh kung mag-post ulet ako dun? pero may hiatus post ako dun eh.. yung "sumatotal".. pero ewan.. check nyo nga kung dapat kong ituloy ang mga blog entries ko sa http://eatmehenger.blogspot.com...

walang kwenta yung integration ngayon.. may special child kasi kaming integrant eh.. tas sinunod ng mga integrants yung sinabi ko sa kanila na "pagkarating nyo sa stage.. wag kayong gagalaw! tayo lang kayo sa tabi at hintaying magsabi si Manaois na "thank you 4-40""... tae.. ang iksi kasi eh.. tableau nga pero parang instant poof! tableau.. ganda talaga pag presentation.. at may himala na nangyari kanina eh.. biglang umaraw nung washout na.. yun talaga nakakatuwa eh.. pero anyway.. it's not a nice way to finish my high school life.. kung pwede lang ako magparepeat para mag-integration ulet gagawin ko eh...

eat fish chips

count to eleven

I feel the need to do a blog entry because... well.. I haven't posted anything since... uhmmm I dunno.. do you the math..

it's almost eleven.. and I don't have anything substantial to write.. well.. I've been watching E3 videos from GameTrailers.com... I dunno if that's of any importance.. and I haven't had the chance to get an application form for Ateneo.. well if I missed this year's deadline.. there's always next time...

I want to eat real food.. I've been eating chips and chocolates and noodles today.. my digestive tract is messed up.. good thing my mum bought Yakult..

yes.. short and sour..

Name Game: Lyan David Juanico

pag walang magawa at medyo mahirap i-decipher ang nickname ng kachat... paglaruan ang pangalan!!!

Full Name: Lyan David Juanico
Current Nickname: Yadj
Imbento kong nicknames:
Andy
Anna
Dylan - yan.. da best.. pati si Yadj nagustuhan
Danny
Janny
Jinda
Dida
Nica
Nicolandia
Linda
Lynda
Joy
Jon
Yano
yaj

parang scrabble kasi yung pangalan eh... now it's your turn to play with your friend's name!!

lalong di maaari..

wala pa ring internet dito sa aming bansa... di pa rin naayos ng PLDT.. naku pow! may 20 na talo na ko sa Food Fling! waaaah... pero ayos lang.. may 297 wins pa rin naman ako.. pero kahit na ba! isang malaking kahihiyan ito...

oo.. ma-pride ako..

ginagamit ko pa rin ang WeRoam ng dad ko.. at ngayon UMTS na ang signal na nasasagap nya.. di katulad nung nasa probinsya ako.. GPRS lang.. kaya a kilobyte per second lang ang usad ko.. trip ko pa naman ding bumisita sa mga multiply pages ng ibang tao kanina.. pero ngayon.. wala na.. I'm back.. from outer space.. andito na ulet ang minamahal kong song library.. na-download ko na ang latest episode ng CAGcast.. at ayun.. pwede na kong mabuhay ng walang human interaction or whatsoever.. hanep.. english! pa-burger ka naman! burger! burger! burger!

may out of school activity nanaman bukas.. at yun ang tangi kong pag-asa para magawa ang mga assignments at prajek.. KAYA LAHAT NG MGA BATUGAN SUPORTAHAN ANG AKING LABAN!!!

extra grades lang naman siguro mapapala mo pag di ka pumunta sa game eh.. pero WHO NEEDS EXTRA GRADES? para sa mga over achievers lang yun! lahat ng mga may social life di na kelangan nun!!

anyway.. papalapit na ang test ko sa peyups.. at wala pa kong form ng 'teneo.. bullshit.. gagastos pa kasi ng magkano eh.. buti pa sa peyups eh.. gagastos ka lang pag isusumite mo na eh.. buti sana kung may libreng cheeseburger yung application form ng 'teneo eh.. agh! sa JRU na lang nga ako! at least di ko na kelangan mangamba sa entrance exam!

ouch! na orthostatic hypotension ako! shet.. medical term! pa-cheesburger ka naman! burger! burger! burger! madalas na kong ma-ganun.. kaya feeling ko mamatay na ko.. ahy! charos.. umuwi kasi yung kamaganak naming nurse.. kaya ayun.. I learned two medical terms this weekend.. at madalas sila mangyari saken.. una ay yung vasoconstriction at pangalawa ay eto.. yung orthostatic hypotension.. mahirap pala mag-doktor.. ayaw ko na nga.. magiging janitor na lang ako.. at least madali lang yun.. di katulad ng pagiging doktor.. andami mong kelangang aralin tas pagkagraduate mo.. malalaman mo na mas malaki ang kikitain ng isang nurse na nag-aborad keysa kikitain mo for a lifetime..

ang hirap talaga ng pagiging propesyonal sa pilipinas...

pambihira.. mukang wala akong internet bukas... nakakalungkot.. ayaw ko pa naman din hawakan ang phone ko.. dahil nag-tatae sya ng black ink... it's a miracle!

hindi maaari

talo na ko sa Food Fling, talo na ko sa Pillow Fight, di na ko makapag-online sa Facebook at YM... okay lang prenster eh.. pero wag lang ang peysbook!!!

naputulan ng telephone line ang buong subdivision namin.. isang napaka-saklap na balita.. ako pa naman yung tipong di makatagal pag walang internet.. kaya para labanan ang withdrawal symptoms... inagahan ko ang tulog ko! kaya ayun... I sleep for 8-9 hours a day na.. pero I'm still sad..

tas ngayong weekend parang pusa na ko sa kakatulog.. mas matagal na kong tulog keysa sa gising... pero mas gusto kong tulog ako.. di ko gets kung pano kayo nasasarapan sa tulog pero ako wala akong nararamdaman na sarap sa tulog.. gusto ko lang matulog para maka-escape sa probinsya na 'to... in dreams I can go to school.. in dreams I can meet the viva hot babes.. in dreams I have a lot of friends..

ilang araw rin akong di nag-online.. grabe.. nakakamiss.. buti nga may WeRoam yung laptop ng dad ko eh.. at least nakakapag-internet ako kahit nasa probinsya ako.. ay! nakalimutan ko nga palang sabihing.. nasa Pangasinan ako ngayon.. burol ng kapatid ng lola ko.. or baka nasabi ko na yun pero nakalimutan ko na.. I forget things easily..

na-e-LSS ako sa All The Young Dudes na kanta sa Juno.. parang gusto ko panoorin ulet yung pelikula pero I'm staying away from all things cheesy.. buti pa Brida ni Paulo Coelho di cheesy eh.. except yung part na kasama ni Brida si Wicca sa isang ritwal sa gitna ng woods kasama ang mga ibang studyante ni Wicca.. pero kahit na ba.. it's a good story for those na wala pang kursong napipili sa kolehiyo.. haha

gusto kong gumawa ng gay themed film.. nanonood daw kasi si Daniel Obedoza ng ganun eh.. title ng pinapanood nya "Ang Lihim ni Antonio".. may listahan na nga ako ng mga pwedeng title eh:
Ang Chika ni Hector
Ang Chorva ni Hector
Ang Talong ni Benjamin
Ang Espada ni Joel
Ang Stick ni Philip
Ang Ampalaya ni Jobert
Ang Footlong ni Rogelio
Danny's Boys
Ex-Men

I forget events easily.. and conversations as well.. or I dunno.. I pretty much forget about everything.. except things that I read from Wikipedia.. wow english.. anyway.. di na ko makapag-save ng libo libong text messages sa inbox ko.. it's the only way I can remember certain things.. memories are far more important than the air we breathe.. my memories are like dreams.. I forget about them after waking up.. I forget about certain things when I sleep.. I'd rather die now and remember everything that happened to me than live up to a hundred and live like Sandler's wife in 50 First Dates... I feel like selling my brain.. it sucks being an aspie and forgeting tons of things... or maybe forgetting things easily is a good thing.. I can easliy forget the sad things that I've gone through.. now that's something that a lot of people would wanna have.. maybe some things aren't totally bad.. I wish I can save my daily memory in a hard disk.. so I can view them when I grow old.. or maybe I'd rather not remember some things.. it's when we yearn for things we turn into sad beings.. and the past is the only thing that not even the rich can afford.. it's a sad fact of life..

what the fuck am I saying.. pa-english english pa ko wala namang katuturan.. anyway.. natapos ko na rin ang Brida na hiniram ko kay Oscar.. salamat ng marami

be kind rewind

three good films in a weekend.. whew.. grabe.. this is the most fun I had since my last game of Guitar Hero on the Nintendo Wii..

kakatapos ko lang manood ng Be Kind Rewind mula sa isa sa mga paborito kong direktor na si Michel Gondry(na direktor rin ng Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind at The Science of Sleep.. na nagustuhan ko rin)

ang nakakatuwa dito eh sya ang pinakauna kong na-download sa tatlong pelikula kong pinanood ngayon.. pero ito yung pinakahuli kong pinanood.. ewan.. siguro di lang talaga ako nagandahan sa first few minutes ng film kaya ipinagpaliban ko muna yung panonood..

pero kahit ito ang pinakahuling pelikula na napanood ko ngayon sa tingin ko eh ito ang pinakagusto ko.. ewan.. maganda yung Juno at Memento eh.. pero dito lang ako napaluha.. malakas kasi mag-invoke ng emotions ang piano.. or ewan.. kung madly deeply in love ako ngayon baka mas nagustuhan ko ang Juno.. yung Memento naman kasi universal kaya ayos lang.

ayaw ko na nga ituloy.. paputol putol internet namin eh.. putang ina naman kasi ng PLDT eh.. ayaw ko na.. baboo

juno

napaka-late ko talaga makapanood ng mga pelikula.. kahit di pa uso yung pelikula gustong gusto ko nang panoorin pero mas mauuna yung ibang kaibigan ko na makapanood nun... ang problema talaga sa mga pirata...

pero ayos lang.. at least widescreen monitor ko! sila CRT na telebisyon! no match!!!

kakatapos ko lang manood ng Juno.. kung kelan di ko hilig ang mga lab stories.. parang an-cheesy tuloy ng dating kahit di cheesy yung karakter nung babae.. natuwa na lang ako sa mga cultural references nila eh.. at least sa pelikulang 'to alam ko yung mga pinagsasabi nila.. di tulad ng sa House at sa Sandman.. although di naman pelikula yung mga sinabi ko.. nasa media pa rin naman sila!

di ko lang talaga siguro trip ang mga lab stories.. or napangitan talaga ako sa pelikula.. or impluwensya ng Memento na napanood ko nung umaga..

ayos lang yung Memento ni Christopher Nolan(na direktor rin ng huling pelikula ni Heath Ledger).. magaling.. pero di amazing.. siguro kung napanood ko yun bago yung Cidade De Deus o Mind Game baka naelibs ako ng todo at di ko magugustuhan ang Cidade De Deus.. pero ewan.. wala syang aftershow impact tulad ng Donnie Darko.. or sadyang mas nakakarelate ako kay Donnie keysa kay Lenny.. at mas maganda yung jowa ni Donnie keysa kay Lenny.. pero the film caught me offguard.. parang sa kalagitnaan ng pelikula iniisip ko na linoko lang si Lenny para patayin si Teddy.. pero sa ending.. ayun.. nautakan pa rin ako ng auteur.. si Lenny rin pala ang may pakana ng pagpatay kay Teddy.. parang Death Note baga..

wow.. movie review.. pa-cheeseburger ka naman! burger! burger!

almusal ko double cheese burger eh.. di ko talaga gets kung ba't double cheese burger.. eh isa lang naman yung cheese.. soo.. di dapat double cheese yun.. double burger? dhe eh.. isang sandwich pa rin yun eh.. dapat double patty cheese burger na lang! pero mukang di kasya sa menu eh.. kaya ayun.. inommit yung patty.. para.. ayun.. kaya bobo yung mundo eh.. pinapabobo kasi tayo ng mga fast food chains!

Masarap ang Mang Tomas sa Kanin na may Pandan

oo.. isa po 'tong blag entry na may sense ang title... baka di nyo lang nahahalata na mga random phrases o words ang linalagay ko sa title ng mga blag entries ko... malas mo swerte ko...

pinahiram ni Ponce ang Tugish Takish nya ngayon.. masaya ako at nabalikan ko na rin ang musika ng Pedicab.. nakakamiss ang tracks nila tulad ng Bukas at Giving and Receiving..

shit ansakit ng tuhod ko.. nagloko utak ko kanina eh.. nakalimutan kong 11 ang stairs namin.. and I took only 10 steps! kaya ayun.. subukan nyong bumaba ng stairs na nakapikit at may kulang na step.. malalaman nyo yung nagyari saken.. pero ayos naman yung hawak kong pineapple juice.. di tumapon dahil sa super spidey reflexes ko..buti pa yung can ng juice eh.. maayos ang pagkakabagsak.. eh ako.. shit.. ansakit sa tuhod..

ansarap ng buhay ko ngayon.. parang araw-araw na lang may Mang Tomas kami.. tas linalagay ko sa kanin na may pandan.. tapos chicken o pork chop ulam namin.. ansaraaaaaaaap.. tapos may ice cream pa kami for dessert.. yung vanilla.. inubos ng mami ko yung saging eh.. kaya di ako nakakagawa ng banana split.. pero grabe.. inaantok na ako...
eleksyon nanaman ng mga kungwaring may ginagampanang responsibilidad pero isang bagay lang pala ang magagawa sa isang taon.. iboboto ko si Pan.. pero I have a feeling na si Benedict ang mananalo.. may projector sila eh.. :D sila Pan TV lang.. kaya kung gusto mo makita plataporma nila.. kelangan mong sadyain yung spot nila.. eh pano kung nahihiya yung tao lumapit kasi nakakatakot daw yung mga nandun? kaya malupet talaga yung ginawa nila Benedict.. kasi proejctor.. kahit sa malayo kita mo yung nakalagay.. tas karamihan ng mga iboboto ko nasa SURE party.. bilang lang sa isang kamay ng cartoon character ang mga iboboto ko sa SMART party.. pero sa huli di naman importante kung sino manalo eh.. kasi at the end of the day wala rin naman silang magagawa eh.. di kasi sila marunong kumausap sa mga Alumni ng Beda.. andyan si Manny Pangilinan o! si Echiveri! si Bistek! ano ba kayo SC?? hingi naman tayo ng tulong sa kapwa nating Bedista sa mundo ng mga propesyonal.. kaya na-e-alienate ang Beda Rizal sa mga Mendiola People eh.. pero kasalanan rin ng mga Bedistang Taga-Bundok.. kasi parang pangalan lang dala natin eh..

inaantok ako grabe.. pero nagpapatulong pa sa psalm si Oscar eh.. grabe.. nakakapanibago.. parang ako na lang yung pinupuntahan ng iba kong kaklase pag may kelangan silang assignment.. pero ayos lang.. madali lang naman gumawa ng assignment eh.. katamaranat at mga desires mo lang naman ang kalaban mo eh.. sana kasi wala na lang assignment eh.. basta aral na lang tapos seatwork.. quiz.. tas exam.. tas magsulat ng random 2 digit number na nagsisimula sa 9.. tas tapos! edi masaya tayong lahat.. basura naman kasi ang assignments eh

ba't pa kasi naimbento ang sipon eh.. tuloy.. sumasakit ulo ko..

lovefool

halos araw-araw nang nasa bahay si Cabs at Gesmund... kaya di na ko makagawa ng blag entries.. basura!!!

current LSS: The Cardigans' Lovefool

love me love me... say that you love me.. fool me fool me.. go on and fool me.. love me love me.. pretend that you love me...

ankalat ng room ko ngayon grabe.. nakalat ang mga bag na pantraining, medyas at kung anu-ano pang chechebureche...

andami ko talagang fans sa food fling sa facebook.. I have 20 foods flung at me today.. kabadtrip.. lahat yun labor nanaman.. pambihirang patis yan..

walang organization 'tong blag entry na 'to 'no? parang pilit lang gumawa tas linagay na lang lahat ng mga reklamo.. ganyan talaga pag tinatamad at may assignment na pagkahaba-haba na dapat gawin... pambihirang patiiiiiiiiiiis!

pero ayos lang.. at least may bagong blag entry diba? langya.. sumasakit na ulo ko..

tae ka.. binasa mo 'to... sinayang mo oras mo

pakainin ng chorva

habang ginagawa ko 'to... ako'y nakikinig sa Bad Motherfucker ng Radioactive Sago.. jazz track na bagay sa mga film noir na eksena sa 60s Times Square...

malupet na experiment 'to.. dahil tinitingnan ko kung may epekto ang mood ng isang insturmental music sa style and tone ng pag-gawa ko ng basurang ganito...

naiirita ako sa isang pimple sa muka ko.. may obstruction kasi sa line of sight ko eh.. sarap putukin.. pero wag.. masama daw yun... kaya I guess we'll just play the waiting game...

toooooorooooooorororooooooooooot

ay oo nga pala.. di ko pa pala nakwewkento ang pers impressions ko sa mga klasmeyts ko ngayong taon.. or.. nagawa ko na siguro pero di gaanong detalyado.

anyway... 4-40 St. Bede the Pre-Med class.. although Pre-Med rin ang 4-45.. pero puro patay na bata sila eh.. pero kami rin siguro.. mga patay na bata rin.. ang buhay ay nasa 4-41 at 4-44!

maswerte ako't di ako na-45.. kasi mukang di ko magugustuhan ang mga nilalang dun.. di pa naman ako mahilig sa mga cheesy na nilalang at sa mga feeling cool.. dinescribe ko ba sarili ko? oh well.. ang makakasalamuha ko lang naman ata dun ay si Elmar, Anne at Villena.. pero at least dun tatlo.. sa 4-40.. ang nakakasalamuha ko lang ay si Jethro.. at medyo na-a-awkwardan pa ko sa kanya kasi kadalasan naman eh sila Chi at mga bata nya sa 2-24 ang kasama nun.. kumabaga parang body guard lang nya ko.. or whatever.. pero ayos naman mga kaklase ko.. di masaya..  pero di puro patay.. may sarili silang buhay pero di yung tipong buhay na matatagpuan sa 1-14 o sa 3-32.. buti nga at napunta sa 40 si Jethro dahil kung hinde.. naku po! di ko na alam kung matatawa pa ko sa klase..

isa sa mga ayaw ko sa lineup ng 40 ay karamihan ng mga studyante ay galing 25.. kaya parang nanood ka ng isang teleserye sa kalagitnaan na ng season na wala pang episode recap! kaya di ako masyadong maka-relate sa humor nila eh.. puro sila "PONCEEEEEEEEEE" tas tawanan naman sila.. kaya nag-mistulang new student ako.. huhuhu

pero all hope is not lost.. ang malupet sa klase namin ay madaling ma-determine ang top ten.. at siguradong sigurado ako na this is gonna be my best year yet.. in terms of class standing.. feeling ko nga pwede pang mapasok sa top 10 si Ryan eh.. basta't gamitin lang nya ang pandudoktor nya.. wala namang gaanong kompetisyon.. kaya tiba-tiba tayo sa cash mula kay nanay at tatay ngayong taon.. shopping spree na 'to! woooohoooo!

hangga't di ko pa nakukuha ang mga materyal na bagay na dinedesire ko ay di ko gugustuhing magkaroon ng kompetisyon.. farming muna kumbaga.. tas pabayaan ko lahat ng mga hero patayin ang isa't isa.. habang tinitira ko muna ang Satyr Hellcaller at kung sinu-sino pang neutral creeps.. oops.. pangit na reference

balik training ulet.. at ngayong wala na sila Chols.. wala nang sisigaw samin pag nagkakamali kami.. pero feeling ko sisigawan kami nung Daniel na bago.. pero ewan.. masaya maglaro ng football.. lalo na pag nakaka-kill ako.. masaya mag-kill! lalo na kung sya lang yung babagsak.. pero ayos lang rin kung pareho kaming bumagsak.. basta't mauna akong makatayo eh..

anyway.. nahahalata ko lang ngayon sa mga linalagay ko eh ayaw ko ng kompetisyon.. thus mahina akong nilalang.. siguro ganun nga.. di ako pang-big wigs.. hanggang JRU lang ako.. pero ayos na yun.. mas gugustuhin ko ng madaling buhay keysa sa pahirapan.. sino ba naman kasi ang gusto na pinapahirapan ang sarili nya diba? let's keep it simple at tuhugin ang fishball gamit ang stick..

naiirita ako pag inaayos ang gamit ko.. kaya napaisip ako.. ang pagiging burara ba ay dahil sa katamaran ng tao or katulad lang ito ng pagiging masinop without keeping things in order.. kasi parang pag di inaayos mga gamit ko.. alam ko kung saan sya hahanapin eh.. pero pag inayos naman.. biglang magkakandawala-wala mga gamit ko! kaya siguro it's a choice talaga.. kung saan ka mas kumportable.. kaya dapat di iniimpose ang pagiging masinop sa mga gamit.. oo nga di maganda tingnan.. pero gugustuhin mo bang i-compensate ang comfort para lang sa kagandahan? tulad ngayon.. inayos ng katulong namin ang computer room.. at ngayon.. DI KO NA MAHANAP ANG MASTER DISC NG INDIE FILM NAMIN! PUTANG INANG YAN! ba't pa kasi pinapakielaman mga gamit eh.. may dahilan kung ba't ako burara sa computer room.. at di dahil yun sa katamaran..

masaya ang facebook.. di tulad ng MySpace at prenster.. di mo pwedeng i-customize ang look ng site mo.. which is a good thing I guess.. or maybe a refreshing thing.. kasi malamang sa malamang baka naiirita na kayo sa mga magulong layout ng profiles ng kaibigan mo.. buti pa facebook.. simple and clean.. although parang kino-contradict ko yung huling paragraph ko.. pero.. hmmmm.. teka.. ayun! dhe.. sa mga websites.. ayaw ko ng makalat! kasi mouse at keyboard lang ang ginagamit mo para makipag-interact sa mga on screen chuva.. eh sa totoong buhay.. may paa ka, ilong, tenga, mata, kamay, balat, buhok at kung anu-ano pang pwedeng maka-sense.. kaya you have flexibility in what you can do.. kaya mag-send na kayo ng friend invite sa facebook! dahil di ko yan i-aaccept...

Shaq-Fu!!!!!

akin na ang hotdog mo

balik football balik training...

training na ulet sa huwebes.. antagal ko nang di nagpapawis... at ako'y nanghihina na... pero kahit na ba.. malabo na kong lumakas kay coach.. parang tuwing nakikita nya ko.. lagi na lang mga pagkakamali ko ang natiyetiyempuhan nya.. pero ganyan talaga ang buhay.. swertehan lang...

alas siyete pa lang at inaantok na ko... di pa ko nagpapagupit... at di ko pa rin alam ang assignment... kung pwede lang magtime travel eh.. pupunta ako sa future.. sa thursday.. para wala na kaming presentation sa english at sa filipino... at may training na..

isa talaga akong irresponsableng bata.. ayaw harapin ang mga responsibilidad at walang kinabukasan..

mabuhay ang kabataang pinoy!

happy people

mahilig talaga ako kumain ng chicharong madumi...

may sinat ako ngayon... siguro sa kung anu-anong toxins na nahagilap ko sa kakatambay kila mami...

happy belated bertdey Jedrickson!

masayang unahin yung happy eh.. parang mas maganda pakinggan..

ansama ng pakiramdam ko ngayon... parang feeling ko may naiwan ako sa mga lugar na pinupuntahan ko.. tas meron pa nung feeling na... ano.. basta I feel agitated for reasons unknown.. feeling ko may kelangan akong gawin pero di ko alam kung ano yun.. siguro assignments.. siguro eto feeling ng pagiging lider ng grupo na may babae.. ewan.. ginawa akong lider nila Charm at Barbara dun sa grupo namin sa English at Math.. pero feeling ko baka di nila ako gagawing lider sa math.. di naman talaga ako magaling na lider pag may mga studyanteng middle range ang grades.. I work better pag puro bagsakan mga kasama ko.. kasi they will all listen to me.. or it challenges me to get them involved in the activity.. di naman ako yung tipong lider na di papansinin ang walang kwentang group member.. mas gusto ko pa ngang pagtrabahuhin yung member na yun eh.. atska ang isa pang maganda pag puro bagsakan ang mga grades ng mga members ko eh malaki ang takot nila.. since di naman ako babae o bading para gawin ang lahat sa isang project.. matatakot talaga sila...

love the kids...

mahirap maging di handa... andami kong di nadala ngayon sa klase.. at kelangan kong gamitin ang super duper resourcefulness skills ko.. tulad ng pag gamit ng bible na luma(courtesy of Cayetano Luis De Vera) as a dictionary.. or ang pag-gamit ng green filler at idahilan na kumupas na blue lang yun.. I soooooo love tricking people.. kaya beware.. I might be tricking you!

I feel bad about Jonas.. wala sya masyadong kasama ngayon.. parang last year lang para kaming magsyota eh.. pero tsk.. ngayon.. ni di nga nya kausap kapatid nya pag uwian eh.. boohoo.. I guess I have to make it up to him.. he's a good friend of mine.. and good friends must not be left behind... diba? diba? diba?

masaya mag lead ng morning prayer.. maaraw at magandang pampagising..

amen? amen!

gusto kong gumawa ng assignment pero di ko magawa

nasa diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa...

nakakatamad talagang gumawa ng mga assignments pag nasa bahay ka na.. or... nakakatamad lang talaga...

or... ewan.. kung magpapaassignment man sila gusto ko mag-aral lang tungkol sa isang topic o mag-dala ng isang pakete ng index card.. tulad ng ginawa nila ngayon.. tska problematic ang mga assignments na sasagutan.. kasi malay mo iba ang gumawa ng assignment na yun.. edi di rin sila natuto.. diba? buti pa si Jason Lorenzo eh.. ang assignment lang eh magaral tungkol sa topic bukas at magsosocratic method na lang sa kalahati ng duration ng klase.. it's so amazing

kulang ako sa tulog at mag aalas siyete na.. di pa ko nagpapagupit at wala akong planong magpagupit.. pero kelangan ko talagang malaman ang assignment ko...

isa akong dakilang tamad.. buti pa nga yung mga athletes eh.. kumokopya pa ng mga assignments sa iba.. dakila si Gerard Nick P. Chu

masaya ang di pagkokopya ng assignments.. dahil natre-train ako sa pageextract ng information... pero dahil wala na ko sa golden days ng YM nung online pa lahat ng mga 2-20 klasmeyts ko.. di ko na masyadong nahahasa ang mga mad skillz ko..

finally at natapos ko na rin ang Season 4 ng House.. too bad maghihintay pa ko hanggang September para mapanood ko ang Season 5.. sa lahat ng mga season finales ng House.. eto na siguro ang pinaka-gusto ko.. parang transition episode lang ang season finale ng 1st.. may kagandahan ang season finale ng 2nd na dinirect ni David Shore.. at di ganun ka-dramatic ang pag-alis ng staff ni House sa 3rd season.. nagustuhan ko talaga ang pagkakagawa ng huling dalawang episodes ng season 4.. sayang at kelangang mamatay ni Cutthroat Bitch sa huli.. dahil isa pa naman sya sa paborito kong characters.. mas gusto ko pang mawala si Kutner dahil ampangit nya.. at medyo kumorny ang role ni Thirteen.. or baka kasi kamuka nya yung Filipino titser ko dati? si Maribel Lim.. pero hanggang ngayon napapaisip ako sa relasyon ni Cutthroat Bitch at ni Wilson.. di ako naniniwala sa motives ni Cutthroat Bitch eh..pero whaddahey.. maganda yung season finale.. almost made me cry due to it's sheer beauty.. although nakakairita lang yung ibang parts na mukang siniksik lang.. tulad ng storya ni Kutner kay Thirteen tungkol sa buhay nya.. pero baka sa Season 5 magkaroon ng Indian patient si House at magkakaroon ng special scene si Kutner.. o baka magkakadebelopan na lang sila House at Cuddy sa Season 5 at yun na ang magiging katapusan ng series.. mukang nagbabadya na 'tong magpaalam eh.. kasi bumaba na yung viewership ng season 4.. pero siguro kasi konti lang yung mga naging episodes.. pero kahit na ba! kelangan magkaroon ng love life ulet si House at bumalik ang dati niyang team! or baka magkaroon na talaga ng malalang sakit si House at maging katapusan na ng mismong series.. wag naman sana.. gawin na lang nila yun sa Season 15..

when every title has to have the word "first day" in it

ayaw ko sanang gumawa ng blog entry tungkol sa pers day ko dahil it was very uneventful.. mas nagustuhan ko pa yung mga pers days ko nung pers to terd year ko sa Beda.

First Day...

iba ang pers day ko ng klase ngayon dahil alam ko na ang section na mapagbibilangan ko ngayong taon.. kaya di na ko masyadong umsitambay pa sa listahan ng mga klase. Unang kaklaseng nakita ko pagkababa ko ng kotse: si Nadia... dumami na pimples nya.. nakakagulat nga eh.. parang Rull na.. pero ganun talaga pag in lab.. or pag graduating na..

naiirita ako ngayon dahil namamaga ang dulong parte ng gums ko... anyway.. back to the story

siguro medyo na-preempt ko na yung section na mapaglalagyan ko...medyo nagbigay na ng mga omens si Ma'am Yabut eh.. sabi nya exposure na lang daw at kung anu-ano pang chechebureche.. at may mga nagulat rin sa naging section ko.. marami talaga ang umaasang magiging pre-law ako dahil "bagay" daw ako dun.. pero di naman talaga ako magaling sa ingles at sa pakikipag-argumento.. gago lang talaga ako.. pero masaya naman ako at di ako pre-law.. kasi ayaw ko ng Journalism.. pero sayang rin dahil di ko magiging kaklase ng apat na taon si Jersualem King Rull.. sa katunayan nga eh ako ang dahilan kung baket sya napunta sa pre-law eh.. at masaklap rin dahil never kong magiging kaklase si Bea, Cabs, Daniel, at Gesmund...

anyway.. 4-40 St. Bede Pre-Med.. adviser: Arlene Noble.. isang science titser pero di namin science titser.. napakagandang irony talaga.. pero scientific research teacher namin sya.. kaya makakapiling pa rin namin sya.. whooopeee... mukang magiging masaya itech..

karamihan ng mga kaklase ko ay dating 2-25.. kayo na bahala if it's a good thing or not.. pero I dunno.. naawa ako kay Mark Caronongan at kay Cesar Anthony Sollano.. di na lumipat ng room since sican yir..

ngayon pa lang eh nakakaramdam nako ng mga bad vibes sa populasyon ng kababaihan ng klasrum namin.. pero maybe it's just me..

ngayon eh putol putol ang mga paragraphs ko... masaya kasi pag ganun eh...

anyway.. si Jethro lang ata ang nakakatawa sa klasrum namin.. ako'y magpapakamatay kung tatanggalin sya sa klase! di maari!

ngayon pa lang eh.. gumagawa na ko ng prospective top 5 students ng klasrum.. at sila ay:
Top 1: Kenneth Francis Fernandez
Top 2: -wala-
Top 3: -wala-
Top 4: -wala-
Top 5: -wala-

nagulat ako nung nakita ko si Hendrixon Del Rosario sa Beda.. isang Atenista sa bundok ng San Beda.. my ged! pero nakakatuwa dahil pers year sya at puro totoy ang mga kasama nya.. at ang malupet.. aalis daw sya next year! eh maiintegrate pa naman din sya.. tsk tsk.. sana magagaling ang integrators nya.. it'd be alotta fun!

kung ikaw si Hennessy Del Rosario at nabasa mo ito.. :D hello.. your little brother is in good hands.. trust moi ;)

anywaaaay.. basura ang Beda.. sa tingin ko eh binago ang curriculum para tumaas ang revenues nila.. naniniwala ako na sa kahit anong bago nila sa curriculum nila eh di pa rin matututo ang mga studyante kung di ma-eexecute ng mabuti ang pagtuturo sa kanila.. anlakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ng kikitain ng Beda sa ganitong Modus Operandi.. pero kaya natanggal ang Philosophy Department ng Beda Mendiola.. dahil sa ginagawa ko ngayon.. kaya para di ako ang sunod na matanggal ng mga dakilang pari ng San Beda.. ay tatahimik na lang po ako...

buksan ang mata at isara ang wallet!

biodegradable art

I've always been a fan of graphing paper and math notebooks..

I magically drew this thing during a physics class in one of those review centers.. yeahp..

although it would be very misleading if I call them art.. but let's just leave it that way and everybody will be happy

I don't have the luxury of using a scanner to upload these things.. so I had to take a picture of them using an aging digital camera.. poor me

yeah yeah yeahs

yeah.. I get attracted as well.. it's pretty much normal for kids with raging hormones like me.. but yeah... sometimes I wear black things too much... the only white thing that I seem to religiously wear are my briefs and that.... in a way.. sucks.. but whaddahey..

yeah.. she reminds me of The Yeah Yeah Yeahs' Karen O.. well.. she kinda look like her.. although she's not as artistically inclined as her.. but ergh.. who cares anyway... Karen O is pretty I guess..

and I hate it when I start to think about her.. it's cheesy and all.. y'know.. it disgusts me..

and right now.. I pretty much wanna puke on this entry...

screw you

Tayo'y Magsuka at Tumili sa Star City

Re: DUGONG PINOY

tama...

tska parang may konting mimicry ng kulturang pinoy yung lahi nila eh.. parang without the other lahi's blood in their veins di rin sila malalagay sa sitwasyong yan..kumbaga, ang winning ingredient nila ay ang dugong banyaga.. o baka nga burden pa yung dugong pinoy eh.. pero I dunno.. whatever

as of the moment ang mga pure pinoy na nagkaroon ng international stardom ay si Manny Pacquiao.. at least boxing mas broad yung audience nya.. at nalalagay pa sya sa mga video games! eh si Lea Salonga tska yung bata na lumabas sa show ni Ellen DeGeneres.. di naman masyadong mag-aappeal sa kabataan dahil sa genre ng music nila.. pero who cares... marami pa rin namang mga pinoy na gusto maging amerikano eh..

suko na ko sa kakasudoku

well... not really.. at parang ayaw ko mag-tagalog sa entry na 'to kasi tungkol lang naman sa aking 'tong entry na 'to kaya there isn't any need to utilize the beauty of the Philippine language...

yes.. I believe that it's a beautiful language.. well erm.. I don't find the old skool Tagalog(see Florante at Laura) appealing.. the contemporary Flipino language(see Pinoy Slang) is so beautiful that you can't translate it properly in english(see German)

whatever...

people are posers... it's a known fact that we all do certain things to get the approval of the people around us.. of course we all live on the approval of others.. because we are social beings.. social beings depend on others.. and yeah.. that's pretty much it.. something random and politically incorrect.. poser really isn't the term..

MY CURRENT ADDICTION: DRUGS

nah.. I was just kidding.. current addiction? sudoku puzzles.. yeah..I'm done with six or seven sudoku puzzels on a 15 peso cheapo magazine... but still.. I got my bang for the buck.. sudoku in any form is fun.. may it be 4x4, 6x6, 9x9, with special stipulations and stuff.. yeah.. although my brain isn't really designed for tasks that require logic.. I'm actually doing good.. you guys can prolly notice in my blog entries that I tend to be emotional with things and you can't be logical and at the same time emotional when you're making an argument.. your brain has to favor something over the other.. or maybe I'm wrong.. I'm usually wrong.. I guess I'm the only guy who thinks that I'm right with these things..

yeah sure.. because if I knew that I was wrong then why would I put it here in the first place? whatever

although it's not always the situation.. I deliberately say something wrong or outrageous(although almost everything I say is outrageous) to test the one I'm talking to.. if he would take me seriously or not.. because if he did.. then he doesn't know me that much.. although usually do this in conversations because I can't really test you here because I'm pretty sure that you won't really comment on this.. and this method requires a whatchamacallit...

did I waste your time again? maybe yes maybe no.. who knows? gotta go..

screw zealous environmentalists

Insider Chika part 2

kakagaling ko lang sa Beda para ipasa ang Form 2 ng UPCAT application chuva ko.. ansaklap nga eh.. kasi di ako nakapag-dala ng 2x2 photo.. bumalik pa tuloy ako sa bahay.. pero nakapag-pasa pa naman ako kahit papaano... magaling ako eh

too bad wala akong nakuhang impormasyon tungkol sa mga magiging sections... pero at least may nakuha pa naman akong impormasyon ukol sa mga magiging guro natin..

mawawala na sina:
Jason Lorenzo - the greatest history teacher evah
Virginia Elemento - the greatest english teacher evah
Januel Magtibay
at yun lang ang naalala ko...

pero do not fret my pet! dahil may sampung bagong titsers.. puro nag-MA daw ang mga bagong titsers.. andami daw nawala sa english department at halos wala daw nawala sa math department...

at sa mga katulad kong portyer students.. sineswerte tayo dahil lahat ng magiging adviser ng portyer sections ay mga beterano.. dun sa mga gusto maging adviser ulit si Benjamin Sonajo.. nandyan sya! rejoice! pero personally ayaw ko siguro maging adviser yun.. mahirap takasan sa mga bayarin yun eh... ako pa naman yung tipong tao na mahilig maglaro ng waiting game sa mga bayarin sa iskwela...

sa mga dating naging estudyante ni Yollanda Hernandez.. rejoice! dahil nag-improve na ang english nya!

at sa mga naawa kay Benjamin Ines.. ito na ang pinakahuling taon nyo para mag-sorry! wahaha.. or kung wala kayong paki.. edi.. wala..

and ang mga stuff na di naman importante:
- english coordinator na si Arlene Coronado
- umitim na si Cecille Dominguez
- bago na ang hairstyle ni Joan Margaret Manda
- mababawasan ng yosi pal si Rogelio Baguinoon..

crooked teeth

yeah... pretty much one of the saddest realities that I have to live with.. or not.. cause y'got the magic of braces already.. and it seems like a bloody fad.. but nah... I'd rather have my complete set of ugly teeth than nicely aligned bad boys.. I'm really not a big fan of smiling.. soooo what's the point of having a nice set of teeth if you won't really show it off? but yeah.. it's the 'in' thing.. I should jump in..

well.. I'm back.. after two days of entry-less days.. I wasn't able to bombard you with senseless ramblings for a few days because I got sad... cause only one guy read my last blog entry.. and it's kinda discouraging.. c'mon guys.. just let it pass the two viewership mark! please? although I shouldn't really be doing this because page views lose value when they are imposed upon unwilling subjects.. but you still have a little thing called free will.. that's a bitch... for me I guess

I've switched World of Warcraft servers.. I switched to Burning WoW.. because Toxic WoW has this uber major bug on the revive lady and the profession trainers.. it's pretty much fucked up there.. I can't continue with other quests and stuff.. well generally private servers tend to be buggy.. but at least it's free.. you can't really complain about that because you're not doing them a favor...

I guess I'm not really doing a seamless transition from paragraph to paragraph ain't I?
but who cares... this isn't really a significant piece of... webspace? yeah.. webspace..

well.. ummm.. I wish I knew how to edit photos.. well.. not that I couldn't.. but I'm actually able to edit some photos but only up to a certain extent that wouldn't really achieve any artistic merit... you can see from my photos that my shots don't really look professional.. but yeah.. as much as possible I want them to look newspaper worthy.. unfortunately, I end up with forgetable cheap looking photos... but yeah.. who cares anyway? we have the rich kids who can afford high end cameras to do all the artsy fartsy stuff.. although photography isn't really considered an artform here in the Philippines... Willie Revillame's Sayaw Darling! now that is art...

I totally want a Playstation 3.. it's pretty much the losing system on the current console wars..but yeah.. I'd rather have a console that won't die on me in the long run... cause the Xbox 360 has this red ring of death.. but the 360 is a great machine but we're in the Philippines.. Microsoft doesn't support the 360 here.. therefore, you won't get the 3 year replacement warranty for the red ring.. but I'm not really a fan of first person shooters as well.. aaaaaaand the Wii should be removed out of the list because it isn't really a gaming device that would blow me away with stellar graphics... and I've never had a 6th generation(PS2, Xbox, Gamecube) console.. poor me.. yeah.. and the Wii has a nice user friendly controls.. but c'mon I want to play the game all by myself.. or with a player or two.. and the Wii is too much of a non-gamer magnet.. I guess all I'm left with a system that doesn't have great games as of the moment.. the Wii has Mario.. the 360 has Halo, Mass Effect, Gears of War.. and the PS3 has Metal Gear(which I haven't played), Tekken, Gran Turismo, Final Fantasy(which I kinda hated for deviating from it's classic battle system), and God of War(also I haven't played yet)... I'm a kid from the PSone era.. I enjoyed games such as Crash Bandicoot, Spyro, Tekken 3.. I wish developers could make more platform games such as Rachet and Clank.. they're all hooked up on making FPS and overly sophisticated RPGs.. c'mon! let the 360 do the FPS and let the Wii do the simple "even-grandma-can-play" games.. and let the PS3 do what it's supposed to do.. which is vast environments and extremely advanced calculations and stuff..

oh would you look at the time.. I've wasted your time long enough...

dirty reflection

tulang pang almusal

nakakainspire talaga ang mga bagay na di mo madalas gawin... tulad ng almusal, ang pag gising ng maaga at ang pagbabasa ng lumang dyaryo.. kaya nakapagisip ako ng tula.. tungkol sa nararamdaman ko ngayon.. pa-drama epek pa eh..

Tae
isa nanamang tula ni Kenneth Fernandez

May pulubi, sumakit ang tiyan
pumunta sa isang tabi
umupo..
nagbawas..

May magsasaka, sumakit ang sikmura
nagtago sa mga talahib
umupo..
nagbawas..

May studyante, sumakit ang tiyan
nagmadaling pumasok cubicle
umupo..
nagbawas..

May sosyalera, nanakit ang sikmura
dali-daling hinanap ang kanyang porselanang trono
umupo..
nagbawas..

May babae, sumakit ang kalamnan
pumunta sa Malacañang
umupo..
walang ginawa..

Bakit sila umupo?
dahil lahat tayo...
mahirap o mayaman
bata o matanda
ay may dalang tae sa katawan

I soooooooo love how my mind can instantly make bullshit like these..

fork spring

after playing two hours of World of Warcraft on Toxic WoW.. I just realized how shitty my last entry was.. yeah.. it's bloody long but c'mon.. even I wanted to take a piss on a printed copy of that thing.. but yeah.. I tend to hate my products..

this is actually the real blog entry for the 30th of May but I got carried away with atheistic bitchslapping.. sooo yeah..

taking french lessons on Rosetta Stone made me realize how gay the French language sounds like.. because almost every word of the language has nasal vowels or whatchamacallit.. but yeah.. I don't think French really is for me.. because when French people talk they sound classy and all.. and I hate sounding like some cultured kid or something.. I guess I'll stop with the french lessons and shift to german lessons.. and german language is pretty much the best language for my semi-bass voice.. but the problem with the german language is their sentence construction that's quite difficult to understand.. because sometimes the verb is at the end of the sentence.. and german sentences tend to be long.. like a half a page or so.. sooooo yeah.. try reading one half of a pocket book's page without any pauses.. that'd kick ass..

I'm going back to UP this tuesday or so.. I feel like going back to the forest in the middle of the city.. it's a nice place for environmentalists to stay...

watch out for the next episode of bitchslapping with kenneth! our next victims: environmentalists

never really believed in them

Disclaimer: this is a bloody long post.. do not read if your attention span is as short as a 5 year old

yeah.. true.. I've always been against everything.. before I was against religion.. and now I'm against the people who are against religion but not necessarily with it.. I find it shitty when people look for logical explanations for religion.. but yeah.. I used to look for logical explanation of god and shit.. but that was when I was still immature.. like 1st year high school.. and yeah.. let's enumerate those who at a certain point in their lifetime stopped believing in religion..

Person A: The "I don't believe in God because there is no concrete proof about his existence" Guy
yeah.. that used to be me.. but I realized that c'mon.. why do you need a proof about his existence? I mean yeah.. sure you can live your whole life looking for his existence.. but c'mon what if you wouldn't able to prove his existence? and you've spent a great amount of time on looking for him.. wouldn't that make you a more miserable chap? you're already miserable because you're looking for his existence.. that has always been the case.. like have you seen a normal jolly person looking for the existence of god? c'mon.. those who look for the existence of god are those who have tons of questions, who are smart and who have a lot of time in their hands. I've always believed in the saying that "ignorance is bliss".. the more you don't know.. the less complex life is..

Person B: The "I don't believe in God because if God existed then why would he let us suffer?" Guy
Ignorance may be bliss but sometimes when things get overboard it tends to get ugly.. like this poor little chap here.. he's blaming god for the suffering that he's experiencing.. okay.. c'mon.. kids like these don't really read the bible much.. maybe he doesn't know the story of Noah's Ark or other bad guys suffering story in the Bible.. I'm not really a Bible buff.. I haven't even read the whole book.. but yeah.. sometimes people suffer because they've been naughty(and sometimes they get rewarded oooh).. equilibrium must be maintained.. like c'mon why expect something if you haven't put enough effort to derserve it? but yeah.. how about the kids who're doing well.. goes to church on sunday but still their mom dies because of some wacko shot your mum in a bank robbery.. cute argument but not really something that would win me over in the whole 'god doesn't exist' thing.. like c'mon.. can you please raise your hand? thanks.. and if you didn't raise your hand chances are that free will does exist.. and if you have free will.. the wacko who shot your mum most probably had free will too.. we are free to do what we want! the only limitation is ourselves.. laws don't really limit what people can do.. what laws really do is to make people put limitations on themselves.. hell.. I can kill one of my teachers if murder wasn't against the law.. but yeah.. laws usually makes sense..

Person C: The "I don't give a fuck" Guy
people who don't care.. the apathists(what a fucked up term).. but yeah.. I don't have any arguments to bombard their kind with.. I think they're not as bad as the Person A and B.. because out of the three stereotypes.. Person C is the happiest.. because Person A would be too preoccupied in looking for a logical explanation on God's existence and Person B would most proably be angry as hell.. Person C would most probably be the guy sitting infront of their PC playing World of Warcraft or something.. yeah.. people like these live like theists.. but they don't spend an hour or so of their sunday in church.. and they don't have over the top extravagant weddings because they can only do a civil wedding.. but yeah.. the only problem is.. well.. they don't care.. and when people don't care it's sorta like a waste of good human resouce.. but who knows? maybe they doing their part?

I used to be Person A and C.. so don't flame me for not including Person D or something because these are all based on personal experiences and realizations and shit.. I used to look for the existence of god.. but I gave it all up after realizing that I can't really prove it.. wise men have tried for hundreds of years but still they're unable to prove his existence.. and what difference does it make? I'm pretty sure that they're waaaaaay smarter than I am.. so why prove something that even greater men weren't able to prove? but yeah.. I don't give a fuck about religion anymore.. believe what you want to believe.. I think religion and it's communities are a great bunch.. they help people, they sorta make a mini utopia.. but I don't feel like being a part of them.. and to quote Bjork "I thrive best hermit style".. but nope.. I'm not an atheist.. you can probably put me in the agnostic spectrum.. but I'm quite convinced that there might be a greater entity than us.. maybe you can call me a religious eclecticist.. because I take different beliefs from different religions and I follow them.. like I get the essence of Buddhism's Four Noble Truths and apply it to my life in a way.. or I'll get LaVeyan Satanism's Eleven Satanic Rules of the Earth.. yeah.. I believe that LaVeyan Satanism is a great bunch.. not to be confused with Theistic Satanism they[LaVeyan Satanists] do not worship Satan.. but they just use Satan as a symbol of people's inner desires..

yeah.. this is a world record breaking feat

love it long and huge

try to understand that mayonaise

most of my downloads for the past few days have been past the 1 gigabyte mark.. I've downloaded Kill Bill Vol 2, World of Warcraft, SimCity 4 deluxe edition.. and now I'm currently downloading Rosetta Stone with all of the lessons.. yeah.. I'm cool.. I study things that I won't probably use in the near future...

warcraft update.. WoW is a disappointment.. I was expecting Durotar to replicate the Durotar in Warcraft 3.. and I was also expecting that there'll be an Echo Isles.. but yeah.. there wasn't any.. nevertheless the game is still playable.. too bad that the server that I played in was quite lonely.. I like saw only 6 players at the 8 hours that I've been playing.. so that's like 3 people in every 4 hours.. although that isn't really the exact value.. but yeah.. close enough

I'm getting fat.. and bea wasn't able to give me any weight loss tips or something...

werld of warcrapt

the screen is a watchdog

I am still bloody addicted to warcraft.. yeah.. kung kelan patapos na ang bakasyon... sabi ni Dexterlicious na 500 per month ang legit WoW dito sa pinas.. ayos lang.. considering na maganda daw sya.. soooo parang mag-se-save ako ng 25 sa daily baon ko para makapag-laro sa isang buwan.. I'd say it's a good deal..

warcraft download update as of 2100 hours:
3.52GB of 4.55GB 77.4%
average download speed - 49.7kB/s
average upload speed - 8.8kB/s

wala lang.. if you love reading statistical information.. I know I do.. mahilig ako sa SimCity 4 eh..

para dun sa mga gustong malaman kung saan ako maglalaro ng World of Warcraft.. sa Toxic WoW ako or sa Burning WoW.. may account na ko sa Toxic WoW..

I have bathed for like days now.. and I don't smell

Warcraft! Word of Warcraft!

currently downloading: World of Warcraft

tama sila... nakakaadik ang warcraft.. pero di ko pa nalalaro ang World of Warcraft hanggang sa Warcraft III: Frozen Throne lang ako.. at di ako nag-do-dota ha.. yung bonus campaign ni Rexxar yung linalaro ko.. di ko kayang tagalan ang dota eh.. dalawang laro tops ang kaya ko with AI.. di ko pa nasusubukan ang online multiplayer aspect ng dota sa mga strangers at batang kanto.. noob ako sa dota eh.. ayaw ko naman sirain ang gaming experience nila.. at mas gusto ko yung larong may istoryang sinusundan.. di ganun ka-ganda ang storya ng dota eh.. atska isa ang dota sa mga sports-like games na di ko talaga kayang tagalan.. parang basketball.. di ko rin kaya tagalan ang basketball.. kaya lang naman ako nanonood ng basketball games ng beda ay dahil sa mga manonood eh.. pag nagcheecheer sila, nagaasaran sila.. basta.. tanggalin mo ang crowd sa isang basketball game.. aalis ako.. pero kahit may crowd man ang dota games.. di rin siguro ako tatagal.. kasi ang basketball madaling pumunto eh.. eh dota parang football na mas mabagal umiskor.. unless player kills ang paguusapan..

di talaga ako nilalang ng isports.. siguro kung may hilig man akong mga sports.. konti lang.. at di pa yung gusto ng marami sa pilipinas.. tulad ng football, austrailian football, at F1 Racing.. yung tatlo lang yun ang natatagalan ko pag nanonood ako sa TV.. ang ewan nga pag nanonood ako ng F1 racing eh.. parang ang-monotonous nya.. parang wala masyadong nangyayaring aksyon.. lalo na pag umuulan at may kelangang sundan na safety car.. parang nanonood ka ng isang parada ng mga hi tech na kotse na tila ba walang katapusan! pero it's friggin' entrhalling.. as in parang mapapatitig ka na lang sa screen at makakalimutan mo ang lahat.. parang droga.. haha..

di ako makapag-isip ng mabuti.. actually nag-break lang ako kasi na-awa ako sa sarili ko kasi I've been playing warcraft for like 12 hours or so... it's pretty fucked up.. pero di 12 hours straight akong naglalaro ng warcraft ha.. syempre kelangan kong jumingle, kumuha ng tsokolate at kunin ang telepono nung tumawag si daniel..

atska nanood rin ako ng pelikula nung mga ala una.. isang lumang japanese film galing 1973.. Sex & Fury.. dinownload ko lang sya out of curiosity.. kasi may references daw ang Kill Bill ni Quentin Tarantino dun.. at nakakatuwa rin kasi yung mga ganung klaseng pelikula.. pero oy! di sya porno na parang nasa celpon ng mga pubescent boys.. wala syang frontal nudity.. at comedy sya.. parang kahit anong circumstance ginagawa na lang na opportuinity na makipag-talik.. panoorin nyo! comedy sya!

go gamertag: dick gaywood!

Biyahe tayo sa bundok ng Acoje!

halos wala akong letrato sa bundok... madali kasing maubos battery pag nasa mataas na altitude daw eh.. tsk

a day without a blog entry is a day well spent

or I dunno.. maybe it's the other way around..

I just can't let the day pass by without me doing any blog entries or so.. but yeah..

since this is pretty much a quasi-madatory-ish entry.. don't expect any worthwhile content.. or I dunno.. reading blogs, for me, isn't really a worthwhile thing to begin with.. and if karma really is true then that explains why I'm not getting any traffic in my blog..

I started eating meat today.. dinner was like all meat or something.. and I haven't eaten anything today.. I was totally left with no other choice.. but yeah.. I never really gave a damn about animals being used as food.. but insert the name of the profession that study human remains here -ists say that our jaws or teeth aren't really designed for eating meat.. they're like saying that humans are herbivorous by nature.. but yeah.. McDonald's doesn't give a fuck..

I wanna do a short film again.. my photographs aren't really appreciated that much.. I can't upload my paintings and whatnots since we don't have a scanner.. and I can't record songs since I don't have the right program to edit songs on the PC... simply put, I blame my lack of ingeniuety...

yeah.. just got hold of some NEU! songs.. and they're pretty much the Mogwai of the 70s.. and their songs make a good soundtrack for my short films.. hmmmmmm.. if only I had actors.. yeah.. I have a camera, I have tons of ideas.. but I don't have kids who will stand infront of the camera lens to be my slave..

I'm not really asking for some help here.. but help is extremely appreciated.. but if you're willing to help, you have to be damn sure that you won't chicken out in the middle of things.. that's pretty unethical and unprofessional.. but yeah.. I won't pay you.. you're pretty much free to do that...

heat marshmallows die

kaibigan, ako'y isang vegan part 2

day three... part two... meal number one

mas nagmumukang abstinence 'tong ginagawa ko keysa pagiging vegan talaga... halos dalawang beses na lang ako kumakain sa isang araw.. kahapon dinner lang kinain ko.. spaghetti at tomato sauce.. walang ground beef o cheese.. pero ayos lang.. nagdadagdag naman ng flavor ang tomato..

tas ngayon kakakain ko lang ng first meal of the day ko.. sabaw ng chicken na may pineapple at yung pineapples.. may linabag ba kong batas? kasi alam ko may chicken cubes yun eh.. pero ayun..

masaya ako ngayon.. nakapanood ako ng dalawang magagandang pelikula.. ang Mind Game ni Masaaki Yuasa at ang Requiem For A Dream ni Darren Aronofsky.. well.. di naman talaga ako masaya.. pero kahit papaano eh it made my day.. at maganda talaga yung dalawang films.. pero iba yung appeal ng isa sa isa.. yung Mind Game kasi parang self help book.. tas yung Requiem For A Dream parang biography ng mga adik.. hanep naman yung dalawa.. Mind Game reminded me that should seize the day.. and Requiem For A Dream taught me that I should stay away from the happy pills.. I guess it sorta changed me....... a bit....... temporarily........ yeah..

parehong magandang films for those who appreciate non-mainstream films.. if you want a happy and uplifting film.. watch Mind Game.. pero if you feed on the depression of others.. watch Requiem For A Dream..

pano nyo mapapanood? kung DSL connection kayo at may BitTorrent kayo.. punta lang kayo sa www.piratebay.org

mag-download na kayo ng lahat wag lang produktong pinoy.. ie pinoy films, pinoy songs... pano tayo aasenso nyan kung pati kapwa natin ninanakawan?

hindi masakit ulo mo... daliri mo lang yan

Mind Game

Rating:	★★★★★
Category:	Movies
Genre:	Animation

para saken.. mahirap gumawa ng review ng isang film na maganda..

bakit?

well... usually kasi good films leave me speechless.. good films leave me in awe.. good films tend to put my life in a meaningless state..

after watching a good film like Cidade De Deus... I start to wonder.. now that I have seen one of the greatest films ever made, is there anything I should look forward to? it's like the feeling after reaching the top.. after doing it all.. you'll be left with nothing better to do.. that's what I hate about good films..

pero iba ang Mind Game.. it manages to leave me in awe but it wasn't able to get rid of meaning in my life.. it actually gave meaning to an otherwise meaningless existence..

the film itself isn't really for those who cannot appreciate surreal and absurd art.. the film is full of absurdity and surreality from start to finish.. but the director manages to create a strangely beautiful work of art..

it doesn't really have a serious tone.. it's actually funny but it has this punk tone that men would most probably enjoy.. and it also contained some humorous references to football.. a plus for footie fans everywhere..

but the film really is for the sensitive and weak kid who can't approach the man or lady she/he fancies.. or for just the sensitive or weak kid who seemed to have lost all hope...

it's a very inspiring story for everyone.. it's a carpe deim story pulled off in a geeky punk fashion..

I advise you to download this film if you have a hi-speed internet connection, a bit torrent client, and a great deal of patience: http://thepiratebay.org/tor/3323052/Mind_Game_%5BJapan_2004%5D

there is nothing better than being appreciated for an artist...

Re: Syota.. (Oh so Lucky)

message lang nga...

pero daig pa rin kita kasi mas marami akong contacts tas di lumalampas ng lima ang nag-vie-view ng mga ginagawa ko...

ikaw may charley ka at di mo na kelangan ng blag.. ako wala talaga..

pero andyan pa naman ang prenster... kahit papaano eh buhay pa yan..

yehey

that's my purpose matt.. I make fantasies come true.. haha.. wag ka na maingay.. baka mahuli ako ni kapatid.. ;)

indiefilmmaking

nakakamiss talaga ang mga gabi ng pagpupuyat dahil sa walang kwentang PC na crash ng crash sa kakaedit... kung meron lang akong pwedeng gawing artista eh.. handa ang camera ko, bibig ko at ang utak ko... sayang di ako makapag-upload ng indie film ko dito sa Multiply.. kasi 10 minutes lang ang limit.. eh mga 11 ata o 12 yung sa amin.. at ang masaklap pa dun, nawala yung master copy! binigay ata ni ma'am dominguez kay ramon batista yung master copy..

langya..

pero walang kwenta rin naman mga digital films ko eh.. or.. baka ako lang yun.. pero kahit na.. kahit ako nandidiri sa mga ginagawa ko sa mga videos ko.. pero kelangan nyo talaga mapanood yung mga videos ko! they're the most culturally significant videos evaaaaaaaaaaah!

linalamok ako sa kwarto ko ngayon kaya iinterbyuhin ko sarili ko tungkol sa pag gawa ko ng mga basurang pelikula..

Q: Mr. Fernandez, sino po ba ang naging dahilan kung bakit ka nahilig sa pag-gawa ng pelikula?
A: well.. simple lang yan.. ang talagang nag-udyok saken na gumawa ng mga pelikula ay si Ma'am Joan Margaret Manda.. ma'am! alam kong galit pa kayo saken pero pag tatanggap ako ng award pangalan mo ang isisigaw ko!

Q: at bakit naman po Mr Fernandez?
A: well.. kasi.. simple lang yan.. nung sican yir kasi ako.. may proyekto kami na cooking video.. digital camera pa gamit ko nun.. yung canon ixus 55.. tapos nung nag-simula na kong mag-edit sa Movie Maker.. I suddenly fell in love with the art...

Q: galing ha..
A: oo nga eh..

Q: ah eh.. how about your influences?
A: well.. my influences? well.. ummm.. I'm influenced by.. ummm.. photography! yeah yeah.. kasi nauna akong nahilig sa potograpiya.. kaya kadalasan mga shots ko puro mga still shots very evident naman yun sa cinematography ng mga pelikula ko.. kung napanood mo na.. pero kung mga direktor ang pag-uusapan.. influences ko would include: Michel Gondry and Quentin Tarantino..

Q: ano paborito mong kainin sa proeso ng pag-gawa ng pelikula?
A: well.. simple lang yan.. pag shooshoot.. paborito ko yung voice combo sandwich.. tas pagkatapos mag-shoot.. yung chicken o pork chop na maraming mang tomas.. tapos pag post-production.. mahilig ako kumain ng lucky me instant pancit canton..

Q: mukang pang-elite yung hilig nyong pagkain ha..
A: kaya nga eh..

Q: kung bibigyan kayo ng isang pagkakataong gumawa ng music video, kanino kayo makikipag-collaborate?
A: well.. simple lang yan.. gusto ko gawan ng video si Tropical Hut.. gagawa ako ng music video commercial!

Q: balita ko masarap spaghetti dun eh
A: kaya nga eh..

Q: kung magpapaturo ka sa isang tao sa film industry.. kanino ka magpapaturo at bakit?
A: well.. simple lang yan.. gusto ko magpaturo kay.. shet mahirap pala.. either si Quentin Tarantino at sa non-linear storylines nya o si Takeshi Kitano at sa mga fast paced action sequences nya

Q: bakit Purpleink Films ang pinangalan mo sa production line mo ng mga pelikula?
A: kasi yung bolpen ko purple..

Q: salamat sa pagsagot ng mga katanungan ko..
A: di yan tanong.. pero nasa 'Q'.. kanina ka pa ganyan eh..

hunger strike tayo mayang hapon

kaibigan ako'y isang vegan! part 1

day one... yesssssssssss.. it's pretty much torturous.. pero abrupt naman kasi yung transition ko from a non-vegan diet to a vegan diet..

breakfast...
I promised myself that I'd be eating some oat bran without any dairy milk.. and it's hell people.. hell.. buti't may pineapple juice pa kami sa fridge.. and buti't baliw ako at hinalo ko ang oat bran at pineapple juice.. at least nagkaroon ng flavor.. gawd...

lunch..
hotdog ang hinanda.. at bacon.. bloody hell! ba't ngayon lang kami nagkaroon ng bacon kung kelan ako nagpaka-vegan?! pero baka it's just a test.. pero I shall prevail! kaya rice at ketchup lang yung kinain ko nung lunch.. poor me...

miryenda..
buti't walang animal products sa Presto Creams.. yun lang kinain ko ngayon eh.. I feel like taking a dump

dinner..
hindi ko alam kung may makakain pa ko.. ay! oo.. pwede pa pala ako gumawa ng salad.. pero gawd.. bawal ako sa meat.. can you imagine a cesar salad na walang bacon bits?!?! T_T

ayos lang... anything for health naman diba?

it's starting to feel like sunday again

it pretty much sucks... I'm assuming na alam nyo na yung 'sunday feeling'.. yung feeling of apprehension pag sunday and alam mong may pasok nanaman bukas.. or maybe it's just me..

whatever

life gets boring when your days get monotonous.. at para di ako ma-bore sa remaining weeks ng summer ko.. napagisipan ko na maging vegan for a week!

it occurred to me habang nag-gro-grocery kami at nasa produce section kami.. kaya kumuha ako ng mga ready made salad ng Dizon Farms, oatmeal, whole wheat bread, and leafy green vegetables enough hanggang wednesday.. dahil madaling masira ang mga ganung klaseng pagkain...pero ayun.. tingnan natin kung kakayanin ko ang pagiging vegan.

kaya mamaya maglalast supper ako na puro karne kakainin ko!

sino kaya asawa ni mother nature?

love kills

I'm feeling enlightened tonight.. kahit wala namang nangyari saken... natulog lang ako..

kulang talaga ako sa tulog ngayong linggo eh.. tulog ako ng alas dos o ala una tas magigising ako ng alas nuebe o alas otso.. ay.. 8 hours nga pala yun 'no.. pero kahit na! kelangan ko ng sampung oras na tulog para mag-function properly.. kasi nga.. ang mga malalaking sasakyan ay nangangailangan ng maraming gasolina..

anyway.. isang malaking cliché ang idea that love kills.. andami nang na-brokenhearted at nagpakamatay dahil sa boypren at gelpren nila.. kanina lang sinabihan ako ng mami ko na nagpakamatay yung isang empleyado ng JRU kasi nakipag-break sa kanya gelpren nya.. tas banat naman ni Matt D/kuya Chebong "buti pa si Kenneth.. walang gelpren".. tawa naman sila.. kaya naalala ko yung isang study tungkol sa effects ng sex hormones ng opposite sex sa mga receptos ng lab rats.. feeling ko nalabuan kayo dun.. pero whaddahey!

sabi nga dun sa study na nung linagyan ng estrogen ang isang male lab rat.. it experienced clinical depression.. tapos nung linagyan ng testosterone yung female lab rat.. na-depress rin ata.. ewan.. basta depression yung epekto! ganun talaga siguro epekto ng intimate attraction towards the opposite sex.. madedepress ka.. kasi sabi nga nila bumababa ang serotonin ng taong in love pag di nila nakakasama ang iniirog nila.. at pag in love ang tao.. nagkaka-estrogen ang mga lalaki.. kaya they spend time with the opposite sex more.. and ang nagkakatestosterone ang mga babae.. kaya they wanna do the jiggy more! haha.. lesson learned: pag horny ang babae... at hinde sya balbon.. in lab yun! wahaha.. ewan.. isang gagong theory lang yun.. kung gusto nyo.. subukan nyo yung experiment na yun.. pero di ko lang alam kung may standardized test that measures one's sexual desire.. isa sa mga sagabal yun..

san na nga ba ako? ay.. ayun.. sa tingin ko kaya na-depress yung mga lab rats kasi they were forced to love pero wala silang mamahalin! diba? or maybe it's just me imagining things again.. pero di nga.. think about it.. pag hinde nakakasama ng taong in love ang one and only nila.. nalulungkot sila! ewan... kaya siguro baka mag-neuropsychology ako pag magdodoktor ako.. I wanna study the scientific basis of love.. wahaha.. ayos lang kahit manatiling single ako sa pagaaral.. at least makakatulong ako sa nakararaming teenagers ng buong mundo!

haha.. di niyo ko kilala! gustong gusto kong tumulong sa mga tao 'no.. kala nyo gago lang ako na walang magawa sa buhay kundi mang-kritiko ng mga patalastas sa TV.. pero sino bang nagsabi na you can't be both?

whatever...

ang bibig ay pinangsasalita! hindi pinangsusubo!

bata bata pano ka ginawa

kelangan nanamang mag-travel ngayon... babalik sa probinsya para pumunta sa kasal.. langyang mga tao kasi yan eh.. ako pa piniling groom's man.. eh di ko naman kilala yung groom.. at di hamak na mas matangkad ako dun sa groom.. mas magiging prominenteng figure ako dun! bwahaha.. pero wala pa kong proper marriage regalia.. meron lang ako leather shoes ko last year.. di pa ko nakakabili ng sapatos ko.. pasukan na pala..

gusto ko na nang mag-pasukan agad eh.. as in sa lunes! gusto ko papasok na ko sa beda.. para matapos na yung lahat.. pahihirapan lang nanaman kami eh.. tapos may thesis na.. langyang yan.. pero ayos lang.. I like making arguments.. pero putcha.. ba't kelangan pa lagyan ng abstract achuchchu at kung anu-ano pang nagpapakomplikado ng isang simpleng argument.. pero siguro it's a scholastic way of presenting arguments.. or baka mahilig lang talaga ako mag-oppose sa mga kinauukulan?

well.. naging habit ko na siguro ang pag-contradict sa lahat ng bagay.. although minsan nagiging tolerable naman ako o hinde ko pinapakita na gusto kong i-contradict ang isang bagay.. minsan mabait ako.. pero pag kagaguhan na yung mga arguments ng iba.. dun na ko nagsisimulang gumawa ng antithesis.. tulad ng pag-babawal ng Rubik's Cube sa iskwelahan.. isang malaking kagaguhan ito! hindi siguro alam ng nagsabi na bawal ang Rubik's Cube na matututo sa mga logarithm(na hindi tinuturo ng iskwelahan) at algebraic achuchuchu ang mga studyante dahil dito... natretrain ang visualization and memory skills nila kung minememorize lang nila yung mga steps.. pero c'mon! porque nahuhuli sa mga klasrum ang rubik's cube ipagbabawal na nila sa buong iskwelahan?! dapat yung guro sa klasrum ang bahala sa mga sitwasyong ganun.. o baka... ayaw lang ng mga kinauukulan na gumaling ang mga studyante nila sa rubik's cube! baka ayaw nilang mahigitan ng mga studyante ang rubik's cube-ing skillz nila!

pero ayun.. naalala ko lang.. lumang tugtugin na 'to eh.. kahit ang retro bumabalik pa rin sa uso 'no!

ang adik ay hindi natutulog...

woaaaaaoooooooaaaaaaooooooah sweet child o' miiiiiiiiiiine..

ilang beses ko nang rinu-rub ang aking mga mata... ewan ko ba.. buti sana kung makakatulong ito sa aking kasalukuyang estado.. gumawa ako ng tula.. out of boredom.. lupet nga eh.. feeling ko mas creative ako pag inaantok na ko.. pero wala yun.. placebo effect lang yun.. di ako yung katulad ng iba na talagang gising pa rin hanggang alas tres ng madaling araw.. ang malaking sasakyan ay nangangailangan ng maraming gasolina.. kaya hanggang alas dos lang ako magpupuyat.. o baka hanggang alas dos lang ako magkokompyuter.. kasi pagkahiga ko magbabasa pa ko ng pugad baboy.. masyang pampatulog.. lalo na yung mga bagong kopya.. tulad ng 13.. pakorny ng pakorny mga jokes ni Pol Medina eh.. pero ayos lang.. I adore corny jokes...

ay nakalimutan ko pala may tula dapat akong ipapakita sa inyo.. isa kasi akong nilalang na di marunong gumawa ng tula.. walang rhythm o rhyme yung mga tula ko.. sa tingin ko nga eh di ko sinusunod ang poetry writing dogma.. or kung sinusunod ko man.. marami akong linalabag na faux pas.. pero I adamantly believe that art has no limits! kaya gawa lang ako ng gawa.. pag tinawag kong.. art.. art na yun! although di naman talaga sya mag-aappeal sa marmi.. pero ganyan talaga.. tingnan mo Cueshe' sabi nila they're a band.. eh sa tingin mo ba music ang ginagawa nila?

Ang Adik ay Hindi Natutulog
isang tula ni Kenneth Fernandez

ang bulag ay hindi nakakakita
ang bingi ay hindi nakakarinig
ang pipe ay hindi makapagsalita
ang manhid ay hindi nakakaramdam

ang suplado ay hindi namamansin
ang sugapa ay hindi namimigay
ang bobo ay hindi nagiisip
ang malibog ay hindi rumirespeto

ang tatay ay hindi umiiyak
ang nanay ay hindi lumalaban
ang anak ay hindi sumasagot
ang sanggol ay hindi malaya

ang kapitan ay hindi nakikinig
ang mayor ay hindi gumagalaw
ang governor ay hindi tumutlong
ang congressman ay hindi nagpapakita

ang mata ay di dapat nabubulag
ang tenga ay di dapat nabibingi
ang bibig ay di dapat napapatahimik
ang kamay ay di dapat nakakadena

ang matatanda ay di dapat pinagpapahinga
ang magulang ay di dapat pumoprotekta
ang kabataan ay di dapat matulog
ang magiging anak mo ay di dapat maging katulad mo

ang puta ay hindi madumi
ang kriminal ay hindi masama
ang durugista ay hindi tarantado
ang adik ay hindi natutulog

yun ang tula na ginawa ko ng ilang minuto lang dahil inaantok ako.. maganda? pangit? wala akong masyadong pakialam.. pero matatamaan pa rin naman ako kahit papaano..

mabuhay ang mga may kaliwang kamay!

recognizable pitfalls

I'm pretty much confused right now... maybe those who don't think at all tend to be happier in the long run.. those who perceive a tree as a plant made of wood and leaves are quite fortunate.. and those try get into the bottom of things would eventually bring all of their unanswered queries with them to their rotting state... why can't we destroy everything to create a new beginning? I'm not really expecting an answer that would satisfy me.. I don't argue about those things anymore because it's pretty much impossible to win.. you can't emerge as the victor without arming yourself to the teeth and of course blowing the motherfucker's head and crushing it into pieces..but I guess it all depends on the situation.. who gets shot first, who runs out of bullets first, and who stops using their weapons first... maybe that's the beautiful thing about having a bullet in the head.. the caliber of the gun you're holding wouldn't matter.. it would all rely on taking advantage of every situation...

a pretty far out entry I guess.. bang!

gamigo

well.. I've been playing games on my PC for the past few days.. games like Neverwinter Nights 2, dota, and Unreal Tournament 3... I'd say it's a very balanced gaming diet.. we have the slow paced game.. the medium paced game.. and the uber fast paced game..

neverwinter nights was fun.. especially the depth of the character customization.. it was fun.. although I haven't finished the main game yet cause I stopped playing for a few days or so.. but yeah.. love the voice acting.. like the graphics a bit.. sorta like the turn based fighting of Dungeons & Dragons.. and yeah.. I'm not really used to the slow paced-ness of the D&D games.. but yeah.. something to do for the long rainy summer..

dota was kinda fun too.. although I didn't like the dying part.. or I dunno.. I didn't like the monotony of the game itself.. I can't believe how thousands of people can adore the game.. or maybe it's just me? the only hero I've been using is Rhasta.. the Shadow Shaman guy.. and I'm always against AI kids.. I don't feel like going online.. I'm not really that good.. I always get pawned by easy AI kids.. but yeah.. hate the dying...

but they're worthless compared to Unreal Tournament.. the FPS I've grown to lov-- oh wait.. it was Quake.. not Unreal.. but yeah.. loved both games.. killing people is very fun.. especially when you do it online.. wanna kill and kill and kill and kill THE FUCKING SONS OF BITCHES UNTIL THEY'RE UNABLE TO RESPAWN ANYMORE!! uhhhhhhh.. yeah.. right.. whatever

Sana Everyday Mother's Day

I'm back again.. with photos not in any way related to the day itself.. which is mother's day.. but yeah.. you don't have to see me celebrating with my mum anyway.. you're just there to see how I view the world.. clean and crispy...

insider chika

nag-enroll na ko kanina... at nakita ko ang tentative list ng pre-engineering class... pero baliktad kong nabasa eh.. kasi nasa table ni ma'am Yabut.. mga naalala kong surnames ay: Envoltorio, Dionisio, Garcia, Carlos, Capistrano, Castillo, Lucina, Hernandez, Cuaycong, Dequilla, Estacio... tas posibleng malipat si Carreon at Valderrama sa ibang section dahil puno na yung pre-engineering.. tska baka dalawa yung pre-med sections.. 50 students daw kasi yung mga pwedeng ilagay sa pre-med.. tas pinakakonti sa pre-law.. 39 students.. yun lang...

pero ang pinakamasaklap talaga ay hihiramin na lang daw ang mga libro! pero.. it has it's own pros and cons.. at least pag ganun.. di mo na kelangan magnakaw.. pero.. pag nawala mo naman.. malas mo.. ilang beses na rin kasi ako nabiktima ng pagnanakaw ng libro.. langya eh.. nung sican yir naman ako di naman ako nanakawan.. siguro depende lang yun sa section.. marami kasi akong gagong kaklase ngayon.. di katulad nung sican yir ako.. amababait nila.. puro pagsyosyota ang pinaguusapan nila.. pero nung third year rin naman puro pagsyosyota pinaguusapan nila.. pero athlete sila eh.. there's a big difference y'know..

pero ayun.. pedophile mga athlete samin eh.. di katulad nung sican yir ako.. mga kasing tanda nila nagiging syota nila..

anyway... wala pa rin akong napapala sa mga ginagawa ko... kumain ka na lang ng spaghetti ng Tropical.. tipid

nailcutterpillow

If I stop blogging then that means I'm happy...

I noticed that my pictures aren't what I want them to be.. the colors are all pale and stuff.. I feel like increasing their contrast or something.. that's something I'm tired of doing actually.. editing the photos.. why can't we go back into the days where-- wait.. it was a lot more complicated and tedious back in the days.. you still have to go to the dark rooms and have films and stuff.. but yeah.. now that that the digital age has brought us the digital camera.. we don't have to worry about the price of the film or developing it.. maybe there'll be a time were guns are also digital? y'know.. like.. the film is to camera and bullet is to a gun.. get it? like.. maybe.. bullets will be.. digital.. all you have to worry is.. I guess.. the limit? of how much shots can you make-- wait.. it's starting to sound like a digital camera.. but you get the point right? c'mon...

but yeah.. with every advancement comes another burden.. like before.. people are very cautious when taking shots.. because the film is limited to how many shots or so.. and in a way.. it limits the amout of bad shots.. sooooo I guess you can say that photography back then had quality even for non-professionals.. but now.. you can store thousands of photos with a thing that's thinner than a guy's dong suffering from hypogonadism... but yeah.. enter the mediocrity of common photos.. but I don't feel like ranting about it.. I guess it's pretty much the norm these days.. now that cellphones are armed with camera lenses.. but yeah.. I guess it has it's own artistic merit.. and even if it doesn't.. maybe.. it wasn't really meant for any artistic purposes.. maybe they like keeping memories of the time they met this certain celebrity or something...

but yeah.. I love saying 'but yeah'... forgive me.. I'm a guy.. men aren't the chatty type.. except when they're drunk or when there's a gun pointed at his head.. and our vocabulary isn't as broad as women's..

I tried reading my blog entries.. and I'm quite surprised at the things that I said.. although it kinda gets irritating at times.. now I know why some people get irritated with me.. cause I suck like a bloody wanker on liquor street.. but yeah.. I'm guessing that I might not change in the coming years.. or I dunno.. maybe some life changing event transpires within this year and.. uhmmmm.. yeah..

for those who stood like the berlin wall... I'm pretty fine with what happened

Kaibigan, galing akong Vigan!

a bunch of photos from our vigan trip.. nothing much.. wala naman masyadong magandang photos dun eh..

Ramoun Batista Interview

interview ni Ramon Bautista kay Jonas Meza.. priceless

Gorgonites unite!!

well.. I'm back.. and nakakatamad gumawa ng blog entry tungkol sa trip.. basta ang kelangan nyo lang malaman eh mas matagal yung trip papunta't pauwi keysa sa stay namin sa Vigan.. amazing 'no?

masaya sa Vigan eh.. maganda tulog ko.. kahit 6 hours lang.. di sumasakit ulo ko.. ewan ko nga kung baket eh.. siguro yung unan yun o yung kama o yung mga multo ng hotel na tinirahan namin..pero sana dun na lang ako nakatira.. masaya eh.. masaya ang umaga, hapon at gabi... lalo na ang mga gabi.. pero ayun.. di ko na masyadong idedescribe ang trip..

tama nga mami ko.. dapat malibot ko muna ang buong pilipinas bago lumipad sa ibang bansa... kasi sa akin lang ha.. mas nappreciate ko ang pilipinas.. cheesy.. pero oo nga pramis.. kasi parang yung mga ibang palaging naga-out of the country trips.. tas sinasabi nila walang kwenta ang pilipinas.. di pa siguro nila nalilibot ang pilipinas.. siguro sa Puerto Galera at Boracay at Baguio lang ang pinupuntahan nila.. pero ewan.. baka masyado lang silang superficial at di sila marunong mag appreciate ng history ng isang bagay o lugar.. mabuhay ang pilipinas! di magpapalupig!!

currently listening to: Try, Try, Try Version 1 ng Smashing Pumpkins... beautiful song.. love the band.. love the cryptic lyrics... parang Eraserheads.. nagtataka nga ako eh.. andaming may gusto sa Eheads.. eh napaka-cryptic ng ibang songs nila.. soooooo it's either matatalino ang mga pinoy o magaling talaga ang Eheads.. personally.. di ko masyadong gusto ang Eheads.. parang oo nga maganda music nila.. pero parang di ko ganun katrip.. ewan.. baka di ko pa napapakinggan lahat ng good songs nila.. pero uy ha.. maganda yung songs ni Ely sa Mongol days nya.. tska dun sa 1st album ng Pupil.. the 2nd album sucks.. parang Five On The Floor ng Sandwich.. mabibilang sa isang kamay yung magagandang songs..